Linda! OLIVE YOU!
I Miss you Hunny Bunches of Oats! Whatever you're going through.... Don't forget to smile that beautiful smile of yours! You're a wonderful person and no one knows that better than you!
Wednesday, October 26, 2005
Thursday, October 13, 2005
Quiet Reading
I just got done with a statistics test. Dude.... it was killer man. Last question was a tricky one I think. Why do teachers put a tricky question on the test for?! I just think they wanna screw us over.. and never give us a chance to achieve any goals we want.
Anyways, Tomorrow is my fall break... No school for me! What am I going to do?! i hope I don't have to watch my sister's store. I think I probably have to though.... she needs to go out of town again. So, here's my chance to finish that book I started on before Katrina. I never passed chapter three on that book yet....now I can have some quite time for me. I miss those days when I have quite time doing puzzles and reading books in my room alone. I'm sharing a room with my sisters now and the only time I have some alone time is like in the bathroom or something...... funny.
Anyways, Tomorrow is my fall break... No school for me! What am I going to do?! i hope I don't have to watch my sister's store. I think I probably have to though.... she needs to go out of town again. So, here's my chance to finish that book I started on before Katrina. I never passed chapter three on that book yet....now I can have some quite time for me. I miss those days when I have quite time doing puzzles and reading books in my room alone. I'm sharing a room with my sisters now and the only time I have some alone time is like in the bathroom or something...... funny.
Chinh
I went back to New Orleans for the first time in 5 weeks. Dude, it stinks... I didn't want to stay long because there might be air-borne diseases floating around. Before we went back to Lafayette, we got some hot beignets and frozen au laits. Good Lord do I miss those. Thu called me yesterday and found out she's in Ohio. Haven't heard from her since Katrina.... and now she's an Aunt! Congratulations! I miss Thu very much man. Getting a call from her right before I went to sleep just made my day.
A new friend confided in me last night and had a heart-felt conversation. She's okay now. It lasted very long and my parents thought I was talking to a boyfriend or something. Never talked to anyone that long before..... It's a new friend (Chinh) I met here in Lafayette just three days ago. I do Believe in FATE (from Mary-Thao's Entry) because she and I can so relate to each other, seems like we're best friends or something and it's only been three days.
Can't forget... I got a phone call from Loi too... He's back in New Orleans.... So now there's hope to return to. It was a nice kick off to many conversations through the evening. I think having friends to give you a simple phone call can get you through alot. Thanks you guys!! I love you all!! Now it's my turn to call some people up.
A new friend confided in me last night and had a heart-felt conversation. She's okay now. It lasted very long and my parents thought I was talking to a boyfriend or something. Never talked to anyone that long before..... It's a new friend (Chinh) I met here in Lafayette just three days ago. I do Believe in FATE (from Mary-Thao's Entry) because she and I can so relate to each other, seems like we're best friends or something and it's only been three days.
Can't forget... I got a phone call from Loi too... He's back in New Orleans.... So now there's hope to return to. It was a nice kick off to many conversations through the evening. I think having friends to give you a simple phone call can get you through alot. Thanks you guys!! I love you all!! Now it's my turn to call some people up.
Tuesday, October 11, 2005
Breathe
I'm getting happier! I'm scared i might lose it though... because everytime I'm happy something bad happens. i just want to keep this feeling a little longer. let's not get my hopes up too high. I've been having trouble with this.... i really like this guy.. but things might not work out because the hurricane distanced us. I never really told him i like him because i'm scared it'll ruin our friendship. I even thought that a friend of mines was falling for him too. If I don't take this chance to tell him.... it might not have it again to tell him. So should I tell Him? Or just leave things the way they are... until we all go back to New Orleans?! then I'll have to wait some more... what if i never go back? ..so confused. I'm still thinking about it... and i feel like i should wait.... but I might lose my chance again.... i hope i don't regret this, but i'm going to wait til the time is right.... But what should i really do?
