10:24 PM 3/1/2007
So, today i found out how much i need to study for organic. I'm just going to use the old exam to study from and know what i need to know. But it's not always enough. It's harder than i thought. anyways, i need to do my physics homework. Today i'm gonna finish this movie, i also watched The Art of Seduction with the same actress in A moment to remember. it was okay not as good as a moment to remember. I tried watching summer scent and full house too, but the story line in the beginning is too boring. Well, summer scent takes too long to watch. So i'll stick with phim tau. anyways. i finished maiden's vow. it was good too. well, at least the first generation. Anyways, that-vi is watching threshold of an era. and i think that movie is not worth watching. She forwards half the movie. what a way to watch it. i guess it's because she watched it before already, so it's not that good. I saw theresa and dat today and they asked me about the semiformal for tomorrow night and vi did too. Today trang is so pretty. She doesn't try hard, and yet she's so pretty. it's her caual being that makes her so pretty. Diem is a lucky boy. chanh thu is looking good herself too! I'm glad we're all growing up and looking it too. As for me, i look sloppy and sloppier everyday. i feel like school is making me fat and lazy. LOL. oh wait that's me. I'm scared of getting high cholestrol man. Hong has it, and she might create a diabetes too. I'm scared for her, but i bet she's watching everything she eats now. How will her kids be like? since nhan family has high cholestrol and hong does too. It's gonna be hard. i want to go to the dentist, but no money plus i have credit card bills. I think i have to mail off the old one from last month. Wait, i can buy a money order and mail it with the new statement this month. I'll get a money order for 125 dollars. that's all i can afford. i didn't ask mom and dad to pay me for the grocery i got for the house yesterday. Oh well, they been paying for my credit card bill too. Plus, i got a laptop now. i wonder if i save different files under different names will take more space than me saving all in one notepad document? i guess since i've been doing it this way, i'll stick to it. anyways, time to turn in for the night. 10:34 PM 3/1/2007
Thursday, March 1, 2007
3/1/2007
11:48 PM 2/28/2007
in a few days would be me and liem's six month anniversary. i don't he'll care. why do i think about him so much while he doesn't give a damn about me? Am i being foolish? why do i like him so much? if he ever do anything worng to me. i will surely break up with him. if he cheats on me, i'll be smiling and definitely walk away happy. knowing that i deserve better and he proved it. so he should never ever cheat on me! damn, but i would be hurt, but i'll be fine. he'll just give me a reason to break-up with him. right now, i don't think there's a good reason to break-up with him. so i'm staying with him. I believe he's a good guy and won't hurt me. I mean he's okay. he can be my boyfriend. so that's good enough. and i can be his girlfriend too. i know he likes me. well, not enough though. i wish he like me more and express his feelings to me more. he keeps it to himself, which in turn causes me to hold back my feelings too. I guess we're not ready for a serious relationship and i'm glad we took it down a notch or three. LOL. maybe i'm better off being single. well, not really, because then it would be different. he would never know how much i feel for him. so i'm glad we are together. at least i'm not sad or miserable about how much i love him and he doesn't know it. he suck at being a boe's pretty honest. i saw hyfriend though. but i still like him. how he played liar's dice. he's a honest player. i know all his moves. he kinda slow huh? just like hoa said about ox's. but i don't want to be superstitious. and plus. i told her that me and liem aren't as serious anymore. which is goo dbecause i need to focus on school anyways. and if mom and dad ever worry about me and liem. that'll be so weird because i thought they don't want me to date? they keep telling me about my weight and about how i look for my boyfriend. isn't that not what they want me to think about? and focus on school?! how weird. they are so weird. so what do they really want me to do? i'm glad i have liem as my boyfriend that takes me out occasionally. that's good so that my parents aren't on my ass like they used to be. I guess they're are lil more lienent now. i just have to know my limits. i guess liem was right when he said i have to do it first so that they'll get used to it. but i still want to take things slowly and wait for some more time until i let him meet my mom and dad. It's still too soon i think i really want to pass a few more courses and see what i can do with my degree before i actually think about a more serious relationship. it's nice to have a boyfriend. he's not the #1 boyfriend but he's a good one and that's good enough right? i wish he can be a better boyfriend, hopefullly in time he'll become better. and do things for me. maybe my family will see how well he treats me and like him more. better than do nothing right? or is it better to do nothing now and do something later. Rather than do something now and be even better and better as our relationships become more serious. He's a lil too smart. i don't like it if he's doing that. he's lazy and doesn't try. and always take the easy way. Sigh I'm thinking too much. okay i'm boutta call it a night. 12:09 AM 3/1/2007
