White Christmas

For the first time in my life I enjoyed Snow very much. We made a snowman and had a snowball fight. I took pictures of this unforgettable Christmas. Something I will look back on and truly feel the spirit of Christmas and how blessed I was. I wished I made a snowangel, but the floor was dirty and it was so cold. I should've made one because it doesn't snow in New Orleans often. I also got sick on Christmas Eve, I guess I was over stressed and tired that day. But on Christmas day, being sick didn't stop me from going outside in the snow!

You know how people have Christmas lists of what they want for Christmas. I didn't made a Christmas list because if I expected something and it didn't turn out that way, it would make feel sad. So i saved the trouble of thinking about what I want and be thankful for all the gifts I got for Christmas. I got two ponchos from Hong and a new LV purse from Hoa! Anna bought some make-up for me and Thao-vi got me Polo slippers. it's so cute! It's yellow with Navyblue Polo logos of the horsey thing. Linda and Monica got me two jeans and pretty shirt, and Vuong got me a giftcard. Chi Diep got me a red jacket. And the rest of the family gave me money. Hang got me a Bath and Body Works basket full of goodies. Ton got me a DVD called Spirited Away. And Paul got me a little doll puppy in a doghouse. I got several phone calls from friends and there's more this weekend when I go to Florida for my Grandparents 50th year Anniversary Celebration.

Happy New Years Everyone! This will be my last post of 2004.

Officially Broke

This week i've been spending alot and now i'm broke. i went to the doctor to get my eyes checked up and I ordered contacts. that took alot of my spending money. so now it's back to saving up again. Hopefully this week's work can help me get some money so that i can do the things i planned. I want to go to Celebration in the Oaks with my sisters. other than that.. get more christmas gifts. And save up more $$ to get tickets to Josh Gorban's concert for March 11th. I love that dude! saw sneek peek of his concert on tv and it made my bones shivered.

Oh Yeah, my house have the internet now but it's not cable. Since my house is all covered in cemet, it would take months just to get cable. SO my dad just decided to screw cable and just get satelite, because football season is back already and by the time we actually do have cable, he wouldn't be watching it much anyways. How many channels can you get with cable that you can't get on satelite? It's all the same to me.

November

Work, school, youth rally, thanksgiving holiday, and christmas shopping is all i'm doing this month. I've been without a computer so i just watse my time driving around looking for christmas gifts and doing house errands while attending some classes and go to work. I'm glad we're going to get cable soon. It's taking so long because my house is surrounded by cemet. Anyways, just want to wish everyone a happy thanksgiving before i don't get a chance.

Happy Birthday to you

Happy Birthday Ton!

Date Auction

It was really fun I enjoyed myself. It's been a while since i did something like that. Dance my heart out. Even though I'm not a good dancer and all but it won't stop from dancing! I had fun and i wished it lasted longer. Due to my test Saturday morning and my parents, I didn't go to the afterparty. I heard it was fun. Oh wells, there will be other times. Most of the night i was so shocked as to how many people came and how many people were on stage for skits and being auctioned off. It was very interesting to watch other schools put on their show. i like the part where UNO went on stage, because we had a blast up there!

Updating

it kinda sucks to not have a computer. but i think we're going to get cable soon. Anyways, i really should do an update on this journal. So then it could at least have an entry for every month. I'm in the date auction! But not an auctionee, but doing a part in UNO's skit. It's really Cool. I'm very excited and happy about it. It's tonight at 7:00. There's an after party at southport, but i don't think i should go because (1) my parents will kill me if I come home like 3 in the morning. (2) I have a test on Saturday morning. Life has been treating me very well actually. I made alot of new friends and also learned a new way of dancing. And i'm thinking about quitting at castnet and work somewhere else, because all the good people quit already, and it's not the same anymore. Lately these days i've been more happier than before. I hope it keeps up, because it's something i need to go about my day. I'll be back later to write more.

I'm smiling in and out

It was last Friday that it happened. I saw him walking and i had this urge to come by and talk to him. I usually would walk away or try to avoid him. But this time it was God that helped me not to think and do whatever my heart felt like doing. I went by sat next to him and talked to him. We decided to go walk around campus and talk some more. I miss him so much. Maybe i should tell him that next time we talk. We're emailing each other now, but we're just friends, nothing major. I hope this goes well between us. I don't want to put my hopes up too high because i know i'll get scared and back away from it all again. I've been praying to God for my future husband. i don't know who it is. But i sure do hope it's him. I pray that he's healthy and happy. That one day we will find ourselves in love with each other. But as of right now. I enjoy the feeling of him in my heart again. Thinking about him makes me smile and if i were to see him today that'll be great! I love this feeling. Hope it lasts for a while i really want that.

Whew*

Thank God hurrican Ivan didn't hit us. And may God bless the people that is suffering from the horrible storm. My Grandma lives in Pensacola, and thank God her family is fine and her house stills tands. But my aunt's house roof got leaked fromthe rain and winds. They don't have electricity yet. But hopefully the people get it up and running soon. I evacuated New Orleans on Tuesday to Lafayette/Abbeville. We came home early on Thursday. It took me seven hours to get there and about three hours to get back home. I was driving my mother's Sienna van. It was my first time driving for such a long time. Considering going a distance of one block every thirty minutes! LOL! That was a miserable trip. But I spent quality time with my mom singing in the car to keep me awake when getting to Lafayette. My Dad and borther also cam along after the ladies left first. we went five cars! I took my mommy van; Hong took her Camry; Dad took his Tundra; Vuong took his Infiniti; and my sister's boyfriend came along with us. We went to Lafayette at diferent times, but when we went home we left all together in a whole Line! LOL! it was like a family thing; sticking together through thick and thin! Well, now it's back to school and work again. I'm not going to be online alot. So call me if you need me. Bye.

