Turn it off.
Don't even look at it anymore.
Let it go.
Seriously, Let Go.
Erase, Avoid, Ignore.
Out of sight, Out of Mind.
There's nothing you can do anymore.
It's out of your control.
I think you're going a little crazy.
Get Over It!!!!
Monday, January 12, 2009
Sunday, January 11, 2009
Step One
Quiet.
Relax.
It's going to be okay.
There's always a start,
to anything worthwhile.
Gracefully and quietly,
do your thing.
Be yourself.
Do what you want to do.
Relax.
It's going to be okay.
There's always a start,
to anything worthwhile.
Gracefully and quietly,
do your thing.
Be yourself.
Do what you want to do.
Saturday, January 10, 2009
Seriously Ranting
I need a new place to write.
To write whatever and however I want.
There's no need for others to understand it
but mostly for me to release it.
I'm not a brilliant writer or anything.
I just want to write.
And here is where I want to do it.
To write whatever and however I want.
There's no need for others to understand it
but mostly for me to release it.
I'm not a brilliant writer or anything.
I just want to write.
And here is where I want to do it.
Thursday, January 8, 2009
Fantasy World
I think I'm suffering from a heavy dosage of indulgence from reading one of the best saga this decade. It is my escape from reality. My Fantasy World. It makes me forget about everything around me that I forget the time and even lose hours of sleep. And when I'm not reading, all I can think about is Edward and Bella. Silly, I know!! It's such a page turner. I haven't felt that excited over a book since my Nora Roberts days. And It's been years. I can't believe I finished four books in less than three weeks plus a 12 chapter supplement to Twilight from Edward's POV online. I wish it lasted longer. Talk about obsession over fiction. I'm head over heels for this character. But soon enough, I must put the book down and come back to reality. I couldn't have received a better Christmas present this year. I think I've spent my break doing something I really love. I love reading books for fun and not for studying purposes. I miss doing quiet things like reading, puzzles, and sleeping! And I love listening to bookstore music while doing quiet things, especially during reading of course. They're so relaxing and calming. I recently had a chance to be introduced to Yiruma. He's such a great classical pianist artist. I felt inspired and uplifted when hearing his music. It makes me miss that feeling of the old days when things were easier, less complicated, worry free, and simply happy.
I guess it's just me and I'm getting old. That wishful feeling of being young again really gets to ya. Ah Yes, I'm in denial of getting old. I don't want to grow up. I'm going to be 24 in a few weeks. Urgh. Sometimes I forget how old I am because the number is getting higher and higher. I have to think for a while to actually answer how old I am. You know you're getting old when your younger sister have to teach you how to use a cellphone. I can't even put it on silence or turn on bluetooth without her help. Or if your older sister is trying to hook you up with somebody she knows. As if I'm getting too old and better stop dating and settle down soon. But I hope I never get too old to write. This is somewhat my escape from the world too. To write. I've been writing journals since... I can't even remember cause I'm too old now. But it's another thing I enjoy very much. I love writing journals/blogs/stories/poems. It's another quiet thing I like to do. It's a time for myself, to be alone, away from the real world. When I get older than I am right now, I want to write a Book. One day... It's on my list of things to do. Maybe I'll become like a Rowling or Meyer. *giggles* It's okay for me to keep dreaming right?
I used to always write in a real journal/notebook alot. I still do from time to time. But I never finish my fourth journal book from 2007. I used to Love writing in that journal. I pray alot through that journal too. Well, sometimes I write to God, But most of the time I write as if I'm talking to someone I really care about. But I don't anymore because I've don't have that drive for me to write for them anymore. It was another thing I love to do with my quiet time though. Anyways, writing is one of my ways of praying to God. Apart from, the second best way I pray which is ironically the total opposite, singing loudly in the shower. But I think praying is the strongest in silence. Hence sometimes I pray through writing as if I'm writing to God. But not as of this moment. I'm just writing about God. Not to Him. But he knows that. When it really gets down to praying, whole heartedly, for me is writing. And I just don't write one paragraph. It goes on and on to for couple of pages, front and back. And I start from left top corner and end on right bottom corner of the page. When I go back to read my prayers I see watermarks from my tears as I flip through them. I haven't done that in a while. I've been writing through typing alot. Yeah... I should go back to writing in my journal.... I just need to find it first.
