Love Is In The Air

Man, All these love bugs are getting on my nerves. I washed the car last week on thursday and now it's like "murder of the lovebugs" car. I think whenever they are gone, For sure Gone, than i will wash it, but for now it will be a lovebug killing machine. other than that, I miss someone right now. I wish i can talk to this person again but i haven't seen this person in a while. But when i do, i will surely love to talk to this person again. It will make me feel better than what i am feeling now. Maybe this time i will tell this person my secret, so then i will feel even much better. But i am not sure, it might not go to well, so maybe i will not. Can i keep this secret for long? i've been debating about this subject over the past few days. I've talked to friends and i think i should, but it'll be weird when i do. Going beyong the choice of telling the secret, i'm afraid and worry about the consequences, Why should there be consequences?! Right? I do not want to act like things are normal, because it's not. I need to be myself, which is totally Confused. All the time. I don't know what i want. Can someone let me know what i want?