Hurricane Ivan

My mom calls it Ai Van, like that vietnamese singer. What are we planning to do? We're going to go to Lafayette to my sister's place, and if we have to, we will go to Houston and stay with my uncle. We're preparing for the storm because my dad will stay back to watch the house and his boat. Tomorrow we will have alot of work to do like my dad will tie his boat tight. and we're packing to evacuate and protect our house before we leave. We are going to take everything from the walls down and place them in our bedrooms. All holy statues will be wrap in towels into boxes. and windows will be boarded up and we will take every car with us except for one for our dad. hopefully everyone will be safe and may God Bless Us All. For those who are staying back, Be careful and be safe!

Interesting

GETTING OVER THAT SOMEONE

Have you ever just sat there thinking like crazy about that someone you claim to love so much only to drive yourself crazy? These thoughts that you continue to process over and over again just wondering why things are the way they are. Don`t you wish you could just stop thinking so you can stop the hurting deep within?

Well..if you can say yes to those questions, then ask yourself these questions....
Are yousure you`re not just obsessed?
Are you sure you`re not just over attached?
Obsession is bad, attachment is bad.

Don`t get caught up in the fact that it`s all based on feelings. Hell, if it were just based on feelings from the heart then why are you given a brain? Think a little. Step out of that broken hearted situation and really think about it in a third persons perspective. Try see what others see, try to see why things are the way they are. Don`t blind yourself with feelings, use your head and not your heart.

You only have one thing to get you through life, and that`s your brain. Don`t neglect it, don`t misuse it, trust what you think, but think logically.


LOOKING BACK ON THE MEMORIES...

Have you ever come across those days where you just happen to find something that contributed to that special relationship? Be it a CD that was created by him/her for you, or a letter/email, just those physical things to remind you of that relationship you once had. For that short period of time that you`re reminiscing in the past you can often feel the happiness that was there, but once it`s over, like that relationship, it`s over.

I find that if you`re gonna go dig up the past, you`re just setting yourself up for a punch in the heart. Yet you just keep on digging just to remember, cause a good relationship should not be forgotten. As much as it may still hurt, it`s a good reminder that you were once special to someone.

On the other hand, if that relationship was bad, do yourself a favor and toss out all that crap. What`s the point in keeping memories of something that was harmful to you?

Your memories are all you have left of a relationship. No one wants a bad relationship, so why keep the crap around. But the thing that seems to leave the lasting impression usually are the bad memories over the good. It`s funny how the laughs are quickly forgotten and the pain easily reborn.

i got this from someone's page that got it from someone else's page.

I'm starting to like UNO

I'm making so many new friends at UNO. I made new friends at the Asian Club meeting and played volleyball with some of them too. UNO also give me oppprtunities to hang out with my 'good old days' friends. I hardly see them for the past few years, and now that i'm going to the same school as them, it makes me feel like I belong there. Never have I spent so much time with Jason before. He helped me to find the Voter Registration Form by walking me to different places trying to find one. And then he gave me a tour of the UNO gym. Afterwards I played volleyball with him and his friends. It was very nice just walking and talking with him. We've never had anything like that before and we've been friends for like 8 years.

I'm also scheduling to go to the gym more often with my friends (and the new ones) to play volleyball and to do some workouts. I think I will go to the Yoga class sessions there also if my new friend Kieu wants to go with me. I signed up for the Date Auction thing too, and I hope I can have a part in this event, because I missed out on it last year. Hopefully I can squeeze it into my schedule. I don't want to be an auctionee though, because I'm kinda scared of that. I also re-joined Linh Thao, and hopefully I can make it every Sunday. I really enjoy the people and their openess at the prayer meetings. I don't mind reading, just not too long though. I had to read the Bible part today, and it was long!

Also, this song by Sarina Paris bring back alot of memories. I like this song and i'm feeling it. Because I just relaized 'Single life is for me.' Even though you like someone, it's best to be single. No worries, and you can do pretty much anything you want without having to think twice or feeling guilty of doing something that may hurt the other person's feelings. My brother-in-law asked me if I had a boyfriend, and I said no. He thinks I do, but I really don't. Not up for anything like that yet. Even though I know my family thinks that i'm at the verge of getting one because this is the age where my two sisters met their boyfriends. Oh well, I don't have one. Do I really want one (i ask myself)?? not really, i'm doing good without one.

Why?

I told myself to get over him but i always seem to come back at this state. I think i'm just missing him today. maybe it's the mood swings. BUT, Maybe it's for real. I thought about him alot today. and i wish i can tell him things i haven't been telling him, because i need to release some feelings out of my mind. I think i'm going to be crazy again. I have this urge and need to tell him this but i can't! because what if things do start to happen again, and i'm not ready. I really don't know what i want. i need someone to get through me and tell me that "it's okay". That i can have a relatioshp with someone, and that it'll be okay if i'm not ready because eventaully i will be. And that whatever my parents or family may think, it'll be okay, because it's about me and my life. But, Yet, I'm still afraid of it. Afraid of myself and him not being able to work things out and than we'll just break-up again. I want to be in love with him again, and i want him to love me back. i need to see him and renew my life again and actually smile agian, inside and out. i'm am so dead right now without him. I'm just living accordingly from people and not myself. But when i'm with him, i become myself. i need him so much, why am i living without him? How can i still walk the streets and block him out of my life and go throught with it? I dunt know. But i did and it wasn't pleasant. and i only tried blocking him, i never acutally got him out of my mind, Because if i did, i wouldn't be here writing this. I miss him so much. and i think i still love him. I need to tell him, but for some reason i am not.

