E-mail My Heart

Hey Liem, You know what?! I feel so stupid for what I did today. I think my hormones was driving me today. LOL!! Or maybe It's really me. Who knows... I think I really do got the hots for you. Isn’t' that interesting?! I can't stop thinking about us. I think I need a break from you before I go crazy, dude... I think I’d die without you, and I'm usually not that dependent on you. Do you think I'm crazy?! Maybe huh? Oh the things you do to me and not even know it. I think we should break up so all these feelings will stop making me do crazy things. baby, I can trust you right? even though you said that I trust people too easily... you can see it huh? Maybe I shouldn't trust you either because you can be like them too. I hope not. You’re the only guy I can trust to a certain level, I trust no one completely but myself. But I’m slowly showing myself to you, there are some things I’d never tell my family about. Because I'm not as strong and smart as they want to think of me. I have flaws and blunders too. But that's not the best of me, you know that right? I think there's a quote by Marilynn Monroe that says "If you can't handle me at my worst, you don't deserve me at my best." I think it's so true to every human being. Even you hunny. SO don't be discouraged to show me your flaws and blunders, because to me, it might be things I'll love most about you. I like it when you speak your mind to me, even when it seems like you're lecturing me. I guess that's how you talk to your friends... by "lecturing." Maybe you should become a teacher.. hehehe. Just kidding, I joke I joke. I guess its part of your personality. You seem so serious... and sometime it's misleading when you want to joke around. And I get you dear, I think you can be childish and funny, and sometimes mean too... but I like you anyway. Because I’m getting to know you better, and you're worth knowing.*winks* Can I get a kiss for sharing that thought?! I doubt it, since you're playing hard to get, and pretty well too I must say. But don't keep me waiting too long... I might feel inadequate in your eyes. Sometimes I feel not good enough for you, I know it's silly, but I can't help it. You’re so wonderful. I really like you. And if I really do, I’ll wait. And sorry about not knowing Hoa brother's name (Bore -spell??) I should have figured why his name is different. I have this impression that they're 100% Viet all this time. I didn't realize they're half Cambodian. I think I knew that from somewhere before. I felt so embarrassed that I didn't know. I know I'm not smart Liem, keep me in the light to know certain things okay?! I'm a quick learner. Just need to be notified, maybe more than once for some things. You'll get to know me better. I'm not the brightest person, but I’m learning. I do trust people too easily, but the Lord above protects me from evil. Man, I feel like I’m writing a journal. Should I send this to you?! Yeah... why not?! I don't know if you know, but when I write journals, it's either I'm writing to God or to you. Thoughts about you, I write to you. Things about my life... I write to god which includes you too anyways. hehehe... I told you one day I'll open up to you about what I was thinking that night when you were driving me home. I’ll attach it... so if you wanna read it, READ IT AT YOUR OWN RISK!!!! You probably shouldn't know these things about me because you might think of me differently, but better know now then being held back in the dark right?! I think, for the most part it's good things. Things I'm slowly sharing with you. I don't want to keep it inside forever. What if I die and you'll never know?! That’ll be unfair and very heartbroken if you didn't know my thoughts about you. Sorry I’m writing so much. Ever wonder why I write journals?! So I can release all my thoughts and stop thinking about it. When I have it all down in a journal, and not in my head, I can focus on studying. I have so many thoughts right now that I need to vent all out so I can take a break from thinking about you and really start study for physiology. I can't believe I’m writing all this to you. Why didn't I write in my journal before this email to you? Anyways, I really need to focus on school. So I’ll be MIA from you for a while after this, plus that gives you some time to understand my journals. LOL. You probably think my thoughts run so easily from one thing to the next, which it does for the most part... but only the writer truly knows what she's talking about, the reader must analyze. hahahaha. Enjoy reading! I think you will, since it's about you anyway. I love you Liem, I’d tell you in person one day, and really mean it too, but for now, you can enjoy that thought through my journals. Goodnight! Sweet dreams. I think you probably read this while you're tutoring tomorrow. Sorry I started to write this after midnight and you're probably sleeping, try not to get too distracted by me okay?! Read this later after tutoring. I should put that as my title. Have a nice day Liem! I’m having second thoughts about sending this. Okay imma send it, I don't want to do the same things I did in the past and never share my thoughts with you.... for better or worse here it goes.