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Dear Jesus

I prayed to you many times for for letting me love him, and i always thought that he was loving me also. but i found out he doesn't anymore. he met soemone new, and he's in love with her. but it's okay, i trust you Jesus, and i still wanna Thank You for letting me love him, and feel the way that i do. It made me happy sometimes. and it made me realize how i really miss and how i really loved him. Now he says he's met soemone new! Urgh! i'm not sure how i feel. all these times i thought he still likes me. Why was i lying to myself. how did this happened?! I thought he still likes me. I'm sad now and feel betrayed, and i'm the one to blame. but yet i feel okay and cool about it, because this is what supposed to happen right?. I dunt know.I just really miss him
i guess it's alright, the best thing to do is to keep calm. because it's the best way to be. Maybe this is a test Jesus is testing me. and i believe that we belong together. If i keep my faith, then everything will be okay. It doesn't matter how many girls he goes out with cuz one day we will end up together. It's okay. If it's a test, i'll take it, and all the sadness it comes with. I want him to do whatever he wants, and be happy any moment he has. It'll be fine. I'll just hang on.


Song: Hanging By a Moment -Lifehouse
Mood: sad, and okay about it

urgh!

This is what it says in his profile: "I'm In Love Hell Yeah"
He says that he just recently met someone, and that he was scared to tell me, and relieved his stress because he told me?! ugh?! i feel: i dunt know. Should be sad, but mostly blank and shocked and taking it cooly. Ugh! Oh well, i guess that's it.

Song: Frou Frou - "It's good to be in love"

Whoa

I did it in 29 seconds.
I deserved a B!!
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i saw this on Your page ton, it was interesting, so i tried it and this is what i got!!!

*sigh*

I think he still likes me, Because whenever he talk to me online, it seems like he's really hitting on me. Is this good or bad? I don't know. I just want things to be good between us. But i don't want to lead him on; Because i'm not ready to start again. it's just happeneing all over agian and it's going to end as soon as i know it just started.

wednesday

Last night, i stayed up late watching this great chinese movie called "Fulltime Killer" it's about assassins. It was almost like counter strike but kind of like grand theft auto. It was awesome and i finally went to sleep around Two o' clock. I woke up around 9 to clean a lil and went back to sleep, than i woke up so that i can take my little sister to go eat ice cream at baskin robins, but they weren't open until 12:00 and the sign says their hours are 11:00 til whenever... forgot. I was so disappointed, but it was okay cuz we only waited about 10 minutes. During that 10 minutes, we went to the Domino's, which was next to baskin robins, and ordered a Philly Cheesesteak Pizza! It was great timing cuz when baskin robins opened, the lady had time to make cappuchino blasts for us while we ate pizza on their table. So it was a great lunch. then we went home to get tennis stuff to play at joe brown park. Since no one was there during that time. It was also a bad idea cuz it was so HOT! so we went to sonics after thirty minutes and got drinks and i dropped off a camera at walgreen's. Than back to our plan, we wanted to go to Hannan to pick Thao-Vi Up and head to the mall early, but unfortunately, my brother called and said that they were home from offshore, so we had to go home and help out with the shrimp and stuff. Well that's it, that was my day.

LJ Just getting started

Kinda new at this livejournal thing. But i'm pretty sure i'll get the hang of it soon. i wanted to have a journal online, so that friends and family can read and catch up on things about me. I might not write in this everyday, but i'll try my best to post alot of things for everyone. Well, enjoy and come back soon!

I Love My Mom

One day, I`ll ask her if i can have a boyfriend, But right now. She doesn`t want me to have a boyfriend. She thinks that when i have a byofriend, i will not care about her anymore, and that i will spend all my free time with my boyfriend and forget about about her. I love my mom so much, I don`t want to hurt her feelings because: i do want a boyfriend. I already thought about a way to talk to her. But not so sure if it`ll work. You know how when you were a baby learning your first steps, and your mother would hold on to you and won`t let you go so that you can walk by yourself. Well, i think my mom won`t let me go. isn` that sweet of her? But how else will i learn how to walk if she doesn`t let go. It`s hard but it will happen eventually. I need her to understanmd that she will have to let me go, even when it may hurt. I will always love her, and i appreciate all the times she held my hand when i needed her. Those times of counsel and love will never be forgotten.

i'm still think of him often

I'm transfering next semester to the school he is going to right now. i probably will see him there often. on easter vigil we had a great talk. but i never had a chance to put it on here. I think he kind of hint to me that he still have feelings for me, and that maybe we might be together again. It made me real happy. He also said that everytime he talked to a girl, he think of me and how i might disapprove. that's a little funny, but it's quite true that you can never forget a person you cared about alot, a person you love. i think there's something wrong with me. Do i love him or not?! Why do these feelings linger for so long?