Love Is In The Air

Man, All these love bugs are getting on my nerves. I washed the car last week on thursday and now it's like "murder of the lovebugs" car. I think whenever they are gone, For sure Gone, than i will wash it, but for now it will be a lovebug killing machine. other than that, I miss someone right now. I wish i can talk to this person again but i haven't seen this person in a while. But when i do, i will surely love to talk to this person again. It will make me feel better than what i am feeling now. Maybe this time i will tell this person my secret, so then i will feel even much better. But i am not sure, it might not go to well, so maybe i will not. Can i keep this secret for long? i've been debating about this subject over the past few days. I've talked to friends and i think i should, but it'll be weird when i do. Going beyong the choice of telling the secret, i'm afraid and worry about the consequences, Why should there be consequences?! Right? I do not want to act like things are normal, because it's not. I need to be myself, which is totally Confused. All the time. I don't know what i want. Can someone let me know what i want?

September Already?!

Wow, time sure do fly by fast. I'm glad I'm going to school now at UNO. i see alot of my old friends again, and also making new ones here and there. I dunt know why, but i feel annoyed and tired and sad all at the same time today. But It's going to be okay. My boss scheduled me for work on Saturday all day, but i have a Class in the morning, so now i have to come in as soon as possible because she needs people. So if there's someone who's looking for a job, Castnet needs people! I think i wanna Quit. But then again i need something to do so i guess i'll just stick with it until i get really bored. I talked to some friends at work about my love life. I guess it's really complicated with me. Because i told them that i'm afraid to have a boyfriend, because i'm not really good in realtionships. and I stop it when things get deeper because i can't handle it. Encouragingly, they tell me just be myself and let your heart open to another person whole heartedly. they also said that i don't know what i want and another said I can't be committed. I think that's quite true. But another said to me, love is what you make it, not made of the things others say. they don't know how you feel and they never will. SO, how am i making Love? I'm screwed. that could of been a funny pun. Anyways, what if I did trust someone, and things didn't work out. What do I do now? Ugh! I don't even know what I am thinking right now. But before i leave i just wanted to let You, the person that actually reads this blog, that I think I'm PMSing so that's why i'm writing alot of stupid shit on my mind. that's all, thanks. I just think that it'll be unfair for me and the significant other if i'm not up for it and if i went along with it just because.

First Week of School

My classes this semester is pretty good. I have Math on Saturday morning with an old man as my teacher. I have this class with Trang and Ton. It'll be almost like high school again, only we meet once a week on a non-regular school day. LOL! And then on MWF I have Basic Vietnamese at 11 and the class is like a small group of people and we're all Vietnamese and all of us have the same last name: Nguyen! Isn't that cool?! I know i'm kinda cheating for being in that course but I rather perfect my language than learning a new language and suck at it. On Tusedays and Thursdays I have Intro to Short Story and Novel by myself and an old lady teaches it. Than I have Music Appreciation at 3 with Ton and a new friend named Kieu. I also got aqquanited with a guy named Carlos. He sat next to me and he was very talkative. More Than Me! And we had a whole conversation before class started and The Thing Was: we never met each other before! I guess he's a people person and socially interacts alot because he's in a fraternity. Half the time I was just smiling and Ton sat next to me probably laughing his ass off and made fun of me. But it was okay generally, except on Tuesday. It was hot and I sweat alot! Especially standing in line in the bookstore!

New Look

I changed the color because i got bored with the pink and burgundy one. It was nice, but sometimes change is good. It makes me feel better and that's the reason why I changed it. It gives me a new and brighter feeling. That's what i need right now, because I'm starting school tomorrow! I want to have a good and fresh start and be ready for some learning. BUT than again, as exciting as I made it sound, it's back to the routine of sitting in class for a long time talking about one subject. It's dreadful sometimes but we'll get used to it right? We all have to. It's part of a students life. *Back To School* On with the counting down the time until you get out of class and the holidays you look forward to in the semester. Like Labor Day! That's the first one! Even though it's a one day break from school, it's still something people look forward to. For me, It's a shopping day! Usually they have sales on Labor Day, so I'll have fun. Need to save up for it though.

How are you Van?

Life has been good lately can't complain. I'm starting school on Saturday and I have two classes with Ton. What a coincidence huh? It's good to have classes with a friend because you'll have someone to talk to and study with. Since i'm taking easy classes i'll be working during school this semster. Work has been like normal. Even though alot of people quit just recently but, it'll be okay because the old people are still there anyway. On family: we hit some bad lucks, but we're getting through it fine. Also, My brother got a new G35, two door, bright red Infiniti! We're so happy for him. I'll be working on my car next! On my life with love? There was something going on but I don't want to think about it because it's very complicated right now. It's very difficult for me to handle when it comes to relationships. So, it was stopped before it gotten any further. On myself: There's something wrong with me lately. There's something missing in my life that changed my attitude. It's hard for me to smile now. It' s like when i smile i don't feel the happiness anymore. I may be smiling on the outside, but there's nothing much going on inside. I think my smiling days are going away and fading. i'm getting older and grumpier! Is it because of work? Or am i missing something in my life that was there before and now i've lost it? On Faith/God I've been praying more lately because of the things that have been going on in my life. I'm so grateful that God blessed me, my family, and friends. My dad's boat got broken twice and i'm glad everyone was safe and he got it fixed. My friend got into two car life threatening incidents but was unharmed. And I myself needed strength to go through tough times with my sister.

There have been ups and downs in my life and i guess i'll be looking forward for more. I feel as if i'm living just to be alive. i wish there was 'more to life' then what it is right now for me. But then again i have to be careful of what i wish for. Like i said, Can't Complain.