Monday, October 10, 2005
New Friend
when things are almost starting to get settled down.... One second later.. boom. things change again. So now my parents are going back next week to New Orleans and I think they are staying there. heard that they can work again and live in a trailer or something. But... wherever that's gonna go.. It means that i'm staying back in Lafayette with my two little sisters for school. Now we are trying to figure things out and I got really frustrated. who's gonna drop off and pick up Anna and Thao-vi?! Who's gonna babysit Katelyn? and grandma is gonna be alone in the house.... Urgh! On top of that... got into a argument with my dad, and my sisters got all mad at me. But it's over now. but still.... i'm very stressed out and I need to get away from my family right now.... but I Can't! Urgh. And then my dad got mad at Hong for something that is not her fault cuz she didn't know. Like she said, Dad can bring you really high one minute and then can just easily get you down the next and make everyone hate you. he really needs to control his temper. actaully everyone does in my house. One good thing, Hoa and I got help from Red Cross. It's not for Katrina, but for Rita. How?! Because I got my license in Abbeville, where Rita hit. God Knows I'm Broke! So I'm not gonna be too broke in the next couple of weeks. When life gives you bumps.. you smooth it out right? but it's not giving me enough time. trying to smooth out one and then it gives me another one to deal with. i'm soooo PMSing too man. I'm very angry and just need to be alone for a while, at least from all these negative things.
This morning a girl ran into me thinking I was a friend of hers. She said I looked like her friend named Van. She felt a lil embrassed... And then I told her my name is Van! wow.. .is there actually a lost twin of me out there?! Hahaha... we talked for a while and I think she's really nice. She asked me if I wanted to go chill with her sometime to meet the other Van. Glad I got to meet a new friend here. Her name is Chinh by the way. Maybe I can finally get out of my family mess and chill with new people.
This morning a girl ran into me thinking I was a friend of hers. She said I looked like her friend named Van. She felt a lil embrassed... And then I told her my name is Van! wow.. .is there actually a lost twin of me out there?! Hahaha... we talked for a while and I think she's really nice. She asked me if I wanted to go chill with her sometime to meet the other Van. Glad I got to meet a new friend here. Her name is Chinh by the way. Maybe I can finally get out of my family mess and chill with new people.
Friday, October 7, 2005
Movies
One night, I woke up from my sleep, and actually thought I was home.. in my own bed.. in New Orleans. When I realized that I wasn't... I cried .... and fell asleep.
Weekend of Movies: Watched "Just Like Heaven" and cried alot at the end and walked out the theaters red eyed. Went to wal-mart and bought "50 First Dates" for only $10 and watched it, laughed and cried. I saw this movie before.... but this time I cried even more. Maybe because I know what's gonna happen. Enough of all this crying.... why am I so emotional?! Either way, I ended the weekend of Movies renting "The Longest Yard". It was Funny! I think I have a favorite actor now: Adam Sandler! I watched almost every movie he's in.
Weekend of Movies: Watched "Just Like Heaven" and cried alot at the end and walked out the theaters red eyed. Went to wal-mart and bought "50 First Dates" for only $10 and watched it, laughed and cried. I saw this movie before.... but this time I cried even more. Maybe because I know what's gonna happen. Enough of all this crying.... why am I so emotional?! Either way, I ended the weekend of Movies renting "The Longest Yard". It was Funny! I think I have a favorite actor now: Adam Sandler! I watched almost every movie he's in.
Monday, October 3, 2005
Reflection (Xanga)
At this Moment
My Reflection I usually do this on my blogspot.. but what the heck..
Life: In general, it is okay. Hurricane did a big turn on me and I'm dealing with it as I live day by day. I'm in God's hands.
