I have a sceret and I shouldn't keep it to myself.
It's interesting how I came upon this secret, but for those who seek it... they may find it.
I think it was Easter Vigil Mass and a reader was reading the fifth reading that evening said it in Vietnamese. He did it in a way that I actually understood it. Well, there was also the fact that I was reading the English version as he was reading the vietnamese one. I really enoyed the reading in Vietnamese though. During Mass, and it was a long Mass I must add, it dwelled upon me that we have a vietnamese bible at home. What if it's written in the same way?
Well, last night I pulled it out and start reading. Yes, in Vietnamese. I read it out loud to myself to sound out some words I didn't know. I just randomly flipped through it to wherever I find it interesting or recall the English version of it. Well, there was a reading from the old testament about healing from a doctor and about death adn dying. It was really good in vietnmese so I bookmarked it by folding it. It was late already so I went to sleep.
Tonight I pulled it out again to bookmark it better with a sticky tab. And I pulled the American bible out too to find the translation and what book/chapter it really is. Come to find, it was Sirach 38. It took me a while to figure out "Sach Huan Ca" is Sirach. But when I found it and the readings matched in translation, I was intrigued by it. The readings were very attracting. I read the first 4 chapters. I really like it. so here I am writing this. My secret was keeping this book all to myself. Because how it relates to me in my life right now. it calls to me and I feel blessed with much grace from it. I wanted to just read and learn from it and live my life better. I didn't want to share it because it might reveal my sins, but it told me not to keep it to myself but to share it instead. So, I reccommend the book of Sirach if you want to read the bible. I might even say it may be my favorite book in the bible so far. I can sense the greatness of the Lord through the readings. I find there is something greater out there much more than myself. I feel little again. I feel simplified.
I wanna revert back to my simplier ways. Go back to when things were umaccomplished and there was much to do. And that whatever I have accomplished already means nothing. I want to have significant and meaningful goals but approach them in humblier ways, and be blessed in tiny amounts. I don't wanna be over my head and arrogant. I don't want ego to drive my soul. I don't pride to guide my ways. I need to find a better outlet. A way to live through the Lord, for him.
