2/19/2007

Today was new year's. I have to work tomorrow. but it's cool.gives me something to do. I crammed for the biology test and did okay i guess. it was similar to the old test which made it possible to study for and do-able. I went tet bac truong and bac quy with mom today. got ly-xi money and sang alot of karoke and ate alot of chocolate today. It was valentine's day candy on sale at big lots. i ate a small bowl of hu tieu, which surprisingly i lost an appetite for. it's just that i want to lose a lil weight since i'm walking around campus alot and school is taking alot of my pleasure sleeping time. i kinda feel like i'm skinnier. my slacks was loose on me. School helps me lose weight, not alot but it's all good. i love school, sometimes i hate it, but it's all worth it. liem called me around 9:30ish but i missed his call and didn't realize it til around ten. I'm okay without him. i been knew that. just that he's my boyfriend now, but doesn't seem like it. but in the end, i'm still into him. silly i know, but now i'm kinda glad we aren't as serious as i thought we should be. It's just a boyfriend. nothing serious, just normal i guess. i haven't talked to him since valentine's day. is that not good. i guess we're not like other couples where we do everything together. this way mom and dad are not worried that my focus is off from school and too much dating. I'm somewhat glad that me and liem are this way because of school is my first priority. and plus, liem... he still needs to learn alot about having a girlfriend, i'm patient. boy is he lucky to have me. I like him too so it's not that bad. he just doesn't treat his girlfriend like the girl of his dreams. and i'm okay with that, because in the back of my mind i sometimes think that there's someone for me out there. one day i'd feel loved by that person. maybe it'll be him but maybe not and it's okay, i'm just chilling anyways. having him as a boyfriend just makes everything a little easier to deal with when i need him. which most of the time i don't need him. he sucks at that. even if i don’t need him, if he shows that he's there anyways, it means alot.. but he doesn't. I feel like i want to show him i'd do anything for him. but he might take advantage of it and me. it make me seems desperate too. so i won't do that. A relationship is a two way compromise. and he doesn't want me to spend alot. i don't want him to come to my house yet. we're working on it... for his birthday, i wanted to make him business cards with a business card holder, but he doesn't work at that internship anymore. and he doesn't have a cell phone or office number. So, Plan B. It's still under 25 dollars and creative that i make him a cake right? If not then I'll just plan a day out with him on friday. considering he has class that day and also it's versai tet fair at night. I don't know what to do but i have five days. I'm wearing my gray contacts. It's so different. and bac truong complimented that i was pretty and he thought i was younger than thao-vi too. which is kinda funny. I'm so glad i finished my physics homework. and i started on friday too. and did some on my own without blackboard. I feel hot. I love my hair today. i used hot rollers to curl it. It looked different today. and i wore make-up and gray contatcs a whole new look. and last night's shower made my hair feel great. and also i re-dried my blanket before i went to sleep cause it was still a little wet, and it was so warm!!! It felt so good. Okay i'm going to bed now. goodnight.12:11 AM 2/19/2007