So, It took me a while. But I'm doing it. I'm deleting alot of my past relationship memoirs away. I'm not going to look at it. I'm just going rid of it all. I think I'm ready now. I'm going to be who I was before being with him again. Back to where I started I guess, very comfortable and not a care in the world. Just need to take care of myself and be happy. It's going to take me a while to finish getting rid of it all because so much of him has taken its place all around my room. I mean my life. So It's hard but I need to do it. I really NEED to. Maybe it'll make things easier for me, yeah. Let's see how it goes. I hope getting rid of all my past help me move forward even further away from him. and away from my past. Yeah. I took off his phone number form my phone months ago. and now I started with all my emails in my inboxes and sent messages. I need to take out all the pictures of him in all my albums and journals. I need to get rid of that picture album box he got me. And I think I'll send back that scrapbook like I say I would. You know what? I'll just throw it away. If he finds out I'm getting rid of his stuff. It'll hurt me too. So I'm just going to do it, No regrets. Just do it!!!! I don't need to keep my words to him anymore. I'm going to keep my First Love online journal though. I like it. So i'm goign to keep it. But all the more recent things I need to rid of it. All my saved messages and pictures off my computer. I need more space for new stuff.
Wow, I can't believe the more I delete stuff of him, the lighter it feels. A big relief, Like something heavy has lifted off my shoulders. I kinda feel better!! =) I'm going to continue this. And as time passes and I dont' notice things about him anymore, Things will naturally be okay again.
