Whew*

Thank God hurrican Ivan didn't hit us. And may God bless the people that is suffering from the horrible storm. My Grandma lives in Pensacola, and thank God her family is fine and her house stills tands. But my aunt's house roof got leaked fromthe rain and winds. They don't have electricity yet. But hopefully the people get it up and running soon. I evacuated New Orleans on Tuesday to Lafayette/Abbeville. We came home early on Thursday. It took me seven hours to get there and about three hours to get back home. I was driving my mother's Sienna van. It was my first time driving for such a long time. Considering going a distance of one block every thirty minutes! LOL! That was a miserable trip. But I spent quality time with my mom singing in the car to keep me awake when getting to Lafayette. My Dad and borther also cam along after the ladies left first. we went five cars! I took my mommy van; Hong took her Camry; Dad took his Tundra; Vuong took his Infiniti; and my sister's boyfriend came along with us. We went to Lafayette at diferent times, but when we went home we left all together in a whole Line! LOL! it was like a family thing; sticking together through thick and thin! Well, now it's back to school and work again. I'm not going to be online alot. So call me if you need me. Bye.

Hurricane Ivan

My mom calls it Ai Van, like that vietnamese singer. What are we planning to do? We're going to go to Lafayette to my sister's place, and if we have to, we will go to Houston and stay with my uncle. We're preparing for the storm because my dad will stay back to watch the house and his boat. Tomorrow we will have alot of work to do like my dad will tie his boat tight. and we're packing to evacuate and protect our house before we leave. We are going to take everything from the walls down and place them in our bedrooms. All holy statues will be wrap in towels into boxes. and windows will be boarded up and we will take every car with us except for one for our dad. hopefully everyone will be safe and may God Bless Us All. For those who are staying back, Be careful and be safe!

Interesting

GETTING OVER THAT SOMEONE

Have you ever just sat there thinking like crazy about that someone you claim to love so much only to drive yourself crazy? These thoughts that you continue to process over and over again just wondering why things are the way they are. Don`t you wish you could just stop thinking so you can stop the hurting deep within?

Well..if you can say yes to those questions, then ask yourself these questions....
Are yousure you`re not just obsessed?
Are you sure you`re not just over attached?
Obsession is bad, attachment is bad.

Don`t get caught up in the fact that it`s all based on feelings. Hell, if it were just based on feelings from the heart then why are you given a brain? Think a little. Step out of that broken hearted situation and really think about it in a third persons perspective. Try see what others see, try to see why things are the way they are. Don`t blind yourself with feelings, use your head and not your heart.

You only have one thing to get you through life, and that`s your brain. Don`t neglect it, don`t misuse it, trust what you think, but think logically.


LOOKING BACK ON THE MEMORIES...

Have you ever come across those days where you just happen to find something that contributed to that special relationship? Be it a CD that was created by him/her for you, or a letter/email, just those physical things to remind you of that relationship you once had. For that short period of time that you`re reminiscing in the past you can often feel the happiness that was there, but once it`s over, like that relationship, it`s over.

I find that if you`re gonna go dig up the past, you`re just setting yourself up for a punch in the heart. Yet you just keep on digging just to remember, cause a good relationship should not be forgotten. As much as it may still hurt, it`s a good reminder that you were once special to someone.

On the other hand, if that relationship was bad, do yourself a favor and toss out all that crap. What`s the point in keeping memories of something that was harmful to you?

Your memories are all you have left of a relationship. No one wants a bad relationship, so why keep the crap around. But the thing that seems to leave the lasting impression usually are the bad memories over the good. It`s funny how the laughs are quickly forgotten and the pain easily reborn.

i got this from someone's page that got it from someone else's page.

I'm starting to like UNO

I'm making so many new friends at UNO. I made new friends at the Asian Club meeting and played volleyball with some of them too. UNO also give me oppprtunities to hang out with my 'good old days' friends. I hardly see them for the past few years, and now that i'm going to the same school as them, it makes me feel like I belong there. Never have I spent so much time with Jason before. He helped me to find the Voter Registration Form by walking me to different places trying to find one. And then he gave me a tour of the UNO gym. Afterwards I played volleyball with him and his friends. It was very nice just walking and talking with him. We've never had anything like that before and we've been friends for like 8 years.

