And Again

What was i thinking? Now, it's so different. I'm staying with liem because i really do love him, and i'm trying my best, but i'mnot going to be stupid and spend money on him, he doesn't want to either, both are scared we will get hurt and when we do break up it will be hard. like Chi Juie still paying off her credit card bills from her stupidity from trung and david. I can't believe it, i guess it makes them more wise abotu their moneyy. And i should too. i won't give in to that. especially with liem. There's alwys an open chance that we will hurt each other. But i hope i don't hurt him andi hope he doesn't hurt me, but it we were to get hurt, i would rather be hurt than hurt him. i reall ylove him. I shouldn't have pressured him the way i have.... because lord knows he doesn't pressure me in any uncomfortable way. and he doesn't make me do anything that i don't want to. Only i want to. Like kissing him and hold his hands and talking to him everyday and spending money on him. He doesn't want me to but i do. But now it's different. i won't have to spend cause i'm not ready to give my all to him. and it was him that made me realize that. i'm still trying to learn more about him and learn from mistakes and appreciate him. and grow in love with him. we argued for the first time. but we still have fun too. it's weird how we can be so mean to each other but love each other so much. without kissing though. we hold hands hugs and looks and talk. i took a risk yesterday and i'm glad i did. it was from God's grace that granted me that courage and idea to do. it will always be memorable even if we break up but more that we will remember it and still be together.

A new year, a new start

I'm glad i have sisters that love me. i wish i was wiser and nicer to them and not as conniving as they think i am. I'm not smart. I just do what i do. Man, Am i that mean? Anyways, I think me and liem is going to break up. he doesn't treat me as i deserve, maybe he's like chu hieu and is very cheap, but you can't be cheap to your girlfriend like that. may liem doesn't like me that much. and i'm not worth anything to him. i thought i was more than that. Man was i wrong, but i'm glad i figured this out before it's too late. So i htink imma just cool i todwn a lil bit, and give him one more chance. he made me sad twice. One for not appreciating me because of my gift. and that he didn't treat me well, after having the upper hand of knowing what he got for christmas. and when he didn't call me back after i told him we're going to spend less time. Why is he still with me? Is he using me? probably is, but this new year, it's going to be diferent. I'mnot putting anohter dime in our relationship. If he can't pay attention to me and make me happy then i'mnot going to try twice as hard in effort for this relationship to work. I want us to be together, but i need him to meet me half way and i don';t fell that way this past week. Oh well, I don't know i'm jst going to give him one more chance, and i'm beingnice like i am. i know he doesn't know how to hit on girls or flirt but at least give an effort. I dont' need him if he's going to be that way. If he can support me now, how am i going to be able to trust him and dpend on him for support. Not in finacial ways but in emotional ways too. I feel he doesn' tlike me, andi dont' desreve that kind of treatment.

Letter to Liem

I don't know what you're probably going through. Maybe i'm just silly, but maybe you're thinking twice about our relationship. and maybe, just maybe you want to break up with me. and it's really it's okay by me. I think i can handle breaking up with you again. You know i really like you. maybe it's hard for you to understand why i do. But i do. You might be worried about how we are both so different. i know you sometimes feel uncomfortable with me when it comes to money. I hope you know i'm not with you for your money. don't think having money will make me happy. There's people rich with money but poor in other ways. Well, my dear, you may not have alot money but you're rich in love and kindness. you might not know it, but sometimes you sell yourself a little short. you're capable of so much more than some rich guy. A rich guy doesn't know how to work hard for what he has, they may have been spoon fed all their life and take for granted what they have. but for someone who have to work hard for what they have, they are rich in strength, determination, and hardworking ability. Money doesn't make a man better than others. strip all that away what would you have. Probably a cocky lazyass. So, don't think that giving me fancy things will make me happy. Just be yourself.

And the thing about my mom and dad. we'll be okay. they're grown ups, they have to understand for us. We're still growing. we're not perfect, people make mistakes, even them, we gotta learn and learn it all together. they're giving you a chance for their trust. Well, maybe not my dad for now, he has this big male ego, and it's hard to talk to him, but give him a lil time. he'll come around. He's very a smart man and very understandable. You gotta understand for him too. we're all just people trying to get along that's all. maybe i'm over simplifying it. but I don't want you to get scared and freak out, cuz lord knows i am too. But i'm glad i'm with you. if i never start dating you, i wouldn't understand all this. about how hard life is, and how we still gotta move on and keep living. It's all part of growing up. I'm glad i'm doing this now than later. you know i couldn't do this alone right? My dad has little faith that my first love will last, and it's funny because maybe it is true. I hope you don't give up on us yet. But it's okay you do. maybe this is all i can have of you. and maybe it's just my luck. And somehow it shows how right my parents are. either way, i'm glad i'm a lil wiser and love my parents even more. I'm grateful i've experienced this and whose more pefect than having you beside me while i go through this? Thanks liem. and If you'll still have me, I still want to thank you too anyways.

Oh BTW, i didn't go to pensacola this weekend. My mom cancel the trip. I went to confession today. it was good. What's up with that song on your page? sometimes you scare me liem, anyways listen to my song. Hope to talk to you soon.

In a Larger Sense

Doing alot of thinking than usual.
It's easy to do something wrong, but twice as hard for doing good. I'm trying to make it the opposite, that doing good comes naturally for me, and I would have to think twice before I do something bad. I was so tempted to do something horribly wrong just to get it over and done with, to show the world I'm not perfect, and that no one is good. But in faith, there is good. I find it everyday. I'm fighting a good fight, in my little ways in life. Every little thing you decide to do everyday out of goodness makes you who you are. I see how life in our times can be hard not to fall into the crowd. everyone, if not, many think that it's normal for me to date at this age. that what I do is normal. and sure, i agree it is. Going out at night doesn't make you a bad person. Being disobedient to your parents is, and I don't want to do that. My parents don't understand life is not easy for us youngsters, it's harder to be a good person, and it's even harder to find a good boyfriend. That what makes me want to live my life even more. And appreciate my boyfriend even more. My parents say that my first love is doomed to fail. That's not something you would want to wish on your daughter. I know they didn't mean that. My first love is still in the making. My parents isn't making my life any easier, my own parents. I'm imagining how the devil is using my own parents to confuse how I want to live my life. I'm not judging other people, and I'm not judging my parents. But I can judge my life. I know in prayer and in faith, I'll be okay.

