Hey Liem

I don’t know where to start. I haven’t been on here for so long because I was afraid to write about you and me and how great our relationship is going. I don’t want to jinx it or anything. Even before I can type these words down, my heart aches and tears are forming in my eyes. I don’t know how to express all these feelings I have inside of me that’s bursting. These feelings inside my whole body that makes me yearn and my heart throbbing, aching when I think of how much I love you. My heart have been wanting to love you for so long. And once it has, It’s so scared it might lose you again. It’s kind of funny too. How happy I am, but also miserable. Miserably happy. I guess that’s one way of expressing my feelings. Do you know that I loved you for a very long time? I don’t think I have the courage to tell you. Even now in our relationship, even with that as my excuse to tell you how much I love you, I don’t say it. I’m so scared. So I’ll just keep the way things are between us. I think you know somewhere in your heart that I love you. And I know you love me too. I wanted so badly for us to be together, and now we are. I’m very glad. I don’t know what I would do without you. Probably miserable too, more like miserably sad. Either way, I do still love you. I guess all my heart’s desires are coming true. I’m pleased, satisfied, happy, glad, thrilled that we’re together. You’re mines and I’m yours. It’s just us again. I’m all smiles. I like it when you make me smile and laugh, sometimes mad but it’s fun too. I like it when you pick me up, drive around in your car, or just in your car talking and listening to music. Holding hands and holding each other. Smiling and talking. Laughing. Walking side by side. Making fun of each other. Eating and feeding each other. Trying new things. Going to ‘our’ places. Getting calls and sending e-mails. Taking pictures. Just being together. It’s great. I hope this lasts forever. In all of this, I’m worried too. About how things may break apart, And I will be sad again. I’d imagined it before. I cried of how I let you go. So, I don’t want to ever let you go. It’s hard and the only easy way, is to be with you always. I’ll always be yours no matter what. I will always love you. I know that much, of what my heart wants. Anyways, I don’t only imagine about the bad things. I’d imagined about your kisses. LOL! Whenever that will be. I hope it will be memorable and enjoyable. I wish you’d kiss me every time you see me. Everyday would be great. I mean I would. But I don’t think you’re ready for my kisses. I tried once. But I’ll wait for you, until you’re ready to give me my first real good kiss. Don’t hold back okay. I don’t want to. But I should before I scare the freak out of you. Yeah, Sometimes I think I’m too into you. I’d kiss you to death. I might get out of control too. But I’m not worried. I know you won’t let me do anything that will jeopardize our future. You think of everything. =) Anyways, I like you, even when I don’t like you, I can’t help it, I still do.