I guess it's just me and I'm getting old. That wishful feeling of being young again really gets to ya. Ah Yes, I'm in denial of getting old. I don't want to grow up. I'm going to be 24 in a few weeks. Urgh. Sometimes I forget how old I am because the number is getting higher and higher. I have to think for a while to actually answer how old I am. You know you're getting old when your younger sister have to teach you how to use a cellphone. I can't even put it on silence or turn on bluetooth without her help. Or if your older sister is trying to hook you up with somebody she knows. As if I'm getting too old and better stop dating and settle down soon. But I hope I never get too old to write. This is somewhat my escape from the world too. To write. I've been writing journals since... I can't even remember cause I'm too old now. But it's another thing I enjoy very much. I love writing journals/blogs/stories/poems. It's another quiet thing I like to do. It's a time for myself, to be alone, away from the real world. When I get older than I am right now, I want to write a Book. One day... It's on my list of things to do. Maybe I'll become like a Rowling or Meyer. *giggles* It's okay for me to keep dreaming right?
I used to always write in a real journal/notebook alot. I still do from time to time. But I never finish my fourth journal book from 2007. I used to Love writing in that journal. I pray alot through that journal too. Well, sometimes I write to God, But most of the time I write as if I'm talking to someone I really care about. But I don't anymore because I've don't have that drive for me to write for them anymore. It was another thing I love to do with my quiet time though. Anyways, writing is one of my ways of praying to God. Apart from, the second best way I pray which is ironically the total opposite, singing loudly in the shower. But I think praying is the strongest in silence. Hence sometimes I pray through writing as if I'm writing to God. But not as of this moment. I'm just writing about God. Not to Him. But he knows that. When it really gets down to praying, whole heartedly, for me is writing. And I just don't write one paragraph. It goes on and on to for couple of pages, front and back. And I start from left top corner and end on right bottom corner of the page. When I go back to read my prayers I see watermarks from my tears as I flip through them. I haven't done that in a while. I've been writing through typing alot. Yeah... I should go back to writing in my journal.... I just need to find it first.
Sunday, December 28, 2008
Time Flies
The only thing that never changes is change itself.
2009 is only a few days away?! Whew* Time sure does fly by. I'm so excited for the upcoming year. So many new things and Changes. My break flew by so fast. I wish it lasted longer. I'm enjoying this break so much! In a lesuirely fashion too. I want to prolong it as much as possible. Spending time with my loved ones during the holidays are the best!! And it snowed in New Orleans! It was great to have enjoyed the beautiful scene this December for the Holidays again. I love Christmas Break. I got so many things done too. Since school was over, I had time to go shopping, got a new phone, contacts, a haircut, and catch up on my dramas and even read the Twilight saga. LOL!! I missed reading for fun so much! I haven't done that since my freshman year of college. I guess towards the end.. the courses are easier. Next semester I'll be working mostly and I only have one course and a senior thesis. So excited to get out of school soon! Then I'll have more time to go to work and get Paid Moolaaa ha ha ha! Okay I guess that was a little much. Well... There's a list of to do things I want to get to after I graduate too. And I've been adding alot of things to it. We'll see how it plays out in a few months. As for deciding what I want to do after graduation. I think I will take the boards for RDCS. A clinical affliate of the school have a good offer, I just need to pass the boards. So I've been procrastinating on the RRT boards. "sigh*" is al I have to say about that. I'm still rethinking, if I take the RDCS boards.... why should I take the RRT?! I think I should though. Since I'm young and in study mode anyways. Right?! I don't know. Then there's continuing education. That is always an open door for me whenever I want it. But the money looks pretty good right now, and the economy is not looking to good so I might as well take my chances while there're still good. I guess I'm settling into a stable job. I want to look forward to a stable future too ya know. I want to save up alot for big things. And I'm still young so I have plenty of time. I doing a little identity searching too. I'm a little naive about adult decisions and adult life. I'm a kid at heart and I don't want to grow up. But I am. So I'm doing alot of reflection about my life and the things I want to do with it and future plans. Researching about cars and houses and other hobbies and businesses for later on in life. There's so much life after school. I want to be ready for the big world. I mean, There's SO MUCH to do after school. Where do I start?! Are the things I want in life possible? Can I still be myself or do I really need to grow up alot? I still have time to think about it. Here's to 2009! I'm looking forward to it!