It's Getting Hard

"Don't let anyone look down on you because you are Young, but set an example for the Believers in Speech, in Life, in Love, in Faith, and in Purity. (1 Timothy 4:12)"

It's easy to go on a path when it is Wide, but to travel on a road that is Narrow, it's not easy. I really want to be a good daughter. It's as simple as that, but it takes alot of little steps/sacrifices. Many people may think that a 22 year old girl is old enough to go out at night and really shouldn't have a curfew. Maybe it's ridiculous to some people that my curfew is way earlier compared to a girl who's younger than me. Or even having a curfew altogether is absurd. But I can't compare myself to other girls, because I'm not like other girls. I don't have their parents. I want to be my parent's daughter as long as I can. It's not easy to raise me and I want to be understanding for my parents. One day I'll be one too. and I'm glad they're not giving up on me easily. But for a second, last night, they made me question that. I felt so sad. I know i'm still young and may not know or fully understand life as much as they have. But damn, They have to understand for me too. I'm not perfect, but that doesn't mean they can't help me no longer. I felt threatened of losing their respect, love, and guidance by the things I said last night.
I told them I'm not doing anything wrong and they should trust me, I never did anything horribly wrong before. And they should trust me more than that. I'm not scared of what they may think of me. A dumb, boy crazy, whore who goes out at night and do bad things. I know, in my heart, that I'm a good person and I'm not doing anything wrong. I'm not afraid of what other people may think of me. When I'm with my boyfriend in the day or night time, I am being myself. I can go to sleep at night without a guilty conscience. I live for myself, and what I decide to do is my choice. But still, that doesn't give me the excuse to do whatever I want. Or that I still have a chance to do something wrong. I hurted my parents. They feel they no longer have to be my parents, because I can make my own decisions, but in reality I still need them. I need them to show me how to be good parents too. Maybe I'm not being what is expected of me. They have to understand it's not easy, and for them to leave me hanging for a second made me feel sad. but I shouldn't have put them in that position in the first place. It's not easy being a perfect daughter as it is for them to be perfect parents. We have to understand for each other. how can i tell my parents that? That's like teaching them how to be my parents. That's not what I want to do, I'm not courageous enough to tell my parents how to be my mom and dad. I feel that's disrespectful.
Although I had good points, but for me to even dare say those things, I really hurted them, even when the things I say may be true and upright, I really didn't want to hurt them. They felt they no longer can say anything to me anymore because I'm all grown up now. Maybe I can make my own decision in one certain aspect of my life, but there are other things I still need them for. Once you're someone's parent, you can never stop being their parent. I made my parents felt like their hands were tied. I made them feel there's nothing they can do to make me understand or listen to them. That I don't understand what they do is out of love and for the best for my future. I don't know what to say to my parents. They're being overly protective. But that's just natural for them. I'm sorry I made them feel like I don't need their love. That they have to threaten me of losing it to understand it.
How can I tell my boyfriend that I can't go out with him as much at night time anymore? That's just hurtful to say to someone you like and really care about. How can he respond to that when he's already trying his best. I want to be honest with him and true to myself. I want to be able to trust him. I really need him with me cause I can't do this alone. I want my parents to like him. Maybe we can take this as our little step together. Maybe we can show my mom and dad what a good boyfriend he is. We can still go out in the daytime when we do have time, which I know is very little. but we can cherish the little time we have to spend with each other even more. If he really wants to be with me, he wouldn't mind right? we can compromise. But if he can't, If this is not what he wants, then it is best we no longer continue our relationship. Heartbreaking, yes. But it'll be okay. It's what we decide to do that defines us and our relationship. We can learn something here. I'm still learning as I go. Learn with me.
I know we hardly go out alot. I know time is limited with our busy schedule. But I'm always obedient to my parents, and I'm not changing that. I do feel pressure to do so oherwise, by my own little sister and my cousins and even my boyfriend. Maybe I'm asking for too much from my boyfriend. But anything worth doing is not easy. I wouldn't be strong enough to this years ago, but Lord knows I'm strong enough now. I love my parents, who doesn't?! and my parents love me too. How can good parents not love their children. No one can stop that love. They just want the best for me and my future. I know it's not easy to be my boyfriend. It's not easy to find a good boyfriend either. It's not easy to be a good person in general. We choose what we want to do in life, and it is what we do in action that defines who we are, in our hearts, and in our minds.

Pictures

Linda and Van (Ring Ceremony)

Sean Paul Van (Thanksgiving)
 
Thao-Vi, Sean, Paul, and Christian.

Sean and Van

Joshua, Adrian, Tanner, Katelyn.

Vuong w/ the kids... look at baby Leah

Funny Faces

All Smiles (Thanksgiving weekend)

Rewind 5 years back Christmas. LOL. I never had a copy of this picture until now. I LOVE you guys!

The Giving Trees

I was a single parent of four small children, working at a minimum-wage job. Money was always tight, but we had a roof over our heads, food on the table, clothes on our backs, and if not a lot, always enough. My kids told me that in those days they didn't know we were poor. They just thought Mom was cheap. I've always been glad about that.

It was Christmas time, and although there wasn't' money for a lot of gifts, we planned to celebrate with church and family, parties and friends, drives downtown to see the Christmas lights, special dinners, and by decorating our home.

But the big excitement for the kids was the fun of Christmas shopping at the mall. They talked and planned for weeks ahead of time, asking each other and their grandparents what they wanted for Christmas. I dreaded it. I had saved $120 for presents to be shared by all five of us.

The big day arrived and we started out early. I gave each of the four kids a twenty dollar bill and reminded them to look for gifts about four dollars each. Then everyone scattered. We had two hours to shop; then we would meet back at the "Santa's workshop" display.

Back in the car driving home, everyone was in high Christmas spirits, laughing and teasing each other with hints and clues about what they had bought. My younger daughter, Ginger, who was about eight years old, was unusually quiet. I noted she had only one small, flat bag with her after her shopping spree. I could see enough through the plastic bag to tell that she had bought candy bars - fifty-cent candy bars! I was so angry. What did you do with that twenty dollar bill I gave you? I wanted to yell at her, but I didn't say anything until we got home. I called her into my bedroom and closed the door, ready to be angry again when I asked her what she had done with the money. This is what she told me:

"I was looking around, thinking of what to buy, and I stopped to read the little cards on one of the Salvation Army's 'Giving Trees.' One of the cards was for a little girl, four years old, and all she wanted for Christmas was a doll with clothes and a hairbrush. So I took the card off the tree and bought the doll and hairbrush for her and took it to the Salvation Army booth.

"I only had enough money left to buy candy bars for us," Ginger continued. "But we have so much and she doesn't have anything."

I never felt so rich as I did that day.

By Kathleen Dixon,
A 5th Portion of Chicken Soup for the Soul

Wow, I have a LiveJournal?

