Damn!! So I was driving home after workingout and I saw this hot guy washing his BMW with his shirt off. He's not buff, but his skin complexion was a nice asian tan. Damn, call me crazy but I was looking hard and smiling. He had some nice natural guyish curves on him. I was singing a song in the car and couldn't help laughing out loud from being excited. He's was the higlight of my day. A strange half naked guy innocently washing his car. And then I thought, hey he doesn't know me, so I turned the car around and got another glimpse. LOL! I love being single. I don't feel guilty checking guys out, and I am not afraid if that guy knows I'm checking him out either. He asked for it! I just took advantage of it. I cannot describe the sneaky things I do at the gym when I'm checking out a guy. Because it's too embarassing. I do it in a way that they won't know I'm looking. I have to! I don't want them to know how pathetic I am. Sometimes, it may be too obvious. I'm embarassed when I get caught, I just smile really big and then give them a thumbs up from afar and go back to minding my own business. I think it gives them a little flatterness and confidence. Oh well, I'm a girl I can't help it. I bet they like the attention too. It's a win win situation.
I think my level of health has gone up a notch or two. Body and mind. I'm more outgoing and more happy. I lost about ten pounds from one month at the gym 3-4 days a week. The endorphins are flowing! I feel really good about myself. Oh, my period is done! I think I'm okay now. If it had gone another week abnormal, I would go to the OBGYN or health clinic to see what's up. I'm thinking about getting a basal temperature thermometer. It's something I should start monitoring to watch for my ovulation cycle. It can be a natural form of birth control too called Billings method. No condoms or pills and such are needed. It's just an awareness of my own body. I may be sexually active in the next coming years. And want to be well aware of my body for when the time's right. And healthwise, it's also a good idea to make sure my cycles are normal. I want to be more educated about sex and socializing because I want to be healthy and smart about making decisions about sex and relationships. I don't want to go in stupid and not know what I'm doing. I'm a sexual being and I want to enjoy every aspect of it. Sex isn't just sex, you gotta be smart about it too.
