11:31 PM 7/5/2007
TOday, Julius came up to me and talked to me, trying to sound nice, but i know he's not nice. He's so fake. I'm so pissed at that man! but then william came by just to say hi, he didn't know what julius just said to me though. I asked william if he's going to eat lunch, and he said yeah, so i ate lunch with him. I didn't want to sit there thinking about what julius said or tried to do. I'm glad i went to lunch with him. He told me the juiciest stories about John's girlfriend quynh-anh. Man I couldn't believe him, but he proved it was real and not fake. Man!!! Oh my God juiciest story ever!! That made me feel better. and we kept talking and he told me about why my-hanh broke up with. Left him out cold during the hurricane. man that was mean. But what quynh-anh did to him was mean too. I told him, he;s setting himself up to get hurt. and Then i told him about liem too, how liem forgave me for doing the same thing my-hanh did to him. I didn't leave Liem because of the same reason my-hanh did. she left william because he lost everything during the storm. I just left liem cause I can't handle being in a relationship and was too young to know what i was doing. I never gave liem an explanation until way after it happened. But it's all behind us now and we're doing okay. I told william i never want to hurt liem again. i rather liem hurt me. he said that's what a guy that really loves you would do, they'd forgive you, no matter how much you hurt them. And i'm happy liem did. Anyways, after lunch he asked me to go to the gym with him, but I can't i have to sutdy and alot of other excuses i had. I told him i'd go but i won't work out cause i didn't wear the right clothes and i needed to pick up adrian from summer school. turn out i remembered he didn't go to school today. So i went to study for about 4 hours and william came by the lab after 5 and saw me and stayed and talked to me more about his juicy story. I can't beleive he made out with her!! and she's with john. and he told me alot of stories about other girls too and how they'd throw themselves at him. I told him he's a player and that's not good. He told me to stop hating on him and kinda got mad at me, and i apologized for being rude and telling him straightforwardly that i think he's a player. I told him He can change his ways, and he wants to too because he doesn't like the girls that throw themselves at him. He told me he likes syeda and been asking me like a million times to put in a good word for him to her. i got fed up and told him to give me her email. and i emailed her about school and told her that i got her email from william so that next time i email her i can talk about william to her without being obvious that i want to talk about him to her. LOL. Then one day eventually i can tell her all the good things and hiding the bad things about william to her. But honestly, I don't like william because he seems like a player and he falls for any girl that he thinks is pretty. I think syeda is a nice girl and she deserves better. But if william truly likes her and can change his ways about girls, then i'd reconsider. that's why i haven't talk to syeda much yet. I hope she doesn't email me back soon. i have tests coming up. and i hope william is serious about syeda too, because she's a medical student and needs to really focus. What if she do likes william back but doesn't want to actually go out with because she's busy with school. he have to understand for her. And i just don't get why quynh would make out with william, it has to be something he did to make her do that. I told william maybe she didn't want to lose him in her life after he told her to stop leading him on and make a decision by kissing him now if she likes him or stop it all together. I mean i would kiss a guy i care about alot to keep him in my life if i had to. I would never want to lose liem in my life. I guess quynhanh felt that way to william, although he is just a friend but i bet for a fact she cares about william even though she has a boyfriend. However, I told william that she would not leave john for him because she's been with him for so long. she's just confused or stressed out and did a silly thing in that one moment. Although william did say the way she came on to him, the way she dressed and how she wanted to go to his house and stuff. I was like Whoa-day... i didn't know she was like that. I told him i never made out with anyone before, not even my boyfriend. he was like it's the best feeling in the world and like how i'm missing out and stuff. he said he kissed alot of girls before, I was like, man you kiss and tell!! i just can't beleive everything i heard from william today. he told me to keep it a secret.. oh and there's something about Co Mai too!!! but he didn't tell me!! =( next time i'll make him tell me. man, william talks alot. but he has alot of bad but juicy stories. I rather have liem though, he doens't have not much stories to tell me, but at least i know he's a good guy. he doesn't have alot of bad stories because he's making good ones with me. I heart liem. But i can still be friends with william right huh?! i hope liem knows he can trust me. I told william that me and him are just friends. we're cool with that. well at least i think so. i told him he can tell me