I remember when I first started this LJ. I have only one frined Mrurkel. After all these years, i racked three more. Wow! What do you gotta do to have a whole list of friends?! It's okay... I have a full list of four people. LOL! On Myspace, you can have 100 friends in an instant. but more than half of them are random people. I changed my layout. Just because I'm Bored. Finals are OVER! Good gracious, school is getting tough. . But I'll be fine. Seriously thinking about changing my major. I'm just not cut out to be a dentist. I'm changing it from Pre-Dental to Pre-Dental hygiene. It's not so different. At least I can work in a Dental office. Who knows what i will become later in life. I just want to be happy. Although failing at becoming a Dentist sure does sucks. But at least I know i tried. I'm just not good enough. Other than that. I'm Fine. I love my life anyway cause I'm still Happy. One negative thing won't bring my spirits down.
Happy Holidays Everyone!

Final Fever

About three more weeks to go until the end of the semester. It's been a little stressful with all these science courses. Next semester is going to be another doozy. I have even more sciences. =( I'm scared! I'm going to take the DAT soon too, next Fall, so I'll be studying all Summer. =( This is alot of schooling man. But you gotta do what you gotta do. Just a random post to fill in the November 06'. I want to make one post each month. It's getting cold! Happy Thanksgiving! Christmas is coming. I somewhat have a list this year. But it's mostly whatever I see at the store and tell people to get it for me. They're not extremely expensive. Just knicknacks here and there for pure pleasure and liesure. I like christmas time. Giving feels good. Even if i'm broke. Not working sure does sucks, But i feel good in school. So, School is Cool! Here we go Final Exams. Wish me Luck.

Mommy, Thao-Vi, Anna, Hong, Hoa, Van, Daddy, Vuong

My Family

Tuan and Phung's Wedding

Tuan and Phung's Wedding
October 21st, 2006

  
Phung & Tuan

  
Liem & Van

 
Van & Hoa

 
 Phung & Van

  

Quotes I like

Not trying is failure
Failure is the key to success
Count your blessings
Love like you never gotten hurt
A simple life is a happy life
Respect people's decison. Appreciate those who do.
Thanks for respecting my decision
You can't force someone to love you, love is irrational.
You don't need a reason to give a gift from the heart
I wish you happiness but most of all I wish you love
Love conquers all

Embarassed

Today is me and liem one month anneversary, and boy did i ruin it, well my period did. For the first time with liem i leaked in front of him. How embarassing!!! I can't believe god let that happen. But i guess he handled it well, now he knows what girls have to go through. I know it's alot for him, but I really appreciate he didn't make me feel too embarassed about myself and my body. I had to sit there and explain girl's mentrual cycles. I'm so happy yet embarassed at the same time. But he's a good boyfriend. i know he has to put up alot with me. And especially mom and dad. But i will let him meet them soon though. Yeah ikinda didn't tell him the truth about my perios at first thinking he would drive me home because I just wanted to go home and scared of what mom and dad will think. Well, i would have spend the whole day with him if i didn't have my period and make him take me home early... like around 8-9ish but like my period got heavy... and plus i walked around alot that morning. Oh god... should i go out with him again when i have my period. It's normal. if he had another girlfriend, i think they would somewhat go through the same thing i did with him. i guess i was somewhat scared to tell him about it cuz i didn't know how he would react since it's all boys in his family. he talked about his mom still having it and she's like over 50 yrs old. Good Lord... There's so much other stuff i didn't tell him about my behavior with thao-vi at the hospital. But oh well, anyway. i'll try to be a better person and just do it. suck it up and do It! At least i got to go with liem today i thought i had to cancel it. But no, Thank God. I prayed the rosary last night. Wow! yeah. Hoa's coming over... she's going to the engagement too.and she's bringin theh shoes i need. Thanks Hoa. I need to make her necklaces. gotta go buh bye

I'm Lovin' It

Excerpt from an old journal entry:

One Sunday morning (in Lafayette), my sisters and I planned to go to New Orleans and we had to go to church early, and we saw the sunrise that day with yellow, purple, pinks, and orange. It was beautiful. We wanted to take a picture of it, but the camera couldn't capture it. Only the eyes of human can capture that kind of sight. I thought to myself. I’m glad to be alive to see this day. It was beautiful, and for an instant I felt Love. Maybe it was God that gave me that gift of love that morning, but that wasn't the end. By the end of the day, we drove back and the sun was setting. It was beautiful too.

Thoughts for Today:
I <3 my life. Tonight, as I drove home from Kenner, driving up the high rise and down, I felt that feeling of Love again. It was love for my city. I love the sight of my city at night. It's so beautiful! It's like looking at the stars in the sky. I felt all warm and lubby dubby, like there's a big full moon right in front of you and you're with the one you love... just looking at it, loving it, and taking it all in. How good is that?! That one moment, I felt Love again. Is it true what people say that the sky seems bluer and the stars seem brighter when you think of that special someone?! I think it's somewhat true. You appreciate life more; life has more meaning; and you have someone to share it with.

Song: Everything- Lifehouse
Lyric: "How can I stand next to you and not be moved by you?"

City Lights

Excerpt from an old journal entry:

One Sunday morning (in Lafayette), my sisters and I planned to go to New Orleans and we had to go to church early, and we saw the sunrise that day with yellow, purple, pinks, and orange. It was beautiful. We wanted to take a picture of it, but the camera couldn't capture it. Only the eyes of human can capture that kind of sight. I thought to myself. I’m glad to be alive to see this day. It was beautiful, and for an instant I felt Love. Maybe it was God that gave me that gift of love that morning, but that wasn't the end. By the end of the day, we drove back and the sun was setting. It was beautiful too.

Thoughts for Today:

I <3 my life. Tonight, as I drove home from Kenner, driving up the high rise and down, I felt this feeling of Love again. It was love for my city. I love the sight of my city at night. It's so beautiful! It's like looking at the stars in the sky. I felt all warm and lubby dubby, like there's a big full moon right in front of you and you're with the one you love... just looking at it, loving it, and taking it all in. How good is that?! That one moment, I felt Love again. Is it true what people say that the sky seems bluer and the stars seem brighter when you think of that special someone?! I think it's somewhat true. You appreciate life more; life has more meaning; and you have someone to share it with.