Family: Ever since we had foodstamps we've been eating real good. Better than we were before the Hurricane. Don't tell anyone but we eat salmon, snowcrabs, steak, and lobsters. I guess we eat too well, that's why I'm so fat! We (headcount of 9) are living in a apartment of two bed rooms, one bathroom, a living/kitchen room. It's small but easy to clean, so I guess we can live. There's some tension and conflicts here and there but we've been through worst and we can handle it. Let's just say the situation could of been worst but we're thankful that it's not! I mean, we went through a Fire one time and we learned alot from then. I love my sisters alot! They are alot more wiser than me when it comes to meaningful words. I learned alot from them. As long as I keep my mouth shut, they'll love me.
Work: I Quit Castnet two weeks before Katrina. Right now, I'm not looking for a real job.. I'm just helping out my sister's store whenever she needs me.
School: Attending ULL. It's okay I guess. Only thing I like most is the computer access. Classes are okay. I'm not failing any classes yet, but I'm not doing too great either. At least I caught up a little from the two weeks I missed. I felt like I was ripped off of two weeks of school. I now know the importance of attending classes. Just hope I pass or else I'm gonna change majors!
Friends: Not many, I only see Julie at school. My Family are my friends now. But I still have friends.. like through the internet. But just think.. they're all over the United States now! I have alot of Friends everywhere...... just not here. I really miss them! the times we've shared will never be forgotten. I love UNO and I always will!
Edit: I'm really not over him though... I wanted to let him go, but like i can't stop thinking about him dude.... Urgh!
Love: I'm letting him go because I know he can be happier with the girl who's falling for him too. Besides, we weren't even a real thing in the first place. Maybe I lost my chance on love but it's okay because I can move on. At least I didn't get too attached to someone, because it would be very hard for me right now if I was. If it was meant to be, It'll come back. If Not, It's okay because I still believe in love and a time for love. I just watched two movies about love (Just Like Heaven & 50 First Dates) and felt as if i'm the only person out there without a love life, what's strange is.. I'm okay with it. It's simply not my time yet, but I'm looking forward to it soon. * the guy i'm talking about will be left unnamed, please don't ask*
God: I trust him to bring me on a path that will lead me to where I want. Which is what he wants.. I hope. I need to pray more sencerely. I never lost faith in him, just been a little lazy. I pray for my family and friends 3H's (Health/Happiness/Holiness) and things... but I haven't thank him or praise him too much for it. (But I really do Jesus!) I just need to talk to Jesus more.
Self: I feel like I have no purpose to life. I want to become a doctor, but it's not looking too good right now. Maybe I could be a good nurse! I can work hard, I think I'm a hardworker.
At This Moment
Life: In general, it is okay. Hurricane did a big turn on me and I'm dealing with it as I live day by day. I'm in God's hands.
Family: Ever since we had foodstamps we've been eating real good. Better than we were before the Hurricane. Don't tell anyone but we eat salmon, snowcrabs, steak, and lobsters. I guess we eat too well, that's why I'm so fat! We (headcount of 9) are living in a apartment of two bed rooms, one bathroom, a living/kitchen room. It's small but easy to clean, so I guess we can live. There's some tension and conflicts here and there but we've been through worst and we can handle it. Let's just say the situation could of been worst but we're thankful that it's not! I mean, we went through a Fire one time and we learned alot from then. I love my sisters alot! They are alot more wiser than me when it comes to meaningful words. I learned alot from them. As long as I keep my mouth shut, they'll love me.
Work: I Quit Castnet two weeks before Katrina. Right now, I'm not looking for a real job.. I'm just helping out my sister's store whenever she needs me.
School: Attending ULL. it's okay I guess. Only thing I like most is the computer access. Classes are okay. I'm not failing any classes yet, but I'm not doing too great either. At least I caught up a lil from the two weeks I missed. i felt like I was ripped off of two weeks of school. I now know the importance of attending classes. Just hope I pass or else I'm gonna change majors!
Friends: Not many, I only see Julie at school. My Family are my friends now. But I still have friends.. like through the internet. But just think.. they're all over the United States now! I have alot of Friends everywhere...... just not here. I really miss them! the times we've shared will never be forgotten. I love UNO and I always will!
