I really like that feeling.
The beginning.
I never thought I'd go for him.
But lately, I've been seeing him differently.
I actually opened up to him.
Which I thought would just be about a small opening.
but it opens up more and more each day... and it's freaking me out.
I need to control myself too.
Getting out of hand here.
Maybe being in control was what messed up my previous relationship.
Well, learning from my experience, I'll be more open and trusting.
I guess I don't have to worry about him cheating on me cause someone cheated on him.
and He's too nice to actually do that right?
he is nice. and I love nice.
He doesn't wear glasses daily, but he does at night, lol
But I'm tired right now... And I'm just enjoying the moment.
how long will he last?
Not sure, but it feels good right now... and I'm just going with the flow.
let things fall as they may.
Thursday, April 30, 2009
Monday, April 20, 2009
Goodbye New Orleans
I've decided.
I'm moving away from New Orleans
That's the only way I think I can truly live my life.
I think I will work at West Jeff prn until I paid off some debt from school
and credit card bills and finish the car note for my parents.
And also save about five grand to setup a place
and find a full time position to be stable.
I kind of want to take the GRE and apply for a masters program.
I haven't really decided where to though.
I know I'm heading Westernly though.
Either Lafayette, or Houston, or Dallas.
so far I have a connection to each city.
It'll be even better if Tien goes with me too.
I haven't told her about it yet,
I just know she wants to move away too.
Mostly to Dallas on her part.
I need to research about how much they pay RT's over there though.
And other living expenses too.
but we'll see.
most definitely, I'm planning on moving.
I'll miss NOLA, but no one will miss me, that'll make it easier to go.
I'm moving away from New Orleans
That's the only way I think I can truly live my life.
I think I will work at West Jeff prn until I paid off some debt from school
and credit card bills and finish the car note for my parents.
And also save about five grand to setup a place
and find a full time position to be stable.
I kind of want to take the GRE and apply for a masters program.
I haven't really decided where to though.
I know I'm heading Westernly though.
Either Lafayette, or Houston, or Dallas.
so far I have a connection to each city.
It'll be even better if Tien goes with me too.
I haven't told her about it yet,
I just know she wants to move away too.
Mostly to Dallas on her part.
I need to research about how much they pay RT's over there though.
And other living expenses too.
but we'll see.
most definitely, I'm planning on moving.
I'll miss NOLA, but no one will miss me, that'll make it easier to go.
Thursday, April 16, 2009
FTW, Not!
Went to school first to take a written Echo Final.
Then afterwards... I attended the LSRC 2009 in BR today.
FTW?!(For the win)
Not me.
explanation:
winners: goes to San Antonio
represent state of Louisiana
and compete at nationals.
registration fee used to offset the expenses.
but only if lsuhsc-no wins.
Lose: Get a portion of the registration fee back.
I wanna get the money back.
Mission, Lose and have fun while going down....
Task 1: I drank one beer before competition started.
flushed and red faced and burping.
Beer isn't my thing.
So, I started on margarita number one.
everyone on my team was drinking.
Oh, Btw, I'm senior, Team Captain of CPS Raw, with two juniors.
LOL, I told them don't stress and just have fun.
We were planning on losing anyway.
Damn was I buzzed, laughing while answering questions.
LOL~! we even had a tie and had a sudden death round.
Very much excitement in the heat of the moment.
surprisingly, we lucked out and and got onto the winners brackets.
margarita number two, and they cut me off after that.
I got silly, wore my sunglasses and took off my shoes...
went on the stage and answered harder questions and still...
was undefeated~! We passed the preliminary round today.
and funny thing is... we wanted to lose~!
Going back again tomorrow to compete in the final round.
We can still lose tomorrow, meanwhile... we're just having fun.
Vinh drove me and Hue to BR and back to New Orleans.
I told him I was gonna drink. LOL. he didn't mind.
I took a nap on the car drive before heading home.
came home real late and not sleepy yet.
Due to the nap. at least I won't be hungover tomorrow.
I drank just enough, not drunk.
More drinking plus crawfish tomorrow~! woohoo~!
Oh, I have a video of Phong doing his birthday dance at Hooters today.
I didn't bring my camera, it's on my phone, must send it to him~! LOL
brining a camera tomorrow to take pics!!!
Then afterwards... I attended the LSRC 2009 in BR today.
