Summer Love

Yesterday, I had a great time with you. I think I told you I love you randomly twice last night. I don’t know where it came from. But I do speak what’s on my mind. It came from somewhere, inside. I tell Thao-Vi randomly that I love her sometimes. When I realized how much I miss her driving around with the van during the Florida trip, I told her I missed her. And she knows it too. Sometimes when she talks to me and tell me things I know are from her heart I tell her I love her, because she share those things with me and it’s sincere things. Sometimes it’s the simple things that make it the best moments of love. It was like that last night with me and you. You probably don’t even notice it, but you told me things that I can tell in my heart you were sincere and I’m glad that you shared it with me. I know how much I mean to you and it makes me happy. So, I couldn’t help but say I love you at that moment. It’s a habit I have with people I love that you don’t know about me yet. I know you’re happy that you’re with me. I understand what you mean about this summer you’ve accomplished a lot. There were things that you wanted to do a long time ago and it finally came true this year. This year has been different for me too. I guess we’re really happy that we’re finally together and actually having all our dreams and fantasy of having each other and growing in love or just having someone that understands come true. I guess being in a relationship is fun. We learn from each other and just simply enjoying each other’s company and sometimes having lovely moments of what it’s like to have a companion. That feeling of liking someone and they like you back and cares for you too is just wonderful. I know things happen that made us want to be apart, but we still stayed together. It makes it more worthwhile. My mom and dad are very strict on me, but you still want to be with me in spite of their feelings towards you. They still are strict, but somehow, it’s better now. We work our way around those things. As long we stay true to each other and trust each other, we can be happy with each other no matter what. Our relationship works for me. And I’m very happy in this relationship. I’m slowly showing myself to you, which I never done with anyone before, and I’m glad it’s you because I wanted to do that especially with you for a long time now. And I know you do too. I’m slowly getting to know you better and slowly trusting you with things I would never tell anyone, even my family. I can’t talk to my family about everything in my life right now. Being at our age; living in our world; being a couple; growing together and loving each other in this relationship in a way that’s different from family love is not easy. It’s hard living in this world, but having someone like you by my side make it easier and worthwhile. We’ve choose to be together and learn from each other; not like family where we naturally have to love our family members and understand for each other. So, our relationship is different and that makes it special. And having it makes me live my life in an enjoyable worthwhile fulfilling way. Sometimes I can sense it when I look at you; and what you’re thinking, and somehow I think you feel it from me too. Sometimes when you look at me and I look at you, and we’re so quiet and I don’t know what to say, and you don’t either, but the feelings we probably feel inside says it all. I’m glad you were trying to share your thoughts with me too. I can’t wait until next time I see you. I want to see you everyday. Because I love you so much. Maybe One day I’ll marry you and spend all the time I want with you, so then I don’t have to wait. I’m still waiting on my first kiss with you. So miserable without kissing you to death, so you know how many times I wanted you to kiss me? I find many moments where it’s so perfect to share a kiss with you, but we don’t!! Why!?!? I hope we can share more feelings, experiences, and more love with each other. It’s not like I want to have sex with you, I can’t wait for that either, but I want to share with you other things like first kiss, first make-out, first dance, first serenade (from you to me), first romantic date, first anniversary. Yesterday was the first time you bought me a shirt and first time sipping from the same cup from two straws like they do in movies. LOL! And you setting up my food and I think you took my hand to hold it. It was the first time we had a great double date with Hoa and Chino too. I was more myself than I was a few months ago. Yesterday was also my first time seeing you drink alcohol. Man, you’re good at handling your alcohol. I was impressed. I like that about a man. Very sexy. But I don’t want to compliment on it, I don’t want you to turn to an alcoholic nah. But damn was it attractive. I was attracted to the manly things you do. I know you’re a gentlemen too. I think you kind of played with my hair at the mall yesterday too. You usually don’t do that. It’s either you’re kind of buzzed from the Mojito or you really like me. You know I only let you touch me right?! I mean in a loving way, not abusive way. I would have a problem with other guys touching me like that. But with you, it’s different. I want you to touch me. Makes me feel like your lady and only yours. So baby, love me all you want. I like it. But I trust you to be a gentlemen too. And it’s cool if you don’t want to kiss me in front of other people, like single people, but who cares. I like you and I’m not afraid to show it. There are times when we are alone too... what’s keeping you from kissing me? I really want you to kiss me. I mean I can kiss you easily, but having you kiss me, Oh yes!! It’s harder but more worth the wait. I hope you kiss me good too, don’t have me disappointed. LOL! Just kidding. Don’t worry. I’d kiss you right back with all my heart. I hope you won’t be disappointed with my kiss to you. Let’s just enjoy it okay?! I was laughing so hard yesterday. I was being silly. Hope you’re not embarrassed by it. I’m kind of funny. I know. But you can be too. I know somewhere in that funny person you have a little boy waiting to come out to play. Come play with me okay?! Keep me young. I’m a child at heart, I hope you are one too.