Love: I'm letting him go because I know he can be happier with the girl who's falling for him too. Besides, we weren't even a real thing in the first place. Maybe I lost my chance on love but it's okay because I can move on. At least I didn't get too attached to someone, because it would be very hard for me right now if I was. If it was meant to be, It'll come back. If Not, It's okay because I still believe in love and a time for love. I just watched two movies about love (Just Like Heaven & 50 First Dates) and felt as if i'm the only person out there without a love life, what's strange is.. I'm okay with it. It's simply not my time yet, but I'm looking forward to it soon.
God: I trust him to bring me on a path that will lead me to where I want. Which is what he wants.. I hope. I need to pray more sencerely. I never lost faith in him, just been a litttle lazy. I pray for my family and friends 3H's (Health/Happiness/Holiness) and things... but I haven't thank him or praise him too much for it. (But I really do Jesus!) I just need to talk to Jesus more.
Self: I feel like I have no purpose to life. I want to become a doctor, but it not looking too good right now. Maybe I could be a good nurse! I can work hard, I think I'm a hardworker.
Family: Ever since we had foodstamps we've been eating real good. Better than we were before the Hurricane. Don't tell anyone but we eat salmon, snowcrabs, steak, and lobsters. I guess we eat too well, that's why I'm so fat! We (headcount of 9) are living in a apartment of two bed rooms, one bathroom, a living/kitchen room. It's small but easy to clean, so I guess we can live. There's some tension and conflicts here and there but we've been through worst and we can handle it. Let's just say the situation could of been worst but we're thankful that it's not! I mean, we went through a Fire one time and we learned alot from then. I love my sisters alot! They are alot more wiser than me when it comes to meaningful words. I learned alot from them. As long as I keep my mouth shut, they'll love me.
Work: I Quit Castnet two weeks before Katrina. Right now, I'm not looking for a real job.. I'm just helping out my sister's store whenever she needs me.
School: Attending ULL. it's okay I guess. Only thing I like most is the computer access. Classes are okay. I'm not failing any classes yet, but I'm not doing too great either. At least I caught up a lil from the two weeks I missed. i felt like I was ripped off of two weeks of school. I now know the importance of attending classes. Just hope I pass or else I'm gonna change majors!
Friends: Not many, I only see Julie at school. My Family are my friends now. But I still have friends.. like through the internet. But just think.. they're all over the United States now! I have alot of Friends everywhere...... just not here. I really miss them! the times we've shared will never be forgotten. I love UNO and I always will!
Love: I'm letting him go because I know he can be happier with the girl who's falling for him too. Besides, we weren't even a real thing in the first place. Maybe I lost my chance on love but it's okay because I can move on. At least I didn't get too attached to someone, because it would be very hard for me right now if I was. If it was meant to be, It'll come back. If Not, It's okay because I still believe in love and a time for love. I just watched two movies about love (Just Like Heaven & 50 First Dates) and felt as if i'm the only person out there without a love life, what's strange is.. I'm okay with it. It's simply not my time yet, but I'm looking forward to it soon.
God: I trust him to bring me on a path that will lead me to where I want. Which is what he wants.. I hope. I need to pray more sencerely. I never lost faith in him, just been a litttle lazy. I pray for my family and friends 3H's (Health/Happiness/Holiness) and things... but I haven't thank him or praise him too much for it. (But I really do Jesus!) I just need to talk to Jesus more.
Self: I feel like I have no purpose to life. I want to become a doctor, but it not looking too good right now. Maybe I could be a good nurse! I can work hard, I think I'm a hardworker.
Smallville
Blah.... watched Smallville season premiere yesterday!! finally Lana and Clark are hooking up!! YAY! I want to go see that movie everyone watched.. Just Like Heaven, because it's good... we'll see. Other than that... How's everyone?