Doing alot of thinking than usual.
It's easy to do something wrong, but twice as hard for doing good. I'm trying to make it the opposite, that doing good comes naturally for me, and I would have to think twice before I do something bad. I was so tempted to do something horribly wrong just to get it over and done with, to show the world I'm not perfect, and that no one is good. But in faith, there is good. I find it everyday. I'm fighting a good fight, in my little ways in life. Every little thing you decide to do everyday out of goodness makes you who you are. I see how life in our times can be hard not to fall into the crowd. everyone, if not, many think that it's normal for me to date at this age. that what I do is normal. and sure, i agree it is. Going out at night doesn't make you a bad person. Being disobedient to your parents is, and I don't want to do that. My parents don't understand life is not easy for us youngsters, it's harder to be a good person, and it's even harder to find a good boyfriend. That what makes me want to live my life even more. And appreciate my boyfriend even more. My parents say that my first love is doomed to fail. That's not something you would want to wish on your daughter. I know they didn't mean that. My first love is still in the making. My parents isn't making my life any easier, my own parents. I'm imagining how the devil is using my own parents to confuse how I want to live my life. I'm not judging other people, and I'm not judging my parents. But I can judge my life. I know in prayer and in faith, I'll be okay.