FTW?!(For the win)
Not me.
explanation:
winners: goes to San Antonio
represent state of Louisiana
and compete at nationals.
registration fee used to offset the expenses.
but only if lsuhsc-no wins.
Lose: Get a portion of the registration fee back.
I wanna get the money back.
Mission, Lose and have fun while going down....
Task 1: I drank one beer before competition started.
flushed and red faced and burping.
Beer isn't my thing.
So, I started on margarita number one.
everyone on my team was drinking.
Oh, Btw, I'm senior, Team Captain of CPS Raw, with two juniors.
LOL, I told them don't stress and just have fun.
We were planning on losing anyway.
Damn was I buzzed, laughing while answering questions.
LOL~! we even had a tie and had a sudden death round.
Very much excitement in the heat of the moment.
surprisingly, we lucked out and and got onto the winners brackets.
margarita number two, and they cut me off after that.
I got silly, wore my sunglasses and took off my shoes...
went on the stage and answered harder questions and still...
was undefeated~! We passed the preliminary round today.
and funny thing is... we wanted to lose~!
Going back again tomorrow to compete in the final round.
We can still lose tomorrow, meanwhile... we're just having fun.
Vinh drove me and Hue to BR and back to New Orleans.
I told him I was gonna drink. LOL. he didn't mind.
I took a nap on the car drive before heading home.
came home real late and not sleepy yet.
Due to the nap. at least I won't be hungover tomorrow.
I drank just enough, not drunk.
More drinking plus crawfish tomorrow~! woohoo~!
Oh, I have a video of Phong doing his birthday dance at Hooters today.
I didn't bring my camera, it's on my phone, must send it to him~! LOL
brining a camera tomorrow to take pics!!!
Tuesday, April 14, 2009
Reveal a Secret
I have a sceret and I shouldn't keep it to myself.
It's interesting how I came upon this secret, but for those who seek it... they may find it.
I think it was Easter Vigil Mass and a reader was reading the fifth reading that evening said it in Vietnamese. He did it in a way that I actually understood it. Well, there was also the fact that I was reading the English version as he was reading the vietnamese one. I really enoyed the reading in Vietnamese though. During Mass, and it was a long Mass I must add, it dwelled upon me that we have a vietnamese bible at home. What if it's written in the same way?
Well, last night I pulled it out and start reading. Yes, in Vietnamese. I read it out loud to myself to sound out some words I didn't know. I just randomly flipped through it to wherever I find it interesting or recall the English version of it. Well, there was a reading from the old testament about healing from a doctor and about death adn dying. It was really good in vietnmese so I bookmarked it by folding it. It was late already so I went to sleep.
Tonight I pulled it out again to bookmark it better with a sticky tab. And I pulled the American bible out too to find the translation and what book/chapter it really is. Come to find, it was Sirach 38. It took me a while to figure out "Sach Huan Ca" is Sirach. But when I found it and the readings matched in translation, I was intrigued by it. The readings were very attracting. I read the first 4 chapters. I really like it. so here I am writing this. My secret was keeping this book all to myself. Because how it relates to me in my life right now. it calls to me and I feel blessed with much grace from it. I wanted to just read and learn from it and live my life better. I didn't want to share it because it might reveal my sins, but it told me not to keep it to myself but to share it instead. So, I reccommend the book of Sirach if you want to read the bible. I might even say it may be my favorite book in the bible so far. I can sense the greatness of the Lord through the readings. I find there is something greater out there much more than myself. I feel little again. I feel simplified.
I wanna revert back to my simplier ways. Go back to when things were umaccomplished and there was much to do. And that whatever I have accomplished already means nothing. I want to have significant and meaningful goals but approach them in humblier ways, and be blessed in tiny amounts. I don't wanna be over my head and arrogant. I don't want ego to drive my soul. I don't pride to guide my ways. I need to find a better outlet. A way to live through the Lord, for him.
It's interesting how I came upon this secret, but for those who seek it... they may find it.
I think it was Easter Vigil Mass and a reader was reading the fifth reading that evening said it in Vietnamese. He did it in a way that I actually understood it. Well, there was also the fact that I was reading the English version as he was reading the vietnamese one. I really enoyed the reading in Vietnamese though. During Mass, and it was a long Mass I must add, it dwelled upon me that we have a vietnamese bible at home. What if it's written in the same way?