Moving right along

i have realized things about myself during the passed month. I always have habits of thinking about him alot and dreaming about him and having him in my mind the first thing in the morning. It takes some time to get pass it. I dunt look for him on the streets by his grandma house or at the store anymore. Nor do I try to see where he sits on Sunday at Mass. I dunt drive on his street unless i have to and i dunt IM him up anymore. I guess my life goes on with or without him in my heart. But i still have the habit on looking at his personal page. As of Now, there' s no one i feel for. I feel dead because i have no feelings to keep me looking forward to a new day. I feel like i'm just living just to be alive. But what's more drastic is that, it's hard for me to smile now. I dunt feel the happiness anymore, because i know my smile won't make him happy. It'll just be a smile on the outside, but nothing much on the inside, and i'm not used to that. Most of the time when i smile, I think about him because he told me that he likes my smile and it makes him smile and i like his too.

Nice Weather

Huirricane Charley did a bad one on Florida, But it gave us nice weather.

Today was the Friday the 13th. Anything bad happened? Not Really. I prayed so hard that everything will be good today and it was. Thao-vi had a good day back to school. My sister had a good day. Only thing was that, today Casnet had an Emrgency. We had to call 911 today. It was my first time going through a situation like this at work. It wasn't bad. Just kinda different. A customer came in and all of a sudden he fell down and had a seizure. We call 911 and an ambulance came and got him. Other than that, I stink and feet hurts and i have to go back tomorrow for one more full day of work.

How's everything so far? Well, I did something insanely crazy and my sister got mad, but everything turned out okay. I felt so guilty of the mistake and i was stressed out because of it these last two days. and today was the day to find out if everything was alright. And Thank God It was! Whew! I couldn't stand the deep trouble i would be in if everything went out bad.

And today i watched the ceremony for the Olympics. This is such a great event. I'm rooting for Carly Patterson, she's from Louisiana and I heard she was a threat to win the gold medal! Go Carly!

The month I was born

JANUARY

Ambitious and serious

Loves to teach and be taught

Always looking at people's flaws and weaknesses

Likes to criticize

Hardworking and productive

Smart, neat and organized

Sensitive and has deep thoughts

Knows how to make others happy

Quiet unless excited or tensed

Rather reserved

Highly attentive

Resistant to illnesses but prone to colds

Romantic but has difficulties expressing love

Loves children

Logical

Needs close friends

Searches for the greatest romance

Loyal

Social

Easily jealous

LJ Wouldn't let me post text

So here's a link to another journal.
SwtTuyetVan
Hopefully it works.

Just got back home

This weekend was fun. We came there and saw our condo, it was tyte! It was right there on the beach and everything! We unpacked and ate then went right out to the water. It was fun! and at night we went to catch little white crabs and tried to dig up sand to find hermit crabs, but had no luck. then we got Pizzas and watched DVD's -Timeline and Chasing Liberty. Than the next day (saturday) we went water sking, but it didn't last long, the waters were to rough and we have to come back for a raincheck. we went back to our condo and then the beach was off limits (red Flag), due to the rough waters, and no one could go in the water. But it was okay, we went into the pool instead and my aunts and cousins came out and chilled with us and we had a BBQ. Boy did my aunts and cousins killed the food! On Sunday we went to church. It was a pretty church. Then we went shopping around there and saw interesting things there. Did i mention, this week is Bushwackers festival at pcola? It was full of people! The waters were still rough so we just walked on the beach and watched the surfers and I took a nap and then went for a swim in the pool. At night we went to Hershey's Ice Cream, and had root beers and ice cream. Monday, we packed to check out and then went to Foley to the outlet mall and did some shopping before heading back home. Came home and now's it 'back to life, back to reality'.



Oh yeah, Thao-vi and Nhan went fishing every morning, and Thao-vi caught a fish! Congradulations Girlie!

Pensacola, Here I Come!

The week was going fine, but something happened around mid-week and i'm always pacing and thinking too much. Getting ready for school is already getting me worried and trying to fit everything in schedule was hard. Also, planning and preparing for this trip kept me busy and now i'm so excitied and can't go to bed. Well, just hopefuly this weekend will be relaxing and help me reflect on things a bit.

By the way, Me and my sisters are going to Pensacola and staying at a condo for the weekend. I'll be back Monday and getting ready for classes. Which is August 21st! Yeah, It's a Saturday. I got Saturday classes. Bummer right? Oh wells, after this semster, things will get better.

Well, I'm leaving you with a story I read a while ago: http://www.soompi.com/fanfix/story.php?fid=42

It's called Habits

Me and my cousin So stupid

DixGyrlBlindA: tell thao i miss her

SwtTuyetVan: Okay

DixGyrlBlindA: n tell her i said hi!!!

DixGyrlBlindA: n i wanna touch her boobs

DixGyrlBlindA: lolz

SwtTuyetVan: Hahahha

SwtTuyetVan: O My Gosh

SwtTuyetVan: Hey Linda...

SwtTuyetVan: It got bigger

SwtTuyetVan: and softer too

SwtTuyetVan: Hahaha

DixGyrlBlindA: ahhaha

DixGyrlBlindA: awz,\..

SwtTuyetVan:  imiss your boobs too

DixGyrlBlindA: i miss it so much

DixGyrlBlindA: ahha

DixGyrlBlindA: mines

SwtTuyetVan: I want to touch it again, and say hi to it

DixGyrlBlindA: ahhaha

DixGyrlBlindA: i miss urs to van

SwtTuyetVan: Why?

SwtTuyetVan: It didn't get bigger

SwtTuyetVan: Hahahaha

DixGyrlBlindA: ahhaha

SwtTuyetVan: It got a tanline now!

