September Already?!

Wow, time sure do fly by fast. I'm glad I'm going to school now at UNO. i see alot of my old friends again, and also making new ones here and there. I dunt know why, but i feel annoyed and tired and sad all at the same time today. But It's going to be okay. My boss scheduled me for work on Saturday all day, but i have a Class in the morning, so now i have to come in as soon as possible because she needs people. So if there's someone who's looking for a job, Castnet needs people! I think i wanna Quit. But then again i need something to do so i guess i'll just stick with it until i get really bored. I talked to some friends at work about my love life. I guess it's really complicated with me. Because i told them that i'm afraid to have a boyfriend, because i'm not really good in realtionships. and I stop it when things get deeper because i can't handle it. Encouragingly, they tell me just be myself and let your heart open to another person whole heartedly. they also said that i don't know what i want and another said I can't be committed. I think that's quite true. But another said to me, love is what you make it, not made of the things others say. they don't know how you feel and they never will. SO, how am i making Love? I'm screwed. that could of been a funny pun. Anyways, what if I did trust someone, and things didn't work out. What do I do now? Ugh! I don't even know what I am thinking right now. But before i leave i just wanted to let You, the person that actually reads this blog, that I think I'm PMSing so that's why i'm writing alot of stupid shit on my mind. that's all, thanks. I just think that it'll be unfair for me and the significant other if i'm not up for it and if i went along with it just because.