My September

Well, I don't know how to start this off, but I got Happy news! I have a boyfriend!! If you ask me how long have I been single, You can almost count all the fingers on your hands. That would be eight. But it's all changed now. I got him back. Yes, I'm with Liem Nguyen. Yes, again... I Know! This will be the third time I'm trying to work out a relationship with him. I guess he still has a hold on me after all these years. It's been almost one month since we made it official, and so far, I really like it. he makes me happy, I don't know how or why, he just does. Maybe it's the fact that i have a boyfriend now, but i think it's him. I pratically loved him all my life, and now I get to be wih him. It's just too good to be true! Um, Hong moved out. I miss her, but I'm so busy with school now I don't even have time to stop and smell the roses. I'm doing okay in school. Physics sucks though, But i'll stick it out and see what happens. ChemLab is doing better than i thought and Chemistry lecture.... note taking is fun! and physics lab, i'm on top of things! and computer science, i don't want to underestimate it. I study more than i ever thought i could. I guess i really miss school... One year off.... hell yea i do! I lost ten puonds from the Katrina weight. I'm trying to lose more. i think i lost about 15 now, but i keep going back and forth but for sure i lost ten. I'm trying to workout and study now. it's been a month of school and i really slacked off with working out. But i'm still trying to fit it into my schedule. I work out about 3 times a week for an hour. Sometimes i can't even do one hour a week. =( Ever since school started, my weight hasn't changed much. But i really need to. In about a month, me and Liem are going to a friend's wedding. I got a very nice dress and would love to look nice in it. So, if i lose about 5-10 more pounds, it'll be Great! Not only will i reach my goal of losing 20 pounds to my average weight, but my dress will make me look Sexy! Yea, It's a dress that shows my curves, top and bottom. It's kinda low cut, but covers enough so that I can still wear a bra. I can't wait til that day comes. I hope Liem likes it.

Nhan & Hong

     

Soon to be Husband and Wife
September 2, 2006

I'm Bringin' XangaBack!! Who's with me?!

My sister is getting married soon! And that over there <--- is a picture of me playing with my hair and make-up. It's not professional or anything, but I do wanna tell a secret.... I didn't use foundation! That's my skin! =) I've been drinking water and green tea for naturally beautiful skin. and it's working!!! I've been on water and tea for three months now. Been walking on the treadmill for about a month. Didn't lose much weight but my body is much tighter. Whoa! it kinda scared me too.      Uhh... Nothing happening much. The only thing on my mind is the wedding. Oh yeah, I'm a bride's maid. Hence the obsession about my body for the dress I'm wearing. Haven't worn a dress like this since my Prom. Good Lord....... I KNOW!    Uh, School is coming, but i don't wanna jinx it or anything. Uh, i'm just ready for school to start.      Blah, that's alot of information about me, I'm usually not like this. But hey... I'm bringing Xanga back, and what's better than a real update about me?!

About me

Things people may not know about me. (as of today)

My least favorite food is peanut butter.
I like to bake when I cook.
I don't blow dry my hair, I air dry it.
I don't wear make-up as much anymore.
I drink green tea more than soft drinks now.
I broke someone's heart before.
I'm trying to unmaterialize myself.
I have enough clothes.
I don't wear deodorant.
my armpits don't stink easily.
I talk alot.
I haven't bought something from the mall in months.
for a girl, I don't have alot of shoes.
I like taking long showers.
I take a long bubble bath to relieve stress.
I like to drink from straws.
I don't like drinking alcohol.
I had strong feelings for someone before.
I can endure toothache for a long time.
I like people with glasses.
I don't like wearing rings on my fingers.
I don't go out at night.
My favorite flower are roses.
I'm starting to get picky with food.
My name supposed to be Linda-Ly.
I like to be independent.
I got stitches twice, both on my head.
My fear is deep relationships.
I put the cap back on my toothpaste tube.
I never smoked anything before.
I broken a promise before.
I hurt myself in emotional ways.
I want to die before I get old and sick;
because I don't to be a burden to my family when I get old.
I hate straws that are bitten.
I never went clubbing before.
I don't get jokes right away.
I don't know what I'm doing in college, but I'm in it.
I can somewhat control my dreams.
I have light hair on my legs, I haven't shaved since Tet.
I have small feet for a girl my size.
I'm trying to get healthy.
I have a weakness for sweets.
I never trusted anyone with my whole-self.
I don't expect alot from friends.
I don't make promises anymore.
I have one dimple when I smile.
I tried lots of things, but I'm not really good at one thing.
I can be alone and be okay with it.
I don't mind people snoring when I sleep.
I don't use a cup when I brush my teeth; I use my hand.
I think I will be blind when I'm old.
Romance is one way to my heart.
Cook, sing, and drive for me are some.
Don't have to be good at it, just do it for me.
I don't believe in true/best friends.
I don't like being hit on my head.
I don't get embarrassed easily.
I stay calm under chaotic situations.
I rather be safe than sorry.
I have alot of hair on my head.
I don't catch on quick with two-way insult jokes.
I never had braces.
Christian music makes me feels good.
I have three ear piercings but only two work.
I broken my toe before and it looks crooked now.
I don't have a symmetrical face.

Lists

List of things I Want:

DAT preparation book ($7 @ ebay) (17.00 Barnes & Nobles)

Good pair of tennis shoes (Mall $60-$100)

....other things i might look into....

Harry Potter and The Order of the Pheonix 
     & Harry Potter and The Half-Blood Prince  (both for $10)

Bowling shoes (bowlingshoes.com  $40)

Super Mario 3 nintendo game ($13 @ ebay) (don't want anymore)

List of things I want For myself From myself:

Lose Weight (20lbs. GOAL=>140lbs) (8/6/2006-- 6 lbs. and GOING!)
(plus 4 more! 10 lbs!!8/23/2006) I'm still the same 145lbs. 10/03/06

Get a Job (Dry Cleaning) (Super Cajun) (Gordon's) I Give Up!

**EDIT**
Things I Got Unexpectedly:

A Boyfriend (Liem Nguyen) Sept. 6, 2006

An evening dark green Dress ($70.00)

Fairytales

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I AM

I was regretting the past and fearing the future.
Suddenly my Lord was speaking:
"My name is I AM"
He paused. I waited. He continued,

"When you live in the past
with its mistakes and regrets,
it is hard. I am not there.
My name is not I WAS.

When you live in the future,
with its problems and fears,
it is hard. I am not there.
My name is not I WILL BE.

When you live in this moment,
it is not hard. I am here.
My name is I AM."

Helen Mallicoat

When I was a Boy

Chapter Two: When I was a Boy
Category: Writing and Poetry


So here's the story that happened during 1st grade, which inspired me to write the haircut story. The succession from the boy haircut story. I know we all have secrets, and this is one of them for me, the time when i was a boy.

You'd think having a boy haircut for punishment isn't that bad right?! It will grow out soon enough. During the time i waited for my hair to grow out, i had to go to school and make new friends. Having short hair gave me a hard time to fit in with the girls, they all had their long pony-tailed hair, and i felt out of place. I didn't play with the girls, i kinda felt like they didn't like me because of my hair, i guess i wasn't good enough or something. Man, kids can be harsh, i didn't want to play with them either. Instead, I decided to run and play with the boys. I actually thought i was a boy! i think having a boy haircut caused me to have a gender confusion. Hahaha. No, i knew i was a girl. but being a boy at that time seemed right. it kinda helped me to make friends in school, 'boy' friends that is. maybe the boys thought i was a boy and only played with me because of that. It was cool with me. When something makes you happy, you just go with that right?! i was about 6 years old. I had friends, girls or boys it didn't matter, they played with me.