DixGyrlBlindA: but i styll miss it

DixGyrlBlindA: ahha

DixGyrlBlindA: ahha

DixGyrlBlindA: from disney/?

SwtTuyetVan: My bathing suit made a line

SwtTuyetVan: Miami Beach

DixGyrlBlindA: OOoz

DixGyrlBlindA: ahhahja

DixGyrlBlindA: we're going to camel back beach dis weekend

SwtTuyetVan: Hahaha

SwtTuyetVan: Okay

SwtTuyetVan: And then i can touch your boob agian

DixGyrlBlindA: yep

DixGyrlBlindA: ahha

got bored

Name Four Bad Habits You Have:

1. talking too much

2. spend too much money

3. daydreaming

4. staying up late



Name Four Things That You Wish You Had:

1. A car of my own

2. more money

3. longer hair

4. a credit card



Name Five Scents You Love:

1. clean air

2. New born baby

3. a cake being baked

4. Waffles/Pancakes

5. Chocolate



Name Six People That Know You the Best:

1. Me

2. thao-vi

3. anna

4. linda

5. mom

6. grandma



Name Four Things You'd Never Wear:

1. Sponge Bob Costume for Halloween

2. Hannan's Uniform anymore!

3. earings that would irritate me

4. Small sized shoes



Name Four Things You Are Thinking About Now:

1. Where's thao-vi?

2. Is the clothes in the dryer done.

3. I hope I don't have any missed calls

4. What's for dinner?



Name Four Things That You Have Done Today:

1. I babysat tanner and tyler

2. Went to wal-mart to pick up disney pics

3. tried to organize the pictures

4. clean my room to find photo albums



Name the Last Four Things You Have Bought:

1. Disney pictures

2. Drinks at Sonics

3. Gas

4. Stamps



Name Five Bands/Groups Most People Don't Know You Like:

1. Avalon

2. daphne loves derby

3. Dong Bang Shin Gi

4. The Calling

5. Lifehouse



Name Five Drinks You Regularly Drink:

1. Peach Iced Tea

2. Water

3. Sonics Slushies

4. Orange Soda

5. Coke





1. First Grade Teacher Name? Mrs. Washington



2. Last Words You Said: What are my favorite bands? ( i asked myself)



3. Last Song You Sang? thw whole song of Sukiyaki



4. Last Person You Hugged? My nephew Tanner when he went home



5. Last Thing You Laughed At? When me and my sister made jokes from Nhu Quynh's blinking eyes



6. Last Time You Said 'I Love You' And Meant It? to my nephew Tanner when I hugged him



7. Last Time You Cried? watching a phin tau last night



8. What's In Your CD Player? My burnt Love Mix Cd, Metamorphisis (Hilary Duff), Best Of Chinese Melodies Vol. 3.



9. What Color Socks Are You Wearing? Not wearing any socks



10. What's Under Your Bed? Dust and hair maybe?



11. What Time Did You Wake Up Today? 9:30



12. Current Taste? chocolate



13. Current Hair? Tied up in a half ponytail and ball



14. Current Clothes? Jeans and t-shirt



15. Current Annoyance? uneven nails



16. Current Longing? Pensacola in a few days



17. Current Desktop Picture? Adrian my other Nephew



18. Current Worry? No More Money!!!!



19. Current Hate? No Money



20. Favorite Physical Feature Of The Opposite Sex? face (eyes and smile)



21. Last CD You Bought? Oxygen: Avalon



22. Favorite Place To Be? my backyard hammock



23. Least Favorite Place? work



24. Time You Wake Up In The Morning? 9:00



25. If You Could Play An Instrument? piano



26. Favorite Color? any shades of blue



27. Do You Believe In An Afterlife? Yeah



28. How Tall Are You? 5'0



29. Current Favorite Word/Saying? That's weird!



30. Favorite Book? none



31. Favorite Season? all four



32. One Person From Your Past You Wish You Could Go Back And Talk To: Kim-Thuy



33. Favorite Day? Sunday



34. Where Would You Like To Go? On a boat out in the water



35. What Is Your Career Going To Be Like? Dentistry



36. How Many Kids Do You Want? at least 2



37. Favorite Car? None



38. Type A Line You Remember From Any Book: "the greatest things comes in small packages"



39. A Random Lyric: "By Heart, By Soul, that's how i want to know you"



40. Identify Some Of The Things Surrounding Your Computer: Hot Tamales, envelopes, cds, floppy disks, cell phone, Pens/ pencils.



I AM: Bored

I THINK: i need to do something else

I KNOW: today is not tuesday

I WANT: a new cd player

I HAVE: a broken cd player

I WISH: i can go back in time

I MISS: Katelyn

I FEAR: gaining too much weight

I HEAR: me chewing candy

I SEARCH: with yahoo

I WONDER: how i would look if i was skinny

I REGRET: not learning the whole song of Fur Elise

I LOVE: to sing

I CARE: about Family

I CHERISH: Memories

I ALWAYS: Smile

I AM NOT: skinny

I DANCE: crazy when no one's looking

I SING: love songs

I CRY: Watching movies

I DO NOT ALWAYS: catch on fast to jokes

I FIGHT: with my sisters

I WRITE: in a notebook as a journal

I WIN: and feel happy

I LOSE: and try again

I CONFUSE: people

I LISTEN: to my parents

I CAN USUALLY BE FOUND: at home

I AM HAPPY ABOUT: being by myself and doing alright

I SHOULD: talk to my friends more often

I NEED: to lose weight

I FEEL: like i forgot something

My Week of Vacation

A whole week of vacation in Florida was a great idea! We started off going Sunday morning at eight to be in time to check in our Villa! It's called Cypress Pointe Resort and it's like down the

street from Downtown Disney and about a good 7 minutes away from the theme parks. We were so amazed when we drove in. The resort had a swimming pool, volleyball court, tennis court, and a basketball court. We had a  http://www.hotelkingdom.com/hotelinfo/info.asp?hotel_id=483 Three-BedroomVilla and it was so Outrageous! Then in the morning we went to Disney World! We went to Magic Kingdom and spent a long day there. We went on most of the fun rides and took pictures with some characters: Dopey, Buzzlightyear, but no Mickey. It was showering a little but that kept it from getting too hot and we went home to the Resort and swim at the pool until 11:00! It was so fun! Then the next day we headed out to Sea World and it was a little hotter but at least in the morning it showered a little. We saw a dolphin show and Shamu the great killer whale! It was so cool!

