As of Right Now

It's very late right now. But I can't go to sleep. I mean. I really should go to sleep because I have class at 8 in the morning and I have to leave early to beat traffic and get a good parking spot. But I rather stay up and write. Since I have a blogger anyway and no one comes on here. I can feel free to write all that is on my mind. As of right now.

Hmmm... Where do I start? I have so much to do. I want to take a break from things. but if I do that.. I'll be more tired of trying to play catch up. So I'm really trying to stay on top of things. This semester is so freakin hard. Too much to do. And so Little money. My second board cost 340.00!!! Damn. And that's with a 50.00 discount for taking it within 60 day from the first board. I didn't schedule it yet. But I know I will have to do it before November. Plus, starting ECHO stuff is really hard. I'm so scared of the material covered. At first I wanted to work while going to school. But I don't see that happening at all. I might fall over and die if I work and go to school. I told my mom and dad and... they were very supportive. They told me not to work and just enjoy being a student. I Love them!!! But it's very bothersome to me to bum money off of them. But I can't help it. I will repay them double and more. What else is going on. My niece has a broken clavicle. It broke while passing through the birth canal. my family wants to love her and hold her, but she's so fragile. It's only been a week and a half. so we have to just give her some time to heal. I have my god daughter too in Lafayette coming to visit soon. Yippie. Lately, I've been thinking about moving there one day. They have a cardiovascular institution my grandma had to go to once. Well, all I know is that one day I will move away from New Orleans. As much as I love this City. I just rather be somewhere else. I might stay a few years after I graduate and get some experience. But when I find housing and a good work place, I will move there. Then I'll be looking to settle down and start a family. For now, I'm not interested in dating. I'm much happier being single. And I have some things I wanna do before settling down. I want to go traveling and it would be great if I can help people in that process. I'll be waiting for it to come up in the next year or maybe more. I just recently made connections to do that. Hopefully I will have that opportunity to go help people and travel around the world. But that means I can't be attach because I will move away for a long period of time and who knows where life takes me. So I can't guarantee anything. Especially a relationship or commitment with one person. So I'm not looking to be in a relationship right now. And of course my family would be happy for me as long as I'm happy. On the other hand, I'm looking to higher education. There's so many options. I'm so happy that I'm in this program because it has opened so many doors for me. I mean, going to college of course open many doors. but now, I have confidence to accomplish all the things behind these doors and it's all mines for the taking. Some of my classmates are applying for the new PA program coming up next year at LSUHSC new Orleans. I think I might do that also if my grades are good. But I'm also interested in perfusionist school too. I have the foundation for a successful career and believe anything is possible. Well, more possible than before. It used to be a doubting but hopeful feeling that there's a possibility of going to medical school. But now, I think my education here sets me up nicely for medical careers. I mean I wouldn't even think about perfusion school if I just graduated from UNO. My teacher told me that having a clinical background BS degree is not the same if I were to graduate from UNO majoring in biology/chemistry. Sure I can go to med school as many would after getting a BS, but there's many other options that are more appealing to me to obtain now after all this education. I feel very honorable to be in this program. hehe... And I was told to be honored the very first day I started in this program in our first class by the teachers. They themselves have graduated from this program and taught many students that came out to be outstanding people. I have hopes to be an outstanding person too. =)

Fall 2008

Welcome Baby Nia to the world!!!! As of August 12, 2008 at 12:56pm.

Also... some good news as of August 4, 2008.
I am a professional Certified Respiratory Therapist. LOL!!! I have a credential behind my name now. I didn't find out until my teacher annouced to the class of 09 & 10's that the whole senior class all passed the board. Still waiting in the mail for my results though. You know, we have a reputation to uphold. We have a 100% (yes!! 100%) passing rate on the first try for the CRT. Let's hope the junior class keep up the tradition.

Thank you Jesus and all who prayed for me.

In the next few weeks.. hopefully, I will pass my second boards and become a Registered Respiratory Therapist. This fall I am also starting my second credentialing in the program for Echocardiography. I can't believe the courses I have. It is listed below:

Fall 08:
Principles of Electrophysiology
Cardiovascular Pathophysiology
Ultrasound Physics and Instrumentation
Clinical Echocardiology and Echo Lab
Advanced Critical Care Conference

and after this one more semester Spring 09:
Senior Thesis
Specialized Field Experience
Special Topics on CPS

The L Word

Why do people fall in love?



It is a mystery why we fall in love. It is a mystery how it happens. It is a mystery when it comes. It is a mystery why some love grows and it is a mystery why some love fails.
You can analyze this mystery and look for reasons and causes, but you will never do anymore that take the life out of the experience. Just as life itself is more than the sum of the bones and muscles and electrical impulses in the body, love is more than the sum of the interests and attractions and commonalities that two people share. And just as life itself is a gift that comes and goes in its own time, so too, the coming of love must be taken as an unfathomable gift that cannot be questioned in its ways.

Sometimes, hopefully at least once in your life - the gift of love will come to you in full flower. Take hold of it and celebrate it in all inexpressible beauty. This is the dream we all share. More often, it will come and take hold of you, celebrate you for a brief moment, then move on.

When this happen to young people, they too often try to grasp the love and hold it to them, refusing to see that it is agift that just as freely, moves away. When they fall out oflove, or the person they love feels the spirit of love leaving,they try desperately to reclaim the love that is lost ratherthan accepting the gift for what it was, then moving on.

They want answers where there are no answers. They want to know what is wrong in them that makes the other person no longer love them, or try to get their love to change, thinking that if some small things were different, love would bloom again. They blame their circumstances and say that if they go far away and start a new life, their love will grow.

They try anything to give meaning to what has happened. But there is no meaning beyond the love itself, and until they accept its own mysterious ways, they live in a sea of misery.
You need to know this about love, and accept it. You need to treat what it brings you with kindness. If you find yourself in love with someone who does not love you, be gentle with yourself. There is nothing wrong with you. Love just didn't choose to rest in the other person's heart.

If you find yourself someone in love with you but you don't love him back, feel honored that love came and called at your door, but gently refuse the gift you cannot return. Do not take advantage; do not cause pain. How you deal with love is how you deal with yourself. All our hearts feel the same pains and joys, even if our lives and ways are different.

If you fall in love with another, and he falls in love with you, and then love chooses to leave, do not try to reclaim it nor to assess blame. Let it go. There is a reason and there is a meaning. You will know in time.
Remember that you don't choose love. Love chooses you. All you can really do is accept it for all its mystery when it comes into your life. Feel the way it fills you to overflowing, then reach out and give it away. Give it back to the person who brought it alive in you. Give it to others who deem it poor in spirit. Give it to the world around you in any way you can.


There is where many lovers go wrong. Having been so long without love, they understand love only as a need. They see their hearts as empty places that will be filled by love, and they begin to look at love as something that flows to them rather than from them.

The first blush of new love is filled to overflowing, but as their love cools, they revert to seeing their love as a need.They cease to be someone who generates love and instead become someone who seeks love. They forget that the secret of love is that it is a gift, and that it can be made to grow only by giving it away.

Remember this and keep it to your heart. Love has its time, its own season, its own reason for coming and going. You cannot bribe it or coerce it, or reason it into staying. You can only embrace it when it arrives and give it away when it comes to you. But if it chooses to leave from your heart or from the heart of your lover, there is nothing you can do and there is nothing you should do. Love always has been and always will be a mystery.

BE GLAD THAT IT CAME TO LIVE FOR A MOMENT IN YOUR LIFE...

"If you keep your heart open, it will come again..."

I loved you once, I'll love you forever.