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Hello... Been a while... what's going on? everyone left xanga?

4/7/2007

today i called ton and talked to him for an hour or so. I haven't talked to him in so long and we had so much to catch up on. he didn't even know i was working at smoothie king or bought a laptop. I had to tell him my good news, about cardiopulmonary and getting a new car. And i also told him about me and liem. and william and how things are going very well. And for him, he's still in br but got kicked out from his sister's place and he's staying with a friend and another friend's house. He's also been sleeping around and got used. the girlhe slept with might be pregnant. but he doubt it is his because he used protection.. but still i couldn't believe he would really do something like that no matter what the circumstances. and now he's got himself into so much worries. he told me about his sex life. LOL! he told me he wanted to talk to Trang. I told him about people here... and what nots. and about going to church and stuff. i wish he still was innocent like me back here in new orleans. i bet he could be a different person. but i'm glad he's out on his own, i really want him to take care of himself before anyone else. he needs to get his priorities straight. he needs to save up money instead of wasting it on 300 phones and spending 600 dollars on a girl who doesn't give a damn about him. i feel bad for him man, he's broke and can't control his spending. that why he's not at school pursuing his degree for optometry. I was like, Why he keep doing this shit all over to himself. he should get along with his family and move back or something. hehehe.... it kinda funny to think ton actually got laid, he must met some really needy girls or must be super drunk... LOL! anyways, the laptop bag came in today, it;s so ugly and freakign big!!! i have to return and go find a good looking one. and it gotta be done before thao-vi birthday. there's three and a half more week untilt he end of the semester. wow!!! it's so fast! i can't believe i'm about to start cardiopulmonary in about two months. =( i hate school and now more?!?! i can't take it anymore. but i have to.

Thank god for everything in my life, i know tonight is good friday and all, but i feel like jesus is still alive, at least in my mind and heart. When i'm sad or feel very depressed, i would think jesus died. but today i realized that maybe cardiopulmonary is my true calling in life. there's got to be a reason why i applied in the first place and how all of a sudden i met william again and becoming friends with him. He's my sorta close connection to the department. and can show me a thing or two around the place. comparing my life to ton's i feel very good about my life and how it's going. i dont' have alot of downs as much as ups. and thank god for that. other than failing general chemistry again... i don't knwo why that course is so hard. i don't understand it, i think i need a tutor in chemistry. i have no idea what is going on. maybe the learning center have a tape or something i can watch and study with. i'm truly blessed, thank you jesus... thank you.

4/5/2007

I'm boutta go to church. wonder if i'm going to see liem. I was about to go out withhim today, but i had no idea what to do withhim. and plus thao-vi was making fun of me because i was excited to go out with him. I was planning to go tutor viet with william, but i kinda see him more than my own boyfriend, so that was not cool. So william has a girlfriend back in vietnam. That was interesting to know. i never met an american guy that likes vietnam so much. maybe he's head over heels for this girl that may be trying to get all his money or whatnot. anyways, i learned alot about william that day. and i bet he learned alot of viet too.

3/24/2007

12:39 AM 3/24/2007
today i went out with liem. we went to kanno's for lunch and ate sushi. it was good. and after that, we went to hoa's place. just chilling and talking. me and liem are going out again on sunday. sometimes i can't stand how liem is. so unromantic, but somehow, i'm still fond of him. he's a nice guy, can't go wrong with him. he'll never cheat right? no. but i can't expect alot from him either, but i wish he become a great person with ambitions and goals and want to be a man. and yes i think the guy should do everything. he sucks anyways, he wouldn't do it even if he knows he should and most definitely won't do it even if i really want him to. i never got flowers from him. not even candy. i think he's saving those tricks for when i'm mad and he wants to apologize. that won't happen. if he does, i'll throw it back at him. i know he usually doesn't buy flowers or candy, so i won't accpet them under those circumstances. if he wants to give me flowers.. do it on a special day, but if he's nice, he'll give flowers just because i want flowers. i have work tomorrow, so i'm going to sleep now. by the way, full house is good.12:53 AM 3/24/2007

3/22/2007

1:03 AM 3/22/2007
I failed a general chemistry test today... why can't i understand it?!?!?! i hate chemistry. Organic is fine. i don't know why i have so much difficulty with the general chemistry?!?!?!?!? Anyways, i'm going to find out my results from biology tomorrow. and i have to do homework for recitation too. Did i write about cardio pulmonary? well, i think i'm in the program, but i'm not sure yet, three more weeks. I drove chanh thu home today and visited fudgie and chino. fudgie is pregnant again. i told thu about cardiopulmonary. i haven't seen liem in so long, since his birthday.. Our sixth month is pretty boring. next month is seven. i have no idea what to do with liem. i still like him, i mean i don't dislike him. he's just whatever, yeah he's my boyfriend, who's not really my boyfriend. it's weird... is this it? i wish there can be more. i wanna do something. for us. romantic?! tried that, didn't really work. just died off.. he didn't try anything yet. i wish there was more between us. don't you feel something's missing between us?! like sparks? like excitement? like very cool feeling? i want that. i don't know. by the way i hate work. so much drama, and i don't like danny. he's a goody two shoe. i don't like him. after i get done with lab, i'll never see him again, except for work!! good lord! he's such a jerk. JERK. to everyone!! no wonder everyone don't want to work with him. why can't he be fired and leave us alone. i been getting better at work, still practicing to make good smoothies, but i know most of the recipes. man, the main thing i'm scared of is cardiopulmonary program. i can't believe i got in. but they're still doing interviews and maybe i won't get in. i hope i do though. i want to do something in my life. or at least start on it. i have no idea what ig ot myself into, but it seem like i can do it. but I'm scared my chemistry grade isn't going to cut it. it's a C right now and it may have gone lower. to a D which is what i deserve in this course. I need help. i need help. and i need to go to the dentist. i really do. but i can manage without dental care, which isn't too healthy. but it kinda helps me control my eating habits. i eat small portions now. since i eat slower, i should eat less. i want to start exercising again, but the treadmill broke. let's try it tomorrow and see. oh yeah, i lost my id too. should i get a new one? yeah.. i need to go to the resource center and watch chemistry videos too. i have no idea what i'm doing in there.1:22 AM 3/22/2007