The next day we planned to go to Universal Studios but we knew we weren't up for it because it was so hot and we know that we have to walk alot. So we went shopping instead at Belz Outlet and another place i forgot the name and had a relaxing day. Then after hours of shopping we headed down to Miami Beach. When we got there it was dark like around 1:00 in the morning and it was like a daylight city with people walking around like it wasn't late. It was kinda like New Orleans. We got a little scared at the surroundings so we cancel our reservations at the hotel in Miami Beach and went away from the city and found another place by Fort Lauderdale. We spent the night there and headed back to Miami to meet up with a friend and he brought us to go get Tropical fruits! we spent the whole day driving around to different places for the best prices and ate alot of fruits too. That night we didn't want to cook so we ate Chinese buffet and we went to our hotel. 

Then the next day we went to a Beach by Fort Lauderdale. It was so peaceful out there, and the water was cool, and there was a nice breeze, and I can finally say I swam in the Pacific Ocean! That was the end of our vacation, it was time to head back home! We drove to Pensacola and spent the night at my grandama's house and headed back home on Saturday. We had to go back home to get a New Car!! We got a bright red Infiniti. It is so nice! Well, that's all folks. That was my week!

Pictures

Last night I stayed awake until like 4:00. Why?! I was so wide awake. it was eleven. I didn't want to go online because I need a break from it, and do other things. I read my book, but I got bored with it quickly. So I went into my closet and took down old memory boxes, and went through it. I looked at old picutres, read love letters, and went through some things I collected throughout the years of Middle School and High School. Though some things are gone during my house fire, but some things still remain (with the smoke smell). I looked at my picutre in the year book and my family album. Those were great memories made. It made me cry and laugh looking at those pictures. It's unexplainable the things I remember last night.



"I always knew that looking back on the tears would make me laugh, but I never knew that looking back at the laughs would make me cry." -unknown



I want to look back one day with the same feeling in the far future. Now days, everyone are getting digital cameras and loading it to their computers. The picture quality is great. It's fun to use or do new things with the inhancement and technology of picture taking. But, for me, I want pictures that I can hold in my hands and not through a screen of a computer. I want to be surprised of the pictures I've taken in a roll of film being developed at the store. I mean it's fun to do it yourself at home, but it's quite expensive now to print your own picutres, because the ink and paper you use. Also, you can save it into your computer, but what if it crashes down one day?! And sometimes people don't have time to sit there and do photoshop things on the computer. Even though some people may like the new modern day pictures, I still like the old regular picture taking days. So, from now on, i'm taking pictures the old fashioned way.

One of the reasons why people have digital cameras is that when they mess up, they can delete it and take another one. But I think that every picture taken is worth it, even the messed up one. I'll take pictures and never delete any moments frozen in time, even the mess up pictures.

My Day

Today I went to the UNO orietntation. It was boring, they just talked alot. and then I joined with my friend Ton there, he needed to do some school business also. After that, we wanted to go watch the movie Spiderman 2. And we did, but we had an hour to chill until it was time for the show. So we stayed at his place and I watched my first anime! It's about a nun and how she's an exorcist. I only watched the first episode, so whenever I have time I'll watch some more. It's almost like chinese movies, but it's cartoon! Then we left to the movies with his little sister to go see SpiderMan 2! It was a great movie! I really enjoyed it. Then on the way home, Krispy Kreme's "Hot Doughnuts" sign was on, so we stop there and had some doughnuts. A good day well spent and I'm glad I was off from work today. It's been a while since I went out on a Friday.

I'm very sleepy now, i need to go to bed so i can have energy to work tomorrow. I spent a few minutes on Aim, and then decided to post this and now I'm sleepier. I think it's because I woke up at seven today. Walked around the UNO campus for the tour, got really sweaty, and sat on my ass for a while watching a movie. Yeah, I'm going to sleep now. No maybe read a little of "The Notebook", then fall alseep. Night Night!

Still Awake

Today I didn't do much, I went grocery shopping with my mom today. Usually she would go on the weekend but since she was in Florida she had to go today. I miss going grocery shopping with her, I'm so glad I was off today. Cuz I work on weekends now and I don't go shopping with her anymore. I Love My Mom!

My schedule will be work from 3-9 on Thursday. Friday: UNO transfer Student Orientation From 7:45 til 5 and then movies with my friend to go see Spiderman 2! Then on Saturday: Work all day, =(. Sunday: nothing planned. Bored.

Here's a story to Read: It was you all along

blogging

Today I went to work from 3-9 and came home a little early today. I'm glad we cleaned up fast to go home tonight. I have no plans for tomorrow, and I really need to save my money for Disneyworld in a couple of weeks.

Well, today I went to pump gas and as I walk in to pay the lady, a man in a wheelchair asked me if I had a quater, I told him I didn't have a quarter, but I had some change in my pocket, so I gave it all to him. I don't know what the exact amount is but I know I didn't have any quarters. That man turned out he could stand without the wheelchair! Oh well, I think that God was testing me or something, so it's all good.