Playing with the boys was pretty cool. I learned a cool game that seemed inappropriate for girls to play. But i played it anyway. It's a game that's very popular between the boys. We only played this game during class where we can't run around making alot of noise. Kids are very creative back then and we were poor, we can't afford those expensive toys. Even if we did bring toys, the teacher would confiscate them. we didn't have yu-gi-oh cards or gameboys. We had to use our imagination and play with what we got. I don't know who came up with this game but thank God they did. It's a game where you can't get caught easily and only needed little equipment.

So, what game can a kid play during class that the teacher won't catch you playing? It's consisted of a basic school supply and every kid has one. it's very inexpensive. 25 cents can get you a brand new one to play with everytime. Well, it's the good ole' cracking pencils game. Each player has one pencil and the players take turns flicking their pencil on the other person's pencil. whoever breaks the other person's pencil before theirs break, wins. I think there are rules like if a player flicks their pencil but misses, loses their turn and you can't switch new pencils. Wow! isn't that an exciting game?!

Yes, it Was an exciting game, only until you get caught! what do you know, i got caught. You get in Trouble if you were caught by the teacher misbehaving in class. You know how kids are, we're so naive, 'how can you get caught playing crack pencil?!' We would play it under the desk and if the teacher pass by we would act like we were writing something and cover the dented part of our pencils. And then, when she's away, sneakily go back under the table for a quick flick at the pencil. Most of the time you'd get away with it, but that one time i got caught. Boy oh boy, did i got in trouble playing this game.

I was playing it with three other boys. the plan was, the last two that survive will play each other with their already beaten up pencils. who ever wins the two rounds is the ultimate winner. right when we got crackin' the teacher somehow found out what we were up to and called us out and looked at our pencils. Maybe it was the pencil snapping noise that gave us away. we were sitting in the back of the class in our little corner and maybe it can be easily detected by her ear. (I always wonder if teachers had super powers, it was when i taught CCD that i just naturally knew what kids were up to. I had to take away Yu-gi-oh cards from them.)

Anyways, me and the three boys each had to stand in the four corners of the class for a Time Out. not a big deal right?! well, it was for me, because I was a girl. Can you imagine what the teacher thought?! i really made her disappointed because it was bad enough the boys played it, but for a girl... What was i thinking? how about the girls sitting in their seats, what were they thinking as they look at me (with my short hair) standing in the corner?! Why didn't i just sit quietly like any other girl. I bet if i had long hair, I would get away with it easily. Sit there and innocently act like i was doing nothing. I mean, come on, I'm a girl!! But too bad, i had short hair, i thought it was okay for me to play with the boys. Those boys were nice to me and let me play with them. i mean, at first i knew i wasn't supposed to, but come on, cracking pencil was fun! But the consequences of playing this game gave me more than a lesson about misbehaving in class. It's not about my hair being short. Really, it made me realize being a girl takes alot, control that is. So, I stopped playing with the boys.

I guess it was fun and all, but when i was punished, i felt ashamed of myself. Why didn't i understand, "I'm Not a Boy!" sometimes i wonder -what if i was a boy? (i know i'm not the only girl who thinks about this.) Boys can get in trouble and it would be okay because it's typical for boys to get in trouble. Man! i wish i was a boy. Anyways, I did break some pencils. but mostly, they break mines. there's a secret in playing this game too. the short pencils... they tend to be hard to crack. If i only knew that then huh?! I guess the boys had more experience and they know to use shorter pencils. I thought the bigger the better, but the shorter ones were more resilient.

I like how some boys play this game. it's like they're professionals or something like trying to scare the other players. they have very strong grip on their pencils and they move it slowly towards the other pencil only to let it go, at the final moment, and hit the pencil with fullest force. and even sometimes they move it close to the pencil in slow motion but pulls it back right before it touches the other pencil and does it again and again until the third one. And finally, on the third one they let it hit hard and make the biggest dent on the other pencil as much as they can in hope that the next time they hit it, it'll break. if you were good at this, it take less than five flicks to break a pencil.

Where Am I?

So if you're here to leave me a comment, You're such a sweetheart! and you're also in luck too because i'm updating here for those who really cares.

i know you all are wondering what's going on with me. Well, i'm back in New Orleans. For almost a month now. unpacked everything two days straight. went job hunting the day after. But decided to put that on hold. We wanted to do a vacation before we started work. So, for about a week i went to an early vacay to P-cola with my two little sisters. We wanted to beat the July 4th crowd and do something for thao-vi's graduation trip. Also to visit our cousins, (they couldn't attend the ceremony)we wanted to spend sometime with them. We're all growing up so fast you know. Uhh.. went to the beach two days back to back and got sun burnt. My skin isn't looking to good. It's kinda peeling. First day the water was so calm... we just floated out there. we stayed close together and started singing kiddie songs, i think we got people's attention when we were singing happy birthday really loud! BTW, Happy Birthday Stephen! Second day, waves was a little rough because of T.S. Alberto. we were literally catching some waves. I couldn't survive out there without a boogie board. That day was more fun, but the waves hit me real hard. So I just sunbathed the rest of the day. Third day we went shopping & bowling. Second day we watched movies all day and went out to eat at night. fourth day, we planned to go home but decided to stay back another day because Sean came down late. We went bowling again and played cards at night. fifth day, we went home.

After that week, my sister from Lafayette came down for father's day and we pig out and their two kids stayed with us in New Orleans for three more days. The big thing is... it's their frist time without their parents. They're only 5 and 2. i drove them back home to Lafayette and i stayed there for a day and went shopping. Lately, I've been working on my sister's wedding flower stuff and party favors. also, getting paperwork done to go back to UNO. My little sister is starting college, been helping her out here and there. But we recently bought some chinese movies and we're so addicted and been watching them everyday. I want to find a job, but i'm so picky. I want it to be easy and pays well. and no Food service, i had enough at Castnet. I don't want to work late at night either. New Orleans is a little dangerous right now -especially for girls. I read some articles about a gang called 13. they've been racking up crime rates in N.O. Eletricity cuts off often, i'm getting used to it. My cousins from Penn state is moving back home soon, and my family is going on a vacation trip for july 4th. Been busy with my family, you know i love them to death. Can't wait to reconnect with old friends again. If you haven't notice, i'm getting back to Xanga. I got a myspace too. i found long lost friends on there more than on here... pretty cool place. Uhh... that's about it. I could make this update more personal by writing about my feelings, but i've been writing so much in my journal... and there's no way i can type all that in here. But i'll try... In one phrase: I'm doing much better right now. a relief, a good one too. i think it's called gladness. *sigh -with a smile*

Back On Track

I'm slowly feeling like my life is coming back together again. My life was put on hold for a while. It seemed long at first, but it finally passed. Now, i'm back home and starting to feel the life I once had come back... And with a rush too. I'm getting happier and it's so exciting. It's a little overwhelming to me though. I was really depressed for a time and now that all these good things are happening to me left and right, it's making me feel So Blessed.
Sure, there are some things that are still missing, but I'm grateful of what i have right now. You know, sometimes you have those moments where you want it to last forever. i feel one. I don't want another hurricane did what it did to me a few months ago. I want my life, as it is right now.... Feel everything of "my life" and have this feeling last forever. I don't know what i'm talking about. All i can say is, I'm doing much better right now. a relief, a good one too. i think it's called gladness. *sigh -with a smile*

Thao-Vi

Happy Graduation to my sister Thao-Vi!