I'm also scheduling to go to the gym more often with my friends (and the new ones) to play volleyball and to do some workouts. I think I will go to the Yoga class sessions there also if my new friend Kieu wants to go with me. I signed up for the Date Auction thing too, and I hope I can have a part in this event, because I missed out on it last year. Hopefully I can squeeze it into my schedule. I don't want to be an auctionee though, because I'm kinda scared of that. I also re-joined Linh Thao, and hopefully I can make it every Sunday. I really enjoy the people and their openess at the prayer meetings. I don't mind reading, just not too long though. I had to read the Bible part today, and it was long!

Also, this song by Sarina Paris bring back alot of memories. I like this song and i'm feeling it. Because I just relaized 'Single life is for me.' Even though you like someone, it's best to be single. No worries, and you can do pretty much anything you want without having to think twice or feeling guilty of doing something that may hurt the other person's feelings. My brother-in-law asked me if I had a boyfriend, and I said no. He thinks I do, but I really don't. Not up for anything like that yet. Even though I know my family thinks that i'm at the verge of getting one because this is the age where my two sisters met their boyfriends. Oh well, I don't have one. Do I really want one (i ask myself)?? not really, i'm doing good without one.

Why?

I told myself to get over him but i always seem to come back at this state. I think i'm just missing him today. maybe it's the mood swings. BUT, Maybe it's for real. I thought about him alot today. and i wish i can tell him things i haven't been telling him, because i need to release some feelings out of my mind. I think i'm going to be crazy again. I have this urge and need to tell him this but i can't! because what if things do start to happen again, and i'm not ready. I really don't know what i want. i need someone to get through me and tell me that "it's okay". That i can have a relatioshp with someone, and that it'll be okay if i'm not ready because eventaully i will be. And that whatever my parents or family may think, it'll be okay, because it's about me and my life. But, Yet, I'm still afraid of it. Afraid of myself and him not being able to work things out and than we'll just break-up again. I want to be in love with him again, and i want him to love me back. i need to see him and renew my life again and actually smile agian, inside and out. i'm am so dead right now without him. I'm just living accordingly from people and not myself. But when i'm with him, i become myself. i need him so much, why am i living without him? How can i still walk the streets and block him out of my life and go throught with it? I dunt know. But i did and it wasn't pleasant. and i only tried blocking him, i never acutally got him out of my mind, Because if i did, i wouldn't be here writing this. I miss him so much. and i think i still love him. I need to tell him, but for some reason i am not.

Love Is In The Air

Man, All these love bugs are getting on my nerves. I washed the car last week on thursday and now it's like "murder of the lovebugs" car. I think whenever they are gone, For sure Gone, than i will wash it, but for now it will be a lovebug killing machine. other than that, I miss someone right now. I wish i can talk to this person again but i haven't seen this person in a while. But when i do, i will surely love to talk to this person again. It will make me feel better than what i am feeling now. Maybe this time i will tell this person my secret, so then i will feel even much better. But i am not sure, it might not go to well, so maybe i will not. Can i keep this secret for long? i've been debating about this subject over the past few days. I've talked to friends and i think i should, but it'll be weird when i do. Going beyong the choice of telling the secret, i'm afraid and worry about the consequences, Why should there be consequences?! Right? I do not want to act like things are normal, because it's not. I need to be myself, which is totally Confused. All the time. I don't know what i want. Can someone let me know what i want?

September Already?!

Wow, time sure do fly by fast. I'm glad I'm going to school now at UNO. i see alot of my old friends again, and also making new ones here and there. I dunt know why, but i feel annoyed and tired and sad all at the same time today. But It's going to be okay. My boss scheduled me for work on Saturday all day, but i have a Class in the morning, so now i have to come in as soon as possible because she needs people. So if there's someone who's looking for a job, Castnet needs people! I think i wanna Quit. But then again i need something to do so i guess i'll just stick with it until i get really bored. I talked to some friends at work about my love life. I guess it's really complicated with me. Because i told them that i'm afraid to have a boyfriend, because i'm not really good in realtionships. and I stop it when things get deeper because i can't handle it. Encouragingly, they tell me just be myself and let your heart open to another person whole heartedly. they also said that i don't know what i want and another said I can't be committed. I think that's quite true. But another said to me, love is what you make it, not made of the things others say. they don't know how you feel and they never will. SO, how am i making Love? I'm screwed. that could of been a funny pun. Anyways, what if I did trust someone, and things didn't work out. What do I do now? Ugh! I don't even know what I am thinking right now. But before i leave i just wanted to let You, the person that actually reads this blog, that I think I'm PMSing so that's why i'm writing alot of stupid shit on my mind. that's all, thanks. I just think that it'll be unfair for me and the significant other if i'm not up for it and if i went along with it just because.