No I'm not pregnant.
Why the abdominal pains?!
It just aches really.
I went to the gym last night and did alot of abs workout.
Saw an old friend!
Well, he was once my past love of my life.
It's really nothing, but to me, at that age, it was everything.
At one point of my life, I truly really loved him.
He was my first official boyfriend that I put my heart into.
Dat Le. I can't believe it!
Although it was at a very young age, I swear it was the world to me.
But now, all I can do about it is laugh of how silly I was.
I had no idea what Love was and now I'm really glad we're good friends.
We have a connection that will last forever.
I went to school with him in high school too.
We were classmates and high school graduates.
Even though we were never close, we still kept in touch and respect each other.
He's grown into a very handsome man I might add.
I think I always had a little crush on him, but nothing more.
I didn't know he was at the gym, I think he spotted me and came over to mess with me.
But he has the most adorable personality. I guess it's his charm.
I also saw another friend too!
I first met him in college playing cards or was it volleyball?
Huy Duong. He has the cutest smile.
Like a little boy who was up to no good kinda smile.
Though his smile did not change, other things have.
Man does he workout! He has some nice arms! =)
I think I've been looking way to hard.
Been thinking about alot of things lately.
And reading too. Like "He's not that into you" and "Rich Dad Poor Dad"
I'm longing for my soul-mate...
Maybe I just need someone to make the thought of Liem go away.
As much as I try to make him go away from my mind, he's not.
I hate missing someone knowing that it's all hopelessness.
I need hope. Hope for a better day.
Faith to keep me strong in my lonliest days.
And Love, because I know it's all worth the waiting for.
I also need to add: I'm on my period! Finally! It's slow but it's still a flow. It's not as dark like the spotting anymore. I guess I'm just having a long period. To think of it... My last period was really short. I guess my body is trying to normalize itself. Which makes sense to me. Is this like my mid-point of birthing age?! I guess reality strikes again. My motherly clock is ticking down. I feel the pressure of wanting children bearing down on me. It's silly I know. I'm only 24. But I feel my life is starting, but going no where. BLAH! But I still feel like a little kid. There's so much things I never encountered before. Why do I want kids?! I'm really a kid at heart. That's why I won't be a good mother. I'll be too much of their friend.
