I brought on myself some complication.
I tried, and it doesn't feel right.
I knew it.
So how do I tell him?
I must do it soon.
Stop leading him on.
And I think he knows it too.
We're incompatible.
When we held hands, it was kinds sqooshing mines.
I felt pressure points between my fingers from his knuckles.
And that was one sign, it doesn't feel right.
Another one, his arms are too short.
When he tried to lay his hand on my lap, it didn't reach comfortably.
And for me, the little things means alot to me.
Well, he's short altogether.
I can't wear heels if I stand next to him, and I love wearing tall shoes.
Another one, and he's said it himself: he has a short one too.
But there are good things about him too.
Things he does and put effort into.
He's more out going than my former boyfriend.
He texts me to check up on me and see what I'm doing.
He offers to drive. And when we switch places,
he closes the door for me when I get in.
He take alot of initiatives. Making the first move.
Like holding me first when I told him I'm an easily cold person.
Trying to kiss me first and I pulled away.
After I let him kiss me, he wanted to cuddle and watch TV.
Then did his move with my ear. And I cannot believe how good that felt.
But that's just pure lust. which is not good.
He speaks his mind outloud. Even if it's obnoxious.
I know he thinks about sex alot.
Which scares me because he might just want sex.
He would go through lengths for his friends.
He treats his friends very well.
So I know he will treat me well too.
He's mature in some ways, but still childish in many ways.
He should be more serious about school and getting done.
But he makes excuses and sometimes really lazy.
I can't deal with laziness.
He's in no condition to date right now.
and I think he knows it too.
He didn't text me so far... so I guess he doesn't want to go any further either.