I'm reading "The Notebook" by Nicholas Sparks. Reasons why?.. Because my friends said it was good, and there's a movie in theaters based on this book. I regret not picking up this book earlier bcause I found out it was a best seller for a whole year! i read the first chapter, and I think it's a good book already.

Bored..

I was on Asianavenue.com, but for some reason, I can't LogOn. So now it'll be that way until I figure out a way to go around the Firewall my sister put up. It's all for good reasons because of all the viruses they have on computers now. But I can still preview AsianAvenue.com. And I saw the MOTW as a girl named Suzanna Wang. I remembered I visited her page once even before she was MOTW, and found this:

If you love someone, you don't have to be with them! -Suzanna Wang.



I've learned this after meeting him. Things are never the same when you've broken trust. Trust is Fragile. Just be yourself at all times. If you are meant to be together, you will be. If you are meant to be together, you will cross paths again one day. Nothing will stop it from Happening.=)

I used this on my AsianAvenue page when I had the layout with Ayumi Hamasaki. I thought this was very powerful and related to me very well. I believe in fate and that fate will brings those who belong together to each other no matter what. Through the ups and downs and the weird things that happens, the lovers will end up together. Call me a hopeless romantic clutz, but I do believe in such things.

Happy Independence Day!

I went to Flordia, But didn't make in time to go to the beach with my sisters, who were there since Friday. We just ate BBQ and hang out all night telling ghost stories, couldn't fall asleep, cuz i was freaking scared, LOL! Today we had a long ride home, cuz traffic. Kinda tired now, but I really wanted to go see SpiderMan 2. But too bad, my sisters already went Saturday. So now I don't want to no more because I don't want to go by myself.

Goodmorning

I woke up today, and i looked like i saw a ghost during the night. I'm So Pale! Can't wait to go to the beach tomorrow. i Didn't want to go to work looking white, so i put some eyeliner on, just a lil so i won't look to pale coming to work. I couldn't sleep until 1:05 last night. i was just lying in bed after my shower and felt Bored and can't fall alseep. even though i know i need the sleep. Oh well, i feel okay this morning. Well, have a great day everyone!

Goodnight

Today was so tiring. It was a lil busy a Canset today, but i didn't go as fast as I usually would on a Friday. I have to come in early tomorrow, so I have to go to bed soon. Oh yeah, we have plans for July 4th! I'm going to my grandmother's to visit, and we're going to go to pensacola beach, but only a few hours, hopefully i'll get a light tan, I'm so pale. My grandmother is about an hour away from the beach so it'll be cool. Since Casnet is closed two days after July 4th, i have a few days to let my body take a break from all the swimming i'm planning to do. Hopefully my muscles are ready for some cramping! I'm so thirsty. not that hungry, even though I ate around 3 today, i thought i should be, but i'm more thirsty.... and water just filled me up. Feet hurt, and I stink. After my shower, it'll be Night Night.

At This Moment

This morning: I'm so cold! my house is like freaking Winter, and it's July! I have to go to work later in 2 hours. I kind of missed it cuz i haven't been going to work this whole week until now since last Saturday. On Life/Family, I'm trying to save up for Family Vacations. Yes, vacation with a "S". One of it is to go to Disney World on the week of July 18th. We're going to go for a whole week and also to Miami to pick tropical fruits. The other Vacation is to Pensacola for a weekend at a condo we rented for $700! There's no plans for July 4th this year. It's because we're all busy. It's okay though. On Work/School, I'm still working on my papers to tansfer to UNO, and i'm going to the Transfer Student Orientation next Friday. Work has been Great! just hope that i can get off for my vacations. The people there is nice, and they pay well enough for me to stay. But when school starts, I think i should Quit, it's too stressful. On Friends/Love, I think i'm falling for a great friend of mines. But then again i might not be, it's probably because i feel lonely and he's always there to talk to me and cheer me up. We've been friends for a long time now, and i don't want to ruin that, so i'll just keep that way. On God/Self. I think i pray to him, but not as strong as i did before. I think it's because i don't need anything and I haven't experienced anything that made me feel uplifted. Also, maybe i always thank him right after something happens or when i need him right at that moment, and then i forget to tell him how i felt about it. As for me, i'm doing okay. Can't complain.

as Time passed

well, he says they're just friends, and i believe him.

JUNE: We went to the mall together with my little sister Anna, and ate ice cream at Marble Slab. It was so long since we spent any time together and i invited him to come with me, It was because i couldn't stand it without talking to him in person. He gave me a cd so that i could listen to a song he liked at the time. How did i feel about spending time with him? -We're still good friends. i guess this is how it will be.

Today: I moved on. I realize that me and him won't work out. I know that no matter how hard i try to keep the love we shared, Alive, it just won't be the same anymore. I need to move on and find something that will make me happy again. I stayed in loneliness for so long already.

Mother Again

I'm still worried about my mother and what she'll think when i tell her these stuff. Maybe i'll just wait until i meet the right guy and slowly let her find out and break it to her. I mean, I really appreciate all the times she held my hand when i needed her. Those times of counsel and love will never be forgotten. Just hope that she'll understand, and don't think that i want to really have a boyfriend to make her sad, it's just me growing up. it's hard on both of us, for her to let go, for me to actually start dating. Damn. To think of it, I'm not really ready for a relationship. i know i don't want to rush into it. So, i'll just wait for the right one i guess & the right time to tell my mother which is when I actually do have a boyfriend. Gosh! I'm thinking to much about something that really doesn't exist yet. I wonder how the pressure will be when i actually do have a boyfriend and tell my mother about it. Urgh. Imma stop thinking about this man, I guess just for now. It's really not that important yet anyways.

