I'm smiling in and out

It was last Friday that it happened. I saw him walking and i had this urge to come by and talk to him. I usually would walk away or try to avoid him. But this time it was God that helped me not to think and do whatever my heart felt like doing. I went by sat next to him and talked to him. We decided to go walk around campus and talk some more. I miss him so much. Maybe i should tell him that next time we talk. We're emailing each other now, but we're just friends, nothing major. I hope this goes well between us. I don't want to put my hopes up too high because i know i'll get scared and back away from it all again. I've been praying to God for my future husband. i don't know who it is. But i sure do hope it's him. I pray that he's healthy and happy. That one day we will find ourselves in love with each other. But as of right now. I enjoy the feeling of him in my heart again. Thinking about him makes me smile and if i were to see him today that'll be great! I love this feeling. Hope it lasts for a while i really want that.