Well, last night I pulled it out and start reading. Yes, in Vietnamese. I read it out loud to myself to sound out some words I didn't know. I just randomly flipped through it to wherever I find it interesting or recall the English version of it. Well, there was a reading from the old testament about healing from a doctor and about death adn dying. It was really good in vietnmese so I bookmarked it by folding it. It was late already so I went to sleep.
Tonight I pulled it out again to bookmark it better with a sticky tab. And I pulled the American bible out too to find the translation and what book/chapter it really is. Come to find, it was Sirach 38. It took me a while to figure out "Sach Huan Ca" is Sirach. But when I found it and the readings matched in translation, I was intrigued by it. The readings were very attracting. I read the first 4 chapters. I really like it. so here I am writing this. My secret was keeping this book all to myself. Because how it relates to me in my life right now. it calls to me and I feel blessed with much grace from it. I wanted to just read and learn from it and live my life better. I didn't want to share it because it might reveal my sins, but it told me not to keep it to myself but to share it instead. So, I reccommend the book of Sirach if you want to read the bible. I might even say it may be my favorite book in the bible so far. I can sense the greatness of the Lord through the readings. I find there is something greater out there much more than myself. I feel little again. I feel simplified.
I wanna revert back to my simplier ways. Go back to when things were umaccomplished and there was much to do. And that whatever I have accomplished already means nothing. I want to have significant and meaningful goals but approach them in humblier ways, and be blessed in tiny amounts. I don't wanna be over my head and arrogant. I don't want ego to drive my soul. I don't pride to guide my ways. I need to find a better outlet. A way to live through the Lord, for him.
Friday, April 10, 2009
Good Friday
I'm Bored... and frustrated....working on paper. Urgh~!
I'll be gone for another while...
I'll be gone for another while...
Wednesday, April 1, 2009
Keri Hilson - Knock you Down
Heh.. not again..
Ohh.. this ain’t supposed to happen to me..
[Kanye West]
Keep rockin, and keep knockin
Whether you Louie Vouitonn it up or Reebokin
You see the hate, that they’re servin on a platter
So what we gon’ have - dessert or disaster?
[Keri Hilson]
I never thought I’d.. be in love like this
When I look at you my mind goes on a trip
Then you came in.. and knocked me on my face
Feels like in I’m a race
but I already won first place
I never thought I’d fall for you as hard as I did
(as hard as I did, yeah)
You got me thinkin bout our life our house and kids (yeah)
Every mornin I look at you and smile
cause boy you came around and you knocked me down.. knocked me down
[Chorus]
Sometimes love comes around
(love comes around love comes around)
and it knocks you down
Just get back up
When it knocks you down
(knocks you down)
Sometimes love comes around
(love comes around)
and it knocks you down
Just get back up
When it knocks you down
(knocks you down)
[Ne-Yo]
I never thought Id
hear myself say (ooh)
Ya’ll gon head
I think I’m gonna kick it wit my girl today (kick it wit my girl today)
I used to be commander and chief
of my pimp ship flyin high (flyin high)
til i met this pretty little missile that shot me out the sky (ohhh shot me out the sky)
Hey, now Im crashing, don’t know how it happened
But I know it feels so damn good
Said if I could back, and make it happen faster
Don’t you know I would baby if I could
Miss independent (ohh, to the fullest), the load never too much
she helpin me pull it
she shot the bullet that ended that life
I swear to u the pimp in me just died tonight,
girl sometimes love
[Keri Hilson]
[Chorus]
Sometimes love comes around
(love comes around)
and it knocks you down
Just get back up
When it knocks you down
(knocks you down)
Sometimes love comes around
(love comes around)
and it knocks you down
Just get back up
When it knocks you down
(knocks you down)
[Kanye West]
Tell me now can you make it past your caspers
So we can finally fly off into NASA
you was always the cheerleader of my dreams that
seem to only date the head of football teams
and I was the class clown that, always kept you laughin
We, were never meant to be baby we just happen
so please, don’t mess up the trick.. hey young world I’m the new slick rick
they say I move too quick, but we can't let the moment pass us
Let the hourglass pass right into ashes
let the wind blow the ash right before my glasses
So I wrote this love letter right before my classes
How could a goddess ask, someone that’s only average
For advice
OMG, you listen to that bitch?
