10:22 PM 2/26/2007
Today, I'm am totally unproductive. I went to school today by myself, thao-vi skipped school. Then I went to organic lecture and took notes. Went to the women's center and played on the computer, tried to read organic text book (chapter 4). and then took a nap until time to go to work. Ate a tuna sandwich at subways and then changed my pants in the car and went to work. I worked til 8:30ish and went to taco bell and then drove home and called liem. Talked to him and went home and ate, shower and now getting ready to go to sleep. I want to watch a lil bit of chinese movie. So unproductive huh? I really wanted to study organic chem and do some homework problems or do some Gen chem Homework or start on that quiz due february 28th, which is wednesday. Last day of the month. Then i have physics homework duw sunday again, and then i have an organic test on wednesday. Wow. School is so Whoa. I don't wanna say i'm doing good in all my classes because i'm not all that great as i want to be. I want to make an a in something. I really have to study harder. i think i can do it.
There are things that really want to make me break up with liem. like the way he's very frugal. and he's an ox, who is kinda slwo and will have a miserable life. i don't know if i can deal with that. and then he doesn't treat me good. I mean he doesn't treat me badly like hit me or anything. He just doesn't treat me like a boyfriend would for his girlfriend. I don't know. Am I asking for too much? I don't think so because, if he really likes me then he should show it. I give up. I don't think i can do this anymore. He doesn't seem like he likes me. He's just whatever. I don't like it when he does that to me. I feel like an ordinary girl. he supposed to make me feel like the luckiest girl in the world. I want to be that girl in his life. The girl of his dreams. I want to feel like fairytales do come true and he's my one.
