1:03 AM 3/22/2007
I failed a general chemistry test today... why can't i understand it?!?!?! i hate chemistry. Organic is fine. i don't know why i have so much difficulty with the general chemistry?!?!?!?!? Anyways, i'm going to find out my results from biology tomorrow. and i have to do homework for recitation too. Did i write about cardio pulmonary? well, i think i'm in the program, but i'm not sure yet, three more weeks. I drove chanh thu home today and visited fudgie and chino. fudgie is pregnant again. i told thu about cardiopulmonary. i haven't seen liem in so long, since his birthday.. Our sixth month is pretty boring. next month is seven. i have no idea what to do with liem. i still like him, i mean i don't dislike him. he's just whatever, yeah he's my boyfriend, who's not really my boyfriend. it's weird... is this it? i wish there can be more. i wanna do something. for us. romantic?! tried that, didn't really work. just died off.. he didn't try anything yet. i wish there was more between us. don't you feel something's missing between us?! like sparks? like excitement? like very cool feeling? i want that. i don't know. by the way i hate work. so much drama, and i don't like danny. he's a goody two shoe. i don't like him. after i get done with lab, i'll never see him again, except for work!! good lord! he's such a jerk. JERK. to everyone!! no wonder everyone don't want to work with him. why can't he be fired and leave us alone. i been getting better at work, still practicing to make good smoothies, but i know most of the recipes. man, the main thing i'm scared of is cardiopulmonary program. i can't believe i got in. but they're still doing interviews and maybe i won't get in. i hope i do though. i want to do something in my life. or at least start on it. i have no idea what ig ot myself into, but it seem like i can do it. but I'm scared my chemistry grade isn't going to cut it. it's a C right now and it may have gone lower. to a D which is what i deserve in this course. I need help. i need help. and i need to go to the dentist. i really do. but i can manage without dental care, which isn't too healthy. but it kinda helps me control my eating habits. i eat small portions now. since i eat slower, i should eat less. i want to start exercising again, but the treadmill broke. let's try it tomorrow and see. oh yeah, i lost my id too. should i get a new one? yeah.. i need to go to the resource center and watch chemistry videos too. i have no idea what i'm doing in there.1:22 AM 3/22/2007