Asianavenue

I Love You!
By Heart By Soul - Avalon

to listen to this song go to my website.
Tuyet-Van

Shit. i can't believe it. lovingmeil.blogspot.com

Dear Jesus

I prayed to you many times for for letting me love him, and i always thought that he was loving me also. but i found out he doesn't anymore. he met soemone new, and he's in love with her. but it's okay, i trust you Jesus, and i still wanna Thank You for letting me love him, and feel the way that i do. It made me happy sometimes. and it made me realize how i really miss and how i really loved him. Now he says he's met soemone new! Urgh! i'm not sure how i feel. all these times i thought he still likes me. Why was i lying to myself. how did this happened?! I thought he still likes me. I'm sad now and feel betrayed, and i'm the one to blame. but yet i feel okay and cool about it, because this is what supposed to happen right?. I dunt know.I just really miss him
i guess it's alright, the best thing to do is to keep calm. because it's the best way to be. Maybe this is a test Jesus is testing me. and i believe that we belong together. If i keep my faith, then everything will be okay. It doesn't matter how many girls he goes out with cuz one day we will end up together. It's okay. If it's a test, i'll take it, and all the sadness it comes with. I want him to do whatever he wants, and be happy any moment he has. It'll be fine. I'll just hang on.


Song: Hanging By a Moment -Lifehouse
Mood: sad, and okay about it

urgh!

This is what it says in his profile: "I'm In Love Hell Yeah"
He says that he just recently met someone, and that he was scared to tell me, and relieved his stress because he told me?! ugh?! i feel: i dunt know. Should be sad, but mostly blank and shocked and taking it cooly. Ugh! Oh well, i guess that's it.

Song: Frou Frou - "It's good to be in love"

Whoa

I did it in 29 seconds.
I deserved a B!!
Take the How Dexterous Are You? Quiz!!


i saw this on Your page ton, it was interesting, so i tried it and this is what i got!!!

*sigh*

I think he still likes me, Because whenever he talk to me online, it seems like he's really hitting on me. Is this good or bad? I don't know. I just want things to be good between us. But i don't want to lead him on; Because i'm not ready to start again. it's just happeneing all over agian and it's going to end as soon as i know it just started.

wednesday

Last night, i stayed up late watching this great chinese movie called "Fulltime Killer" it's about assassins. It was almost like counter strike but kind of like grand theft auto. It was awesome and i finally went to sleep around Two o' clock. I woke up around 9 to clean a lil and went back to sleep, than i woke up so that i can take my little sister to go eat ice cream at baskin robins, but they weren't open until 12:00 and the sign says their hours are 11:00 til whenever... forgot. I was so disappointed, but it was okay cuz we only waited about 10 minutes. During that 10 minutes, we went to the Domino's, which was next to baskin robins, and ordered a Philly Cheesesteak Pizza! It was great timing cuz when baskin robins opened, the lady had time to make cappuchino blasts for us while we ate pizza on their table. So it was a great lunch. then we went home to get tennis stuff to play at joe brown park. Since no one was there during that time. It was also a bad idea cuz it was so HOT! so we went to sonics after thirty minutes and got drinks and i dropped off a camera at walgreen's. Than back to our plan, we wanted to go to Hannan to pick Thao-Vi Up and head to the mall early, but unfortunately, my brother called and said that they were home from offshore, so we had to go home and help out with the shrimp and stuff. Well that's it, that was my day.

LJ Just getting started

Kinda new at this livejournal thing. But i'm pretty sure i'll get the hang of it soon. i wanted to have a journal online, so that friends and family can read and catch up on things about me. I might not write in this everyday, but i'll try my best to post alot of things for everyone. Well, enjoy and come back soon!

I Love My Mom

One day, I`ll ask her if i can have a boyfriend, But right now. She doesn`t want me to have a boyfriend. She thinks that when i have a byofriend, i will not care about her anymore, and that i will spend all my free time with my boyfriend and forget about about her. I love my mom so much, I don`t want to hurt her feelings because: i do want a boyfriend. I already thought about a way to talk to her. But not so sure if it`ll work. You know how when you were a baby learning your first steps, and your mother would hold on to you and won`t let you go so that you can walk by yourself. Well, i think my mom won`t let me go. isn` that sweet of her? But how else will i learn how to walk if she doesn`t let go. It`s hard but it will happen eventually. I need her to understanmd that she will have to let me go, even when it may hurt. I will always love her, and i appreciate all the times she held my hand when i needed her. Those times of counsel and love will never be forgotten.

i'm still think of him often

I'm transfering next semester to the school he is going to right now. i probably will see him there often. on easter vigil we had a great talk. but i never had a chance to put it on here. I think he kind of hint to me that he still have feelings for me, and that maybe we might be together again. It made me real happy. He also said that everytime he talked to a girl, he think of me and how i might disapprove. that's a little funny, but it's quite true that you can never forget a person you cared about alot, a person you love. i think there's something wrong with me. Do i love him or not?! Why do these feelings linger for so long?

=)

Haven't thought about him much. We're still friends i guess, because i wrote in his guestbook, and he wrote back and he seemed friendly. i wished him a happy birthday. i see him at church on Sundays and Saturdays. i know he sees me. That's about it.

Month of February

My Birthday just passed last week. Next week is Valentine's Day. and then a week after that, it'll be his birthday. I miss it alot. I thinking about sending him a birthday card. I might will.

Happy New Year

Every Tet, the church has a big celebration with places to eat food/drink, play games, and stand in the crowd to see a concert. This is a place where i know i'll see him. This year my family is celebrating tet at home. He might be at his grandma's house, outside for the midnight fireworks. I'll be out there too.