Mother Again

I'm still worried about my mother and what she'll think when i tell her these stuff. Maybe i'll just wait until i meet the right guy and slowly let her find out and break it to her. I mean, I really appreciate all the times she held my hand when i needed her. Those times of counsel and love will never be forgotten. Just hope that she'll understand, and don't think that i want to really have a boyfriend to make her sad, it's just me growing up. it's hard on both of us, for her to let go, for me to actually start dating. Damn. To think of it, I'm not really ready for a relationship. i know i don't want to rush into it. So, i'll just wait for the right one i guess & the right time to tell my mother which is when I actually do have a boyfriend. Gosh! I'm thinking to much about something that really doesn't exist yet. I wonder how the pressure will be when i actually do have a boyfriend and tell my mother about it. Urgh. Imma stop thinking about this man, I guess just for now. It's really not that important yet anyways.