Dear God

Hey there, it's been a while. I know. But I really need you. I don't think anything is possible unless I have you. And it's that time again. When something's come up. I hope you understand how important things are going along for me. I mean sure you do. So yeah, Where do I start. Well, if I'm blessed and this is what you want for me, and this is my calling for my life. To help other in this form of way. I hope I will be happy when it's true. Well, you already know I find happiness in anything I encounter in my life. So that's not too hard that I will be happy. But I really hope that my high hopes will not be shattered. I think that's what I'm more afraid of than anything. I'm a little nervous, but I know when the times comes, I can do it, I can get through it. But the anticipation of my outcomes is what I dread. What if I don't make it. I'm so worried. I know I'd tell myself to try again, But that's not half the hard part. So, I'm praying to face that feeling of disappointment. I'm not going to pray that I will pass, because that part is on my own. But IF, just IF, I don't pass it. I hope you help me overcome that feeling of failure. Or just help me avoid that miserable feeling.