I'm Meant to Be

I thought about something very meaningful a moment ago. As i write the story of my life i realized what a long road i traveled. I ask god 'why am i here' and i answer myself, 'because i was there'. The significance here is that I had a life and i still do, and I'm here because of life. It's as simple as that. You know how people who had near death experiences promise themselves for the rest of their life, that they will live it to the fullest. Well, i never had a near death experience before. However, i take that advice and try to live my life to the fullest. But can i make it happen? when i don't know what it really means when they say 'life is short, live it to the fullest.' I try to live my life to the fullest, but how do i know if i am or not. Should we, for the rest of our lives, live and strive for the fullest?! why can't we just be happy right now and let life be as it is to us at this moment. We all have our ways to live our lives. And a moment ago, i thought of mines. I want to live my life in a way that if i die, it will be okay.

I guess what i'm trying to say is that 'every moment of my life is full, and i'm truly blessed with each day that is coming. if i was to die today, i will gladly go.' i know i had a life and what i'm leaving from can't compare to where i will be, with Jesus. okay, who am i to judge if i'm going to hell or heaven, but who cares if i die, there's a chance i will meet Jesus. So, until that day come, i will always remember this reason -"i am here because i was there, I was meant to be. And every moment of my being is truly blessed." Life is great as it is. I think we are very lucky to be human. Maybe being mortal is a good thing because every moment we have may be our last. If we were to live forever, we would really want to die. So be happy because we are human and that we will die.

I love the sunset. I love to look at it. there's no one who can capture the sunset into a photo the way our eyes see it. It's always changing minute by minute. It's always there day by day. No matter where you are, no matter what you're doing, no matter what the weather is like outside. Whether it is clear, cloudy, or stormy - the sun is always setting at the end of our day. It is something God gave us every day, every single day. And that realization made me recognize that my life is wonderful. The sunset is a gift from God. Maybe the sun setting is a miracle and i didn't take notice for. Maybe there's so many other miracles in our lives that we take for granted. It's used to be the people in my life, but now i know there's more to it than that. It's everything in our life.

You know how the people who have cancer fight to live for their life?! maybe they feel their life is too precious to give up. They are right, life is worth fighting for and there's no wrong in that. Well, as for me, if i had cancer, it think i will gladly suffer the pain that it brings because through that suffering, i think i will come closer to Jesus. I would surrender to it, surrender it all to Jesus and live, even if i live in pain, i will gladly live it for Jesus. Maybe having cancer is a way to salvation, so why fight it? If i fight the cancer, i will be fighting for a temporary life on earth. But i really should be dying to get to heaven

Chilhood Memories

passage from my wrriten journal, specially revised for public viewing.
Here's to my comeback. A true stroy. tuyet-van nguyen

why I was a mushroom head
Category: Writing and Poetry



When I was little, I think I was in the first grade or so. That would make me about six years old. No, wait I remembered it happen at the old house and we moved in 1991, so it had to be one year earlier. Either way, I was old enough to go to school and go to CCD. There's another story after this incident, I'll save that for another time. Okay so here's what happened.


I, accidentally, got GUM stuck to my hair. i know, it's not that funny but rather a very common incident most kids go through. It just really suck for me cause i'm a girl. Let me spoil the end a little, I looked like a boy. Okay, so I got gum in my hair. why don't i just tell my mom and she can get it out with oil or something. But No! I had to take matters into my own hands and take care of it myself. Wow! smart kid I am, I didn't bother pulling it out. I used scissors to cut it. Did I mention it was very close to my scalp?! yeah, I think that's why i didn't pull it out. Maybe i tried but don't remember. Whoa, I Know... a little girl cutting her own hair (near the head) wouldn't that be dangerous? I don't know if i cut myself or not though. probably not. So! here i go, i found the scissors, got it in my hands and i'm ready to go. Stood in front of the dresser (w/ mirror) and found the gum with my other hand and raised it up high to see.


Wait, something else happened. I remember that it wasn't too easy for me to do it! Oh yeah! I remember someone passing by the hallway and came in to ask me 'what was i doing'. But right before she stuck her head in (my older sister i think, can't remember exactly who), I quickly put the scissors down and ran away from the dresser, covered the gum on my head, and dropped my head quickly on the pillow. Trying to play it off, i started to pull up the blanket over my head only popping my face out. somehow she left.


SO! Back to my mission. you see, I was a very sneaky little girl. I figured why don't i cut my hair with the scissors under the blanket! LOL! I didn't want anyone to walk in on me doing the deed. so, yes. I grabbed the scissors from the dresser and under the blanket i go. I had to use my sense of touch to find where the gum was. Finally, positioned my scissors onto the strip of hair with the gum and snipped away. i had so much fun with cutting my own hair, i think i over done it. I snipped away some more. 'a little more hair won't hurt' i thought. LOL! I stayed under the blanket for a while with those scissors. somehow i got out from under there, probably because it was hard to breathe or something.

Done right?! No! So here's where the messy part comes in. How will i get rid of the evidence?! there was pieces of hair all over the bed and under the blanket! You can imagine how many pieces of hair i had to pick up. it's not over yet. Well, it was pretty tough to get rid of the evidence, so the next best thing i did was hide it. Where did i hide the evidence?! under the blanket! LOL! I pushed as much hair as i could under the blanket. then spread the blanket wide across the bed to make sure no piece of hair was clear to the eyesight. I think i left the scissors under the blanket too. I was rushing through all of this.

In the end, i was caught. Don't know which came first. Either someone found the hair and scissors under the blanket, or someone noticed the missing hair spot on my head. I was interrogated by my mom and sisters of why I had short uneven layers of hair on top of my head. I think they noticed the missing hair on my head first because I remember uncovering the hair on the bed to them. but who knows, i think they really wanted me to show them the hair i hid foolishly under the blanket for their humor. I guessed they had a good laugh while i fessed up to the dirty deed i worked so hard to keep hidden. so much for being sneaky.