stuff and not be afraid I'd think differently of him. he asked me how i think he looks. i told him he looks okay for a white guy. and he felt depressed because i didn't told him he was handsome. I was like, I'm telling you the truth, what do you want me to say? you're fine like brad pitt?! He was like, man just lie to me. I was like i say what's on my mind... I told him, you're getting to know me a little better, I'm not nice as you'd think. I say mean things. but i tell you the truth. and that's something to honor. He said he thought i was a nice girl. i mean i still am, but i'm not all sugar and sweet. i'm nice, but i have some spice too. no one's perfect. not me anyways. then he toldme he was glad i stayed back late at school, he wanted to tell someone about what had happened with him and quynhanh. and alot of other things to. he said he miss hanging out with friends and stuff. THen i told him i'm boutta go, and he said he'd walk me to the garage where we park our cars, but then he had to lock his office so we went to his office and he showed me pictures on his computer of the girl he dated in vietnam. he told me they don't talk anymore, and something bad happened.... i joked with him that she probably found a new man. and i finally told him about Vn girls and how they try to take advantage of guys for their money. he knew about too, but he really believed that khanh genuinely likes him. I was like okay. whatever you say dude. and then he showed me emails about all the girls he talked about, like quynhanh. at first i kept telling him that i didn't believe him. but when he showed me the email i said sorry. then he talked more about vn and we were talking about talking in vietnamese and then somehow we decided to go to puccino's. so we went to puccino's and he bought me a coffee. and then we stayed there until like 9 just chilling playing on the computer talk about math and i showed him pictures. watched some you tube and dl a song he wanted me to hear. which i didn't like. =\ but oh wells, he showed me some hindu language stuff and just talk about random stuff. like what music we listen to what we do for fun and why we like the things we like. He likes traveling and i like doing activites or trying new things. talked about florida and vacations spots. talked about fireworks too. and about the viet girl that goes there to play video poker for hours. We just hang out, i haven't hang out with a friend doing just random things. I told him i only do stuff with my family, liem and classmates. I haven't spend time wiht any friend in a while. I was getting to know him better outside of school. we just got to know each other better. he's a cool guy and he can change his ways but i doubt it. he's talking to me, and sometimes he seemed too friendly, but i act like i don't catch on quick with those things even though i do, i just don't acknowledge it and hope he understand we're just friends. he'll get to know me better that i don't do crazy things like cheat on my boyfriend, but i bet he's thougth of that. he thinks i would do that. but if he gets to know me better, he'll see that's the last thing i would do. i mean what if william had a girlfriend, he wouldn't want her to cheat on him right?! what if there was a guy friend like william always with his Gf flirting like crazy?! can he trust her?! I'm so much better than he thinks of me. I can control myself and would never do anything like that to myself, and not to mention my boyfriend. I don't want to get hurt or hurt anyone else, liem and him too. I think about the consequences too. i highly respect myself more than i think he thinks of me. I hope william come to find that i'm a very respectable person. and i would like that he'll learn to respect girls more after he gets to know me. not every girl is the same. I'm not the girls that he usually meets, that throws themselves at him. he'll like me, but we're just friends. and if there's one girl like me out there, there's has to be another one. I hope he knows that he should like me as a friend and nothing more. He tends to think that way because it happened to him so many times. I'm here to make him see that i'm different. not all girls like one type of guy. I like william too because he makes me laugh and talks to me without being all wierd. i like that he's himself and he has alot of strong characteristics that i admire guys of having. they're more bold and funny. that's why i like having guy friends more than girl friends, they're more laid back and not to high maintence like some girls are. I mean i am kinda girly.. i can't help it i am a girl... but around guys, i don't have to be too girly. I can be more of myself around guys than girls. With girls, i have to be more cheer-y and nice. only time i gotta be girly to a guy is to liem because i want him to like me. i mean, I'm his friend too, but i want to be his girlfriend more. but generally, i like having guy friends. and i hope any guy friends i have doesn't think that there can be more. other than liem of course. I want guys to be friends with me and not feel uncomfortable with having a girl as a friend or expect the girl to liekhim just because she enjoys having him as a friend. not all girls fall for their guy friends. 1:01 AM 7/6/2007, man i wrote alot. i'm going to sleep now. night.
