I prayed to you many times for for letting me love him, and i always thought that he was loving me also. but i found out he doesn't anymore. he met soemone new, and he's in love with her. but it's okay, i trust you Jesus, and i still wanna Thank You for letting me love him, and feel the way that i do. It made me happy sometimes. and it made me realize how i really miss and how i really loved him. Now he says he's met soemone new! Urgh! i'm not sure how i feel. all these times i thought he still likes me. Why was i lying to myself. how did this happened?! I thought he still likes me. I'm sad now and feel betrayed, and i'm the one to blame. but yet i feel okay and cool about it, because this is what supposed to happen right?. I dunt know.I just really miss him
i guess it's alright, the best thing to do is to keep calm. because it's the best way to be. Maybe this is a test Jesus is testing me. and i believe that we belong together. If i keep my faith, then everything will be okay. It doesn't matter how many girls he goes out with cuz one day we will end up together. It's okay. If it's a test, i'll take it, and all the sadness it comes with. I want him to do whatever he wants, and be happy any moment he has. It'll be fine. I'll just hang on.
Song: Hanging By a Moment -Lifehouse
Mood: sad, and okay about it