Whoa it’s me
Baby this is tragic
Cause we had it, we was magic
I was flyin, now I’m crashin
this is bad, real bad, michael jackson
now I’m mad, real mad, joe jackson
you should leave your boyfriend now, Imma ask him
[Keri Hilson]
Say u gotta put the good with the bad, happy and the sad
So will u bring a better future than I had in the past
oh Cause, I don’t wanna make the same mistakes I did
I don’t wanna fall back on my face again
Whoaa, whoaaa
I’ll admit it, I was scared to answer love's call
Whoaa, whoaaa
and if it hits better make it worth the fall
(When it comes around)
[Chorus]
Sometimes love comes around
(love comes around)
and it knocks you down
Just get back up
When it knocks you down
(knocks you down)
Sometimes love comes around
(love comes around)
and it knocks you down
Just get back up
When it knocks you down
(knocks you down)
Won’t see it coming when it happens (hey)
but when it happens you’re gonna feel it, let me tell you now
you see when love knocks you down
Won’t see it coming when it happens
but when it happens you’re gonna feel it, let me tell you now
you see when love knocks you down
yeah
Ohh.. this ain’t supposed to happen to me..
[Kanye West]
Keep rockin, and keep knockin
Whether you Louie Vouitonn it up or Reebokin
You see the hate, that they’re servin on a platter
So what we gon’ have - dessert or disaster?
[Keri Hilson]
I never thought I’d.. be in love like this
When I look at you my mind goes on a trip
Then you came in.. and knocked me on my face
Feels like in I’m a race
but I already won first place
I never thought I’d fall for you as hard as I did
(as hard as I did, yeah)
You got me thinkin bout our life our house and kids (yeah)
Every mornin I look at you and smile
cause boy you came around and you knocked me down.. knocked me down
[Chorus]
Sometimes love comes around
(love comes around love comes around)
and it knocks you down
Just get back up
When it knocks you down
(knocks you down)
Sometimes love comes around
(love comes around)
and it knocks you down
Just get back up
When it knocks you down
(knocks you down)
[Ne-Yo]
I never thought Id
hear myself say (ooh)
Ya’ll gon head
I think I’m gonna kick it wit my girl today (kick it wit my girl today)
I used to be commander and chief
of my pimp ship flyin high (flyin high)
til i met this pretty little missile that shot me out the sky (ohhh shot me out the sky)
Hey, now Im crashing, don’t know how it happened
But I know it feels so damn good
Said if I could back, and make it happen faster
Don’t you know I would baby if I could
Miss independent (ohh, to the fullest), the load never too much
she helpin me pull it
she shot the bullet that ended that life
I swear to u the pimp in me just died tonight,
girl sometimes love
[Keri Hilson]
[Chorus]
Sometimes love comes around
(love comes around)
and it knocks you down
Just get back up
When it knocks you down
(knocks you down)
Sometimes love comes around
(love comes around)
and it knocks you down
Just get back up
When it knocks you down
(knocks you down)
[Kanye West]
Tell me now can you make it past your caspers
So we can finally fly off into NASA
you was always the cheerleader of my dreams that
seem to only date the head of football teams
and I was the class clown that, always kept you laughin
We, were never meant to be baby we just happen
so please, don’t mess up the trick.. hey young world I’m the new slick rick
they say I move too quick, but we can't let the moment pass us
Let the hourglass pass right into ashes
let the wind blow the ash right before my glasses
So I wrote this love letter right before my classes
How could a goddess ask, someone that’s only average
For advice
OMG, you listen to that bitch?
Whoa it’s me
Baby this is tragic
Cause we had it, we was magic
I was flyin, now I’m crashin
this is bad, real bad, michael jackson
now I’m mad, real mad, joe jackson
you should leave your boyfriend now, Imma ask him
[Keri Hilson]
Say u gotta put the good with the bad, happy and the sad
So will u bring a better future than I had in the past
oh Cause, I don’t wanna make the same mistakes I did
I don’t wanna fall back on my face again
Whoaa, whoaaa
I’ll admit it, I was scared to answer love's call
Whoaa, whoaaa
and if it hits better make it worth the fall
(When it comes around)
[Chorus]
Sometimes love comes around
(love comes around)
and it knocks you down
Just get back up
When it knocks you down
(knocks you down)
Sometimes love comes around
(love comes around)
and it knocks you down
Just get back up
When it knocks you down
(knocks you down)
Won’t see it coming when it happens (hey)
but when it happens you’re gonna feel it, let me tell you now
you see when love knocks you down
Won’t see it coming when it happens
but when it happens you’re gonna feel it, let me tell you now
you see when love knocks you down
yeah