Laying it all out there

OMG, so much has happened. I don't know where to begin. Why have I stopped writing in here?! I guess because I'm so tired and busy. Literally. But i'm living my life. =) no need to stop living to write about it as much. But all in all. I'm more alive than I ever was my entire life. Can I say..??.. I'm just.....

Living the life.

I saw him again one night going out with my girlfriends at masquerades. And it has been awhile since I've thought about him. I wonder how's he doing. I wish we could have been at least just friends. I want to ask friends around him about how's he doing. But I got no business to know. I kind of miss him randomly once in a while. Anyways, it's okay. Because I'm sure he's doing well. I knew we would be okay.. I think we both knew it all along afterall. I'm doing better, well actually doing very well without him. I'm starting to fall in love again when I thought he was the only one. I guess you have to let go one door to have another open. Although, I do still care about him, in spite of our non-existence of friendship. if we were just friends I would comfortably feel that I do care. The last words I told him was "Be happy and don't worry about me" I hope he is. Because I would feel bad if he wasn't and I am.