Friday, July 2, 2004
Goodnight
Today was so tiring. It was a lil busy a Canset today, but i didn't go as fast as I usually would on a Friday. I have to come in early tomorrow, so I have to go to bed soon. Oh yeah, we have plans for July 4th! I'm going to my grandmother's to visit, and we're going to go to pensacola beach, but only a few hours, hopefully i'll get a light tan, I'm so pale. My grandmother is about an hour away from the beach so it'll be cool. Since Casnet is closed two days after July 4th, i have a few days to let my body take a break from all the swimming i'm planning to do. Hopefully my muscles are ready for some cramping! I'm so thirsty. not that hungry, even though I ate around 3 today, i thought i should be, but i'm more thirsty.... and water just filled me up. Feet hurt, and I stink. After my shower, it'll be Night Night.
At This Moment
This morning: I'm so cold! my house is like freaking Winter, and it's July! I have to go to work later in 2 hours. I kind of missed it cuz i haven't been going to work this whole week until now since last Saturday. On Life/Family, I'm trying to save up for Family Vacations. Yes, vacation with a "S". One of it is to go to Disney World on the week of July 18th. We're going to go for a whole week and also to Miami to pick tropical fruits. The other Vacation is to Pensacola for a weekend at a condo we rented for $700! There's no plans for July 4th this year. It's because we're all busy. It's okay though. On Work/School, I'm still working on my papers to tansfer to UNO, and i'm going to the Transfer Student Orientation next Friday. Work has been Great! just hope that i can get off for my vacations. The people there is nice, and they pay well enough for me to stay. But when school starts, I think i should Quit, it's too stressful. On Friends/Love, I think i'm falling for a great friend of mines. But then again i might not be, it's probably because i feel lonely and he's always there to talk to me and cheer me up. We've been friends for a long time now, and i don't want to ruin that, so i'll just keep that way. On God/Self. I think i pray to him, but not as strong as i did before. I think it's because i don't need anything and I haven't experienced anything that made me feel uplifted. Also, maybe i always thank him right after something happens or when i need him right at that moment, and then i forget to tell him how i felt about it. As for me, i'm doing okay. Can't complain.
as Time passed
well, he says they're just friends, and i believe him.
JUNE: We went to the mall together with my little sister Anna, and ate ice cream at Marble Slab. It was so long since we spent any time together and i invited him to come with me, It was because i couldn't stand it without talking to him in person. He gave me a cd so that i could listen to a song he liked at the time. How did i feel about spending time with him? -We're still good friends. i guess this is how it will be.
Today: I moved on. I realize that me and him won't work out. I know that no matter how hard i try to keep the love we shared, Alive, it just won't be the same anymore. I need to move on and find something that will make me happy again. I stayed in loneliness for so long already.
JUNE: We went to the mall together with my little sister Anna, and ate ice cream at Marble Slab. It was so long since we spent any time together and i invited him to come with me, It was because i couldn't stand it without talking to him in person. He gave me a cd so that i could listen to a song he liked at the time. How did i feel about spending time with him? -We're still good friends. i guess this is how it will be.
Today: I moved on. I realize that me and him won't work out. I know that no matter how hard i try to keep the love we shared, Alive, it just won't be the same anymore. I need to move on and find something that will make me happy again. I stayed in loneliness for so long already.
Wednesday, June 30, 2004
Mother Again
I'm still worried about my mother and what she'll think when i tell her these stuff. Maybe i'll just wait until i meet the right guy and slowly let her find out and break it to her. I mean, I really appreciate all the times she held my hand when i needed her. Those times of counsel and love will never be forgotten. Just hope that she'll understand, and don't think that i want to really have a boyfriend to make her sad, it's just me growing up. it's hard on both of us, for her to let go, for me to actually start dating. Damn. To think of it, I'm not really ready for a relationship. i know i don't want to rush into it. So, i'll just wait for the right one i guess & the right time to tell my mother which is when I actually do have a boyfriend. Gosh! I'm thinking to much about something that really doesn't exist yet. I wonder how the pressure will be when i actually do have a boyfriend and tell my mother about it. Urgh. Imma stop thinking about this man, I guess just for now. It's really not that important yet anyways.