My Punishment: a boy haircut.

Easter Sunday

Lent has come by and passed so quickly, I didn't feel It happened at all. Yeah.. I, Van, am not the same this year. I feel like the goodness of the Lord has just slowly faded and now gone completely. I didn't go to confession this year, I just didn't feel it. And I think it's okay.
So I won't be able to receive communion until I have the heart to go to confession. The church says you have to do it at least once a year, and the last I went was Christmas, so I'm still good. Hopefully by then I get over myself and just do it.
I think about him everyday even when I'm doing everything that's not right. I'm doing it even though I know it's wrong and I didn't say sorry for it either. I use profanity a lot more than usual, totally different from what I wanted before.. Where I try not to use any at all. Now It's just *%$@! mutha@%&*! %@*\!
I still go to church and everything... Out of Habit or something. Maybe that's the least I can do. But one day... I will come back to the Heart of Worship. Keeping these habits is going to let me come back easily. Trying to do good even though I don't pray anymore and don't let him in my life like I used to anymore and totally ignoring the voice. I Know he's still there, But I need -out- for now.
I'm doing opposite of what I'm feeling. Trying to decorate my room with holy things and inspirational words from scriptures. Making my sisters go to church with me even though they don't want to. Making Scapular necklaces and Rosary bracelets for people. But deep down inside I'm empty, I'm doing it to make that bridge to come back to Him. Some day I will turn back. I want it real bad, But not now.

*Sigh* Blah! other than that, I'm okay

Feeling Down

Never Alone
Barlow Girls

March Madness

My grandma is in the hospital... Again since the last six months for the same reason. OD'ing on her medications. Is she doing this on purpose?! To get some attention or something?! Either that or I think my Uncle is really Pissing her off. I would like to go visit her and go home to talk to my family and tell me all about it, because she do make a big scene every time we make her go to the hospital like... The doctors are going to make her stay there for a long time just to make money off her. And say in Vietnamese with exaggeration that we're torturing her for making her go. How silly! It's her Health! The only way we can make her go to the hospital is by calling the ambulance for her. And the nearest hospital is in the Westbank.

Update (Xanga)

So, If you're here. that means... you actually came to my page to see it just because.
not because i updated it. Thanks. You're too sweet.

I know i said that i won't update, but i just wanted those who really cares enough to go visit my page an update, they deserve a Real update about me. so if you're reading this! thanks for caring about me. Now if you care about me more... comment me and said that you read this.

So here's a song i'm listening to to get through my days.

"Never Alone" By Barlow Girl (Now Playing)

I waited for you today
But you didn't show
No no no
I needed You today
So where did You go?
You told me to call
Said You'd be there
And though I haven't seen You
Are You still there?

I cried out with no reply
And I can't feel You by my side
So I'll hold tight to what I know
You're here and I"m never alone

And though I cannot see You
And I can't explain why
Such a deep, deep reassurance
You've placed in my life

We cannot separate
'Cause You're part of me
And though You're invisible
I'll trust the unseen

What's up with me? I'm decorating my room (in New Orleans) with inspirational things like verses from the bible, 10 Simple ways to life your life, and the Footprints story. Also things like "Dance like no one is watching , sing like no one can hear you, and live like heaven is on earth". that's the nicest thing i found for my room so far. the theme is Inspirational. I'm doing my room so that when you wake up in the morning you read things like "with God all things are possible. (Mt. 19:26.)and You'll be inspried to wake up with a great feeling and a good start.

oh....I'm learning by heart some prayers in vietnamese that i forgot or didn't know, and bible scriptures too. My favorite: I Corithians 13:4-8. "love is patient love is kind....". I'm reading books and doing stuff here and there like playing pool, going bowling, and playng badmitton when my little sisters have time to go with me. I'm starting on the Harry potter books too. i know i'm late, but i'm reading so that my little sister can read it for school too. Also Hugs for etc., and Laughter from heaven. Since i'm taking my break, why not do things i usually don't have time for. Getting more spiritual and feed my soul. writing in my journal with 5 things i appreciate (got it from Oprah) and listening to christian songs in the car. My favorite: Never Alone by Barlow Girl. well, that's all i'm doing for now, until i get back home. I'm really counting down til i go back to my home sweet home!
Did i mention that i'm babysitting my niece katelyn?! yeah. she's so smart. she knows which feet to put in her shoes and change her own clothes. I have to actually stop her form doing it cuz she likes to change her clothes alot! even when she's not dirty or anything! she knows answers to things i ask about like: her age and where she live! she's only two years old! she knows how to match shapes, numbers, and alphabets in puzzle games. I'm starting to potty train her now with her mom too. She's growing so fast! i can't believe it! it's so exciting! i didn't know how much work and love goes into raising a child. It's real responsibility there. it makes me love my parents more. okay til next time my dears. van

HmMm... Making scapulas too. And Rosary bracelets from beads... so that's like beading... yeah.. making it for close family and maybe friends later on when i see them. I'm Bored. can't wait to get back to my life again... Soon...!! Huh?! I didn't go to confession this year for Easter, just didn't feel it. And maybe I'm just Not the same or whatever... But I think you can still go to it, at least Once a year, so that'll be like like Christmas Right?

Meningitis

Meningococcal disease outbreaks in Lafayatte!!

I'm in New Orleans today with my two little sisters to get shots for this disease. These shots are very limited in Lafayette. I, on the other hand, am not able to get the shot because I'm 21. Even if I'm willing to pay for it. This shot is now required for college students, so If you're 20 and under, go get the shot.


3 new meningitis cases raise fears
Former student dies, two more in hospital


Another Lafayette meningitis case reported

Nurses I talked to at a clinic said that this disease is spread in crowded places like college campuses usually by sharing cigarettes, sharing drinks, or kissing. I know I don't do these things to get infected, but I rather be safe than sorry. I'm living in Lafayette where three died and two infected. Those who do recover, may still suffer paralysis.

Title: None

Everything that happened in my past will only remind me of how much i changed.
Every moment of it was great,
And I need not regret any moment I had.
One day I will look back on this and smile....
Simply because I had something to write about.

Passage from Nicholas Spark's "The Notebook"

She leaned toward him. "Tell me, Noah, what do you remember most from the summer we spent together?"

"All of it."

"Aything in particular?"

"No," he said.

"You don't remember?"

He answered after a moment, quietly, seriously.

"No, it's not that. It's not what you're thinking. I was serious when I said 'all of it.' I can remember every moment we were together, and in each of them there was something wonderful. I can't really pick any one time that meant more than any other. The entire summer was perfect, the kind of summer everyone should have. How could I pick one moment over another?

