Closing Chapter

We are friends and always will be. I'm happy. I can close this chapter of my life and finally move on. It took me time and opening my heart to others to find out that I can live without him and not having him in my thoughts. I realized that me and him are different now compared to the past. He changed into a person that doesn't interest me anymore. It was a good idea to spend some time with him again to find that out. I thought he was 'The One'. *chuckles* So sad that I have a change of heart. From time to time I'm conditioned to say his name in my mind when I think about a boy, but there's no feeling anymore when I say it. It just surprised me, of how I lived my life with every thought of him taking over me. True it may still have some effects on me; however, there's no more pain or excitedness in it anymore. Strange to think that There's really nothing between me and him anymore, other than we are mutual friends. The thought of him doesn't influence me anymore. Sad to say, but it's like he's really nothing to my heart anymore. I mean I do still care for him, but as friends would to each other. If he have feelings for me and actually tells me, I don't think it will ever work, there's no more Hope for us. And I'm always forever grateful he was in my life.