in a few days would be me and liem's six month anniversary. i don't he'll care. why do i think about him so much while he doesn't give a damn about me? Am i being foolish? why do i like him so much? if he ever do anything worng to me. i will surely break up with him. if he cheats on me, i'll be smiling and definitely walk away happy. knowing that i deserve better and he proved it. so he should never ever cheat on me! damn, but i would be hurt, but i'll be fine. he'll just give me a reason to break-up with him. right now, i don't think there's a good reason to break-up with him. so i'm staying with him. I believe he's a good guy and won't hurt me. I mean he's okay. he can be my boyfriend. so that's good enough. and i can be his girlfriend too. i know he likes me. well, not enough though. i wish he like me more and express his feelings to me more. he keeps it to himself, which in turn causes me to hold back my feelings too. I guess we're not ready for a serious relationship and i'm glad we took it down a notch or three. LOL. maybe i'm better off being single. well, not really, because then it would be different. he would never know how much i feel for him. so i'm glad we are together. at least i'm not sad or miserable about how much i love him and he doesn't know it. he suck at being a boe's pretty honest. i saw hyfriend though. but i still like him. how he played liar's dice. he's a honest player. i know all his moves. he kinda slow huh? just like hoa said about ox's. but i don't want to be superstitious. and plus. i told her that me and liem aren't as serious anymore. which is goo dbecause i need to focus on school anyways. and if mom and dad ever worry about me and liem. that'll be so weird because i thought they don't want me to date? they keep telling me about my weight and about how i look for my boyfriend. isn't that not what they want me to think about? and focus on school?! how weird. they are so weird. so what do they really want me to do? i'm glad i have liem as my boyfriend that takes me out occasionally. that's good so that my parents aren't on my ass like they used to be. I guess they're are lil more lienent now. i just have to know my limits. i guess liem was right when he said i have to do it first so that they'll get used to it. but i still want to take things slowly and wait for some more time until i let him meet my mom and dad. It's still too soon i think i really want to pass a few more courses and see what i can do with my degree before i actually think about a more serious relationship. it's nice to have a boyfriend. he's not the #1 boyfriend but he's a good one and that's good enough right? i wish he can be a better boyfriend, hopefullly in time he'll become better. and do things for me. maybe my family will see how well he treats me and like him more. better than do nothing right? or is it better to do nothing now and do something later. Rather than do something now and be even better and better as our relationships become more serious. He's a lil too smart. i don't like it if he's doing that. he's lazy and doesn't try. and always take the easy way. Sigh I'm thinking too much. okay i'm boutta call it a night. 12:09 AM 3/1/2007
Wednesday, February 28, 2007
2/28/2007
7:19 PM 2/28/2007
The last day of the month. I didn't do anything productive again today. I finish my lab report and turned it in today. And guess what?! we didn't have lab either. And i got paid today 186.00. and me and thao-vi wanted to eat sushi, but it was closed until dinner time. i wanted to stay back at school today to get my test results from last time, but i went home instead. Maybe he'll bring them next exam date. Who knows. I'm not looking forward to my 61. Which is a C grade. =( i hate chemistry, and organic isn't fun either. Anyways, been watching alot of phim tau and need to start on my physics homeowrk soon. and next monday i don't have class, but i'm going to school to study too. and i will on saturday too. so friday, sat sun, and monday i have off to study for organic. but i bet you that i won't start studying until monday night. maybe tuesday. Because the test is on wednesday. But then i have too much to do. Good thing i don't have to turn in a lab report next wednesday. I have to do physics too. and hopefully this week in recitation will give me alot of things to study for organic.
