I Love My Mom

One day, I`ll ask her if i can have a boyfriend, But right now. She doesn`t want me to have a boyfriend. She thinks that when i have a byofriend, i will not care about her anymore, and that i will spend all my free time with my boyfriend and forget about about her. I love my mom so much, I don`t want to hurt her feelings because: i do want a boyfriend. I already thought about a way to talk to her. But not so sure if it`ll work. You know how when you were a baby learning your first steps, and your mother would hold on to you and won`t let you go so that you can walk by yourself. Well, i think my mom won`t let me go. isn` that sweet of her? But how else will i learn how to walk if she doesn`t let go. It`s hard but it will happen eventually. I need her to understanmd that she will have to let me go, even when it may hurt. I will always love her, and i appreciate all the times she held my hand when i needed her. Those times of counsel and love will never be forgotten.

i'm still think of him often

I'm transfering next semester to the school he is going to right now. i probably will see him there often. on easter vigil we had a great talk. but i never had a chance to put it on here. I think he kind of hint to me that he still have feelings for me, and that maybe we might be together again. It made me real happy. He also said that everytime he talked to a girl, he think of me and how i might disapprove. that's a little funny, but it's quite true that you can never forget a person you cared about alot, a person you love. i think there's something wrong with me. Do i love him or not?! Why do these feelings linger for so long?

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Haven't thought about him much. We're still friends i guess, because i wrote in his guestbook, and he wrote back and he seemed friendly. i wished him a happy birthday. i see him at church on Sundays and Saturdays. i know he sees me. That's about it.

Month of February

My Birthday just passed last week. Next week is Valentine's Day. and then a week after that, it'll be his birthday. I miss it alot. I thinking about sending him a birthday card. I might will.

Happy New Year

Every Tet, the church has a big celebration with places to eat food/drink, play games, and stand in the crowd to see a concert. This is a place where i know i'll see him. This year my family is celebrating tet at home. He might be at his grandma's house, outside for the midnight fireworks. I'll be out there too.