"Poets often describe love as an emoition that we can't control, one that overwhelms logic and common sense. That's what it was like for me. I didn't plan on falling in love with you, and I doubt if you planned on falling in love with me. But once we met, it was clear that neither of us could control what was happening to us. We fell in love, despite our differences, and once we did, something rare and beautiful was created. For me, love like that has happened only once, and that's why every minute we spent together has been seared in my memory. I'll never forget a single moment of it."

Angels Among Us

There are people in your life that makes a big difference. Even though they do not play a big role in your life, but one little thing, as a favor, a kind word, a simple look or smile can make such a big difference. If god given me an angel on earth, because he knew I needed one, I hope that angel goes on and help others as he did for me. I don't want to be greedy with him. There might be other angels out there somewhere. Keep a smile on my face and all my worries just fades away. Sing me a song and my heart opens up. Look at me sincerely and I’ll trust you. Hold my hand and make me strong. Simply smile with me and I’ll be happy.

I try to smile truly once a day, at least once. katelyn makes me smile alot. If there's one thing I can count on, it's katelyn. Because I can stop a moment and smile at her, and she smiles back and I know that it's true. She’s so innocent like an angel. I know she truly loves me. I witness miracles from her every time I see her.

I’ve watched Oprah’s twentieth anniversary DVD. And there was a boy named Mattie. Even though I never met him before, but he made me believe that there is more to love than anyone can understand. He knows what Love is. He was love. He talked to Oprah over the phone during a sunset: "The sun is setting over here. It’s very beautiful with orange, yellow, purple, pink. And I'm sending it your way." awww, how cute is that?! That's love.

One Sunday morning, my sisters and I planned to go to New Orleans and we had to go to church early, and we saw the sunrise that day with yellow, purple, pinks, and orange. It was beautiful. We wanted to take a picture of it, but the camera couldn't capture it. Only the eyes of human can capture that kind of sight. I thought to myself. I’m glad to be alive to see this day. It was beautiful, and for an instant I felt Love. Maybe it was God that gave me that gift of love that morning, but that wasn't the end. By the end of the day, we drove back and the sun was setting. It was beautiful too. That day my dad gave me a new phone with a camera. And I took a picture of it. It’s not that beautiful as it looks through my eyes, but it was good enough. It’ll be a reminder for me, every time I look at my phone, I can appreciate every day that I’m living. Mattie passed away already at a very young age. But when I saw the sunrise that day, I know what he meant. He showed me the Love from god, that god had planned for me a long time ago, before I was even born. Oprah said Mattie was an angel, I think so too.

"There must be an angel with a smile on her face" -J. Blunt (you're beautiful)

Happy Birthday

I turn twenty one today. Happy Birthday to me! I'm happy today, even though it is boring, but my spirit is high and i enjoyed my car ride from laffy to New Orleans today. Singing ole time favorites and thinking about So Dang, the convent girls, also about Moo Cow Dao, it's not her nickname anymore but i love her for that. it's her birthday also. my little sisters are baking me a cake, because if we buy one, there's no bakery worth buying a cake from. It won't taste as good as Homemade. it's the best. i bought myself an oyster poboy today and it was Good! i haven't eaten one in like months. we're planning our big Clean Up day for Tet. We just got home a couple of hours ago, and it is DirtAy! But in one night me made it look clean, but we're doing major detail clean up tomorrow. and we're making a list to go down. I'm Pumped. We got a tree to decorate with flowers for tet too! It's like a tradition, we have fake flowers to attach to a tree, and every year we go around scoping out dead trees, to use as our Tet tree. It's Tradition now! kinda like Christmas... family stuff that makes us get together and actually do stuff. LOL. I asked my parents what today is, and they couldn't figure it out. they keep thinking it's Friday, Friday before Tet. LOL. but when i told them it was my 21st birthday they were like surprised. reality hit them, I'm Old. anyways, i thought my birthday was going to suck, but it didn't turn out bad at all. just a simple happy day, that's all i wanted, to be happy. And the reason, it's my birthday. I don't need an extravagant birthday party or getting drunk on my twenty first birthday to make me happy. It's the simple things that i love best. if i was to die today, i would be happy. Thank god for birthdays, he gave me a reason to be happy a day more.

January 27

today's my birthday. well not in another hour. i was born at 11:06 in the morning.. but it feels like just another day. today's also moo cow Dao's and So Dang Birthday. i wonder what are they doing today. big event coming next sunday. And No.. It's not superbowl. very excited. Seeing alot of relatives... hope to see you Sean, Paul, and the gang. oh yeah, Happy New Year's Everyone!

Xanga

I promised to post up pictures before I decided to Stop posting entries on xanga. So here's some pictures! Enjoy.... My Christmas at home. I'll be back home for the Versai Tet Fair!! It'll also be my sister Hong engagement. Congrats to her and her hubby to be.


adrian

katelyn

We had to put up the christmas tree on christmas eve. kinda last minute, but still looks nice. forgot to turn on the white lights on it.

our seafood christmas dinner






So, ever since my last visit the house is looking better!

First room I cleaned up.... My Beautiful room! me and Thao-Vi share this room and the bathroom! Never had a bed so nice. And those Drawers.. Heaven. Wish I was HOME!

double sink in my bathroom! Sweet!

My mom and dad's room. look how messy, but we cleaned it up.

Vuong's room.

living room before christmas, if you look at the christmas one above, you can see the before and after. What's the change? ...we put window curtains on.

Front door, no christmas tree yet...

looks at our new leather sofa. it's comfy.

Kitchen, it was real dirty... but it's clean in this pic.

I spend most my days in Lafayette with my niece

Katelyn, she's adorable!!!

The End


***EDIT***

i got a new phone!
Did i mentioned i got new glasses too?! well, i do. EWW... i Look Greasy.



A Razor Motorola phone

Upcoming Events

Good news to my family. My sister Hong just picked a date for her engagement. It was supposed to be held this past November, but due to the hurricane the couple had to wait. The engagement will be held on February 5th. The week before that would be Tet. So, Chuc Mung Nam Moi. What zodiac animal is it this year?! i hope this celebration will be fun, i'm counting on it. I'll be in Versai for Tet. Anyway, i'm turning 21 two days before Tet. not too excited about it though. Although my optometrist and I had a whole conversation about me getting drunk when he asked me how old I am. I'm not going to do that just because i'm twenty one, but I could understand why the doctor thought of me that way. So I went along with him and let him ramble away about the fun with getting drunk. He's stereotyping the age of 21; however, I didn't object to it either. sad isn't it.

New Years/ Tet

Happy New Years everyone!

For me, not celebrating the big 06 yet, It'll actaully be more fun when Tet comes, so i'm going to save all the energy until Tet. But you guys enjoy and have fun! Oh yeah, Dong Phuong is back! i felt weird driving to DP and buy some Banh Mi, haven't done that in a while.