I've been thinking alot about Liem too. Actually i don't want to break up with him. I think i'm fine with him right now. I feel like i have someone. and that's good right? Maybe he doesn't like me, but there's got to be a reason why he's still with me. Am i putting myself too low? Like, i make liem seem like the better person but i know i'm so much better than that. Why doesn't he see that? that He's lucky to have me as a girlfriend? He takes advantage of me. He doesn't know what he's got. And i don't feel like proving myself to him. I feel like not special around him. He's so frugal. I got to tell him next time he does that price checking thing. It was his birthday that day. i didn't want ot pick fights with him. Besides, it's small things anyways. he might say i'm makign a big deal otu of nothing. i worry too much about the small things. I'm tired and i need to do other things than write so much about nothing. 7:30 PM 2/28/2007
The last day of the month. I didn't do anything productive again today. I finish my lab report and turned it in today. And guess what?! we didn't have lab either. And i got paid today 186.00. and me and thao-vi wanted to eat sushi, but it was closed until dinner time. i wanted to stay back at school today to get my test results from last time, but i went home instead. Maybe he'll bring them next exam date. Who knows. I'm not looking forward to my 61. Which is a C grade. =( i hate chemistry, and organic isn't fun either. Anyways, been watching alot of phim tau and need to start on my physics homeowrk soon. and next monday i don't have class, but i'm going to school to study too. and i will on saturday too. so friday, sat sun, and monday i have off to study for organic. but i bet you that i won't start studying until monday night. maybe tuesday. Because the test is on wednesday. But then i have too much to do. Good thing i don't have to turn in a lab report next wednesday. I have to do physics too. and hopefully this week in recitation will give me alot of things to study for organic.
I've been thinking alot about Liem too. Actually i don't want to break up with him. I think i'm fine with him right now. I feel like i have someone. and that's good right? Maybe he doesn't like me, but there's got to be a reason why he's still with me. Am i putting myself too low? Like, i make liem seem like the better person but i know i'm so much better than that. Why doesn't he see that? that He's lucky to have me as a girlfriend? He takes advantage of me. He doesn't know what he's got. And i don't feel like proving myself to him. I feel like not special around him. He's so frugal. I got to tell him next time he does that price checking thing. It was his birthday that day. i didn't want ot pick fights with him. Besides, it's small things anyways. he might say i'm makign a big deal otu of nothing. i worry too much about the small things. I'm tired and i need to do other things than write so much about nothing. 7:30 PM 2/28/2007
Monday, February 26, 2007
2/26/2007
10:22 PM 2/26/2007
Today, I'm am totally unproductive. I went to school today by myself, thao-vi skipped school. Then I went to organic lecture and took notes. Went to the women's center and played on the computer, tried to read organic text book (chapter 4). and then took a nap until time to go to work. Ate a tuna sandwich at subways and then changed my pants in the car and went to work. I worked til 8:30ish and went to taco bell and then drove home and called liem. Talked to him and went home and ate, shower and now getting ready to go to sleep. I want to watch a lil bit of chinese movie. So unproductive huh? I really wanted to study organic chem and do some homework problems or do some Gen chem Homework or start on that quiz due february 28th, which is wednesday. Last day of the month. Then i have physics homework duw sunday again, and then i have an organic test on wednesday. Wow. School is so Whoa. I don't wanna say i'm doing good in all my classes because i'm not all that great as i want to be. I want to make an a in something. I really have to study harder. i think i can do it.
There are things that really want to make me break up with liem. like the way he's very frugal. and he's an ox, who is kinda slwo and will have a miserable life. i don't know if i can deal with that. and then he doesn't treat me good. I mean he doesn't treat me badly like hit me or anything. He just doesn't treat me like a boyfriend would for his girlfriend. I don't know. Am I asking for too much? I don't think so because, if he really likes me then he should show it. I give up. I don't think i can do this anymore. He doesn't seem like he likes me. He's just whatever. I don't like it when he does that to me. I feel like an ordinary girl. he supposed to make me feel like the luckiest girl in the world. I want to be that girl in his life. The girl of his dreams. I want to feel like fairytales do come true and he's my one.
Today, I'm am totally unproductive. I went to school today by myself, thao-vi skipped school. Then I went to organic lecture and took notes. Went to the women's center and played on the computer, tried to read organic text book (chapter 4). and then took a nap until time to go to work. Ate a tuna sandwich at subways and then changed my pants in the car and went to work. I worked til 8:30ish and went to taco bell and then drove home and called liem. Talked to him and went home and ate, shower and now getting ready to go to sleep. I want to watch a lil bit of chinese movie. So unproductive huh? I really wanted to study organic chem and do some homework problems or do some Gen chem Homework or start on that quiz due february 28th, which is wednesday. Last day of the month. Then i have physics homework duw sunday again, and then i have an organic test on wednesday. Wow. School is so Whoa. I don't wanna say i'm doing good in all my classes because i'm not all that great as i want to be. I want to make an a in something. I really have to study harder. i think i can do it.
There are things that really want to make me break up with liem. like the way he's very frugal. and he's an ox, who is kinda slwo and will have a miserable life. i don't know if i can deal with that. and then he doesn't treat me good. I mean he doesn't treat me badly like hit me or anything. He just doesn't treat me like a boyfriend would for his girlfriend. I don't know. Am I asking for too much? I don't think so because, if he really likes me then he should show it. I give up. I don't think i can do this anymore. He doesn't seem like he likes me. He's just whatever. I don't like it when he does that to me. I feel like an ordinary girl. he supposed to make me feel like the luckiest girl in the world. I want to be that girl in his life. The girl of his dreams. I want to feel like fairytales do come true and he's my one.
Monday, February 19, 2007
2/19/2007
Today was new year's. I have to work tomorrow. but it's cool.gives me something to do. I crammed for the biology test and did okay i guess. it was similar to the old test which made it possible to study for and do-able. I went tet bac truong and bac quy with mom today. got ly-xi money and sang alot of karoke and ate alot of chocolate today. It was valentine's day candy on sale at big lots. i ate a small bowl of hu tieu, which surprisingly i lost an appetite for. it's just that i want to lose a lil weight since i'm walking around campus alot and school is taking alot of my pleasure sleeping time. i kinda feel like i'm skinnier. my slacks was loose on me. School helps me lose weight, not alot but it's all good. i love school, sometimes i hate it, but it's all worth it. liem called me around 9:30ish but i missed his call and didn't realize it til around ten. I'm okay without him. i been knew that. just that he's my boyfriend now, but doesn't seem like it. but in the end, i'm still into him. silly i know, but now i'm kinda glad we aren't as serious as i thought we should be. It's just a boyfriend. nothing serious, just normal i guess. i haven't talked to him since valentine's day. is that not good. i guess we're not like other couples where we do everything together. this way mom and dad are not worried that my focus is off from school and too much dating. I'm somewhat glad that me and liem are this way because of school is my first priority. and plus, liem... he still needs to learn alot about having a girlfriend, i'm patient. boy is he lucky to have me. I like him too so it's not that bad. he just doesn't treat his girlfriend like the girl of his dreams. and i'm okay with that, because in the back of my mind i sometimes think that there's someone for me out there. one day i'd feel loved by that person. maybe it'll be him but maybe not and it's okay, i'm just chilling anyways. having him as a boyfriend just makes everything a little easier to deal with when i need him. which most of the time i don't need him. he sucks at that. even if i don’t need him, if he shows that he's there anyways, it means alot.. but he doesn't. I feel like i want to show him i'd do anything for him. but he might take advantage of it and me. it make me seems desperate too. so i won't do that. A relationship is a two way compromise. and he doesn't want me to spend alot. i don't want him to come to my house yet. we're working on it... for his birthday, i wanted to make him business cards with a business card holder, but he doesn't work at that internship anymore. and he doesn't have a cell phone or office number. So, Plan B. It's still under 25 dollars and creative that i make him a cake right? If not then I'll just plan a day out with him on friday. considering he has class that day and also it's versai tet fair at night. I don't know what to do but i have five days. I'm wearing my gray contacts. It's so different. and bac truong complimented that i was pretty and he thought i was younger than thao-vi too. which is kinda funny. I'm so glad i finished my physics homework. and i started on friday too. and did some on my own without blackboard. I feel hot. I love my hair today. i used hot rollers to curl it. It looked different today. and i wore make-up and gray contatcs a whole new look. and last night's shower made my hair feel great. and also i re-dried my blanket before i went to sleep cause it was still a little wet, and it was so warm!!! It felt so good. Okay i'm going to bed now. goodnight